First ivf march 2014! Please join me!

[mononoke]

Just wanted to send :babydust: to the ladies having their transfer soon. Relax, relax and look forward to your BFP's. Good luck!

 

[Peachy1584]

Amanda my protocol with the Lupron was a bit different but every doctor seems to have their own recipe for success : )

Mono how are you feeling hon? Do you have another appt soon?

 

[mononoke]

Amanda my protocol with the Lupron was a bit different but every doctor seems to have their own recipe for success : )

Mono how are you feeling hon? Do you have another appt soon?

Hi Peachy, thanks for asking. I am feeling low but its really weird because there is a vague sense of loss within me but at the same time I am trying to ignore it because I'm still pregnant.

I am trying to bury myself with work since some people at the office knew about what happened to my other twin, it so happens, there is another attorney in the firm who is actually litigating his own case of medical malpractice against a hospital because him and his wife lost a twin too but it was a live birth. He was alleging that it was a complete human error because they did not try to revive him, they were born at 26 weeks, over 1lb. each. (The protocol is that medical team would only revive if they are more than 25 weeks and more than a pound.) anyway he was so nice and apologetic and I can truly see how sorry he feels for my loss...so the sadness that I am hiding seems to be validated and I almost cried in the office and I just felt really depressed...

I worked from home all day today and I have a little bit of spotting, I called my OB doctor and she was not there so the medical assistant tried to help me as she can; and she told me that because of the demise of the other twin (and I really effing hate hearing this word, for some reason "demise' is just so awful, I mean she could really use some euphemism like 'loss" to ease the burden on me). She continued saying, "Did she not tell you that it is a possibility when you were here last Monday" I answered "No I didn't hear her saying that.." and she said "Oh well, you are probably in den...(she didn't finish her word and said la la land instead, but I know she meant denial)...what an insensitive she dog right? horrible bedside manner if you ask me.

Anyway since my appointment with the OB is not until March 3, I scheduled a private ultrasound viewing for me on Monday February 24. At this point, I think I am starting to become paranoid and I just wanted to make sure Baby A is doing well since I am 7 days away from hitting the 12 weeks. So yeah I have an ultrasound appointment on Monday...

I am so excited for you guys, this month is flying and next thing you know, everybody on this thread will be on the dreaded 2WW..

 

[Seoul]

Peachy- I forget what the exact pricing breakdown is but I can tell you that; All the appointments/ultrasounds leading to egg retrieval all the meds leading to and after, the egg retrieval, one fresh cycle transfer, one FET cycle and one year of storage have amounted to about 8 thousand dollars. I thought this was pretty good as that is about how much my Dr back in the states was thinking just the injections could be for me.

Red and Hello- Good luck on your transfers. It is great news that you guys have good quality embies. I hope they are nice and sticky! When I went in for my transfer that gave me DD the Dr. left me in a room with the image of my to embies and I remember talking to them saying now you guys get in there and hold on really tight and don't let go. I guess one of them listened Best of luck to you guys.

Mono- so sorry for your loss I know it must feel really bitter sweet. Your completely entitled to morn Baby B.Even though you are still pregnant it is still a loss and hope to hear about your next scan.

 

[Peachy1584]

Mono I am so sorry you are going through this. I have had losses and got to feel completely sad and hopeless. It must be so hard to only get to be half sad while still trying to be positive and hopeful. Take all the time you need to mourn your loss and don't feel guilty about any of your feelings. They are what will help you work it out and heal. I think it's a great idea to have another u/s on your own. The more you see your little one the more confidant you will begin to feel. I think eventually all your feelings will start to go that way and you will focus more and more on the little one that will be here in 6 months time. It goes so fast. I have been through 3 losses and have felt so down I never wanted to get back up but I always did. Women are ridiculously stronger than men and we find ways to cope and work through things. If we didn't we would never be talking right now. Hope really does spring eternal. Have you thought about getting a doppler? I have seen them on Groupon and in between u/s's listening to that little heartbeat sure might give you peace of mind. Hang in there Mono and be good to yourself. Also when you get to the angry stage feel free to go smack the bi*ch at the clinic she should have known better than that. If you decide not to do that at the very least make your ob aware of it. Some of those people really need some sensitivity training.

 

[Peachy1584]

Seoul I think that's a pretty good price as well. My meds for my last fresh cycle were around $2,800. They should be less this time thanks to Lanet telling me about places that help with costs. (I will be forever grateful) I get all my meds on Tuesday so we'll see. I also joined a program at my clinic and they buy back any unused Menopur so that's uber nice as well.

 

[lanet]

Mono I'm so sorry you're going through that! I also had a 9 week loss in the past. I don't talk about it much bc I ended up having healthy dd a couple years later. A loss is a loss and you have to grieve it, even if you are happy and hopeful for baby b. I hope your next scan eases your mind. Such confusing emotions for you right now.
Seoul that's so cute that you got to talk to your embies and that 1 listened too!
I was reading over my consent forms last night, there are some strange things to sign! Such as of I were to die do I allow my dh to transfer my embryos to another female? Wth? I guess they are covering all their bases.

 

[lanet]

How long before the stims do you guys start Lupron? Just trying to break this long wait up bc 30 days of bcp is going by very slowly...

 

[redbrick80]

Oh Mono - I am so so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers

Peachy - I always want to look at maternity clothes online, so I completely get where you are coming from with looking at baby furniture.

Lanet - I'm sorry time seems to be going so slow for you. I promise that once you start your meds it will go by very fast.

HelloKelye - Good luck with the transfer today. Let us know how you are doing.

Happy Friday to everyone - clinic called and they confirmed my transfer for Sunday morning

 

[Peachy1584]

Red I am snowed in today and school has been canceled so I already went on Amazon and bought 3 new skirts 95%rayon and 5% spandex so when it does happen I will definitely be comfortable : ) YAY for Sunday!

Lanet those papers make your mind spin. The only one I did opposite is death and divorce. If I die they get disposed of and if he does its up to me and if we divorce I get them. I am a control freak and they are mine

 

[lanet]

Haha peachy! I agree, but think of it like if dh were gone, you could have his baby. But if you were gone, he would have to have another woman to have yours. Strange!!

 

[AMANDAKT512]

How long before the stims do you guys start Lupron? Just trying to break this long wait up bc 30 days of bcp is going by very slowly...

I started Lupron the last 5 days of BCP.

 

[lanet]

Are you guys going to do any of the pineapple core etc stuff? I think I'm going to try it. Also acupuncture (I love it anyway) also read that avocados daily can triple success. And melatonin. I think I might try all of these things, I'm sure it can't hurt! (I'll ask dr about melatonin, it was really saying at least 8 hours sleep in dark room so you would produce enough) and I'm going to do the circle and bloom meditation thing. I've been using the free one for years but may buy the ivf one.

 

[LeeBelle]

I cannot believe I'm going down this road but I'm strong and I can do it. I would love to talk to some other ladies going through the same thing.

Hi Lanet,

How are you? it's very nice to have found a good site like this to help us go through this situation. I am currently on injections (FSH and LH) I have a Doctor's appointment tomorrow and then she will decide when would be the egg retrieval. I hope and pray that God will give us more strength. More power and hope to hear from you.. March is almost here!

 

[lanet]

Hi LeeBelle. I had an extremely late af so I have now just started bcp about 5 days ago. So now my retrieval will be in April. But that's on! Some other ladies here are already on injections or getting ready to start them. How have the injections been so far? Are you responding well?

 

[Peachy1584]

Lee belle hello and best wishes on your retrieval!

Lanet as I said before I did all that stuff my first cycle and honestly for just as many people things like pineapple worked for it didnt for just as many others. If it truly worked there wouldn't be a doctor out there that wouldn't tell you to do it. I think you should do whatever makes you feel good and something like acupuncture is great just from a stress standpoint. Eating good and being as stress free as possible will male you feel better anyways. Like my Dr told me a long time ago "if stress prevented pregnancy we'd have 0% success" even winning the lottery causes crazy amounts of stress. What did your doc say about you staying off the other meds?

 

[lanet]

The synthroid? She told me not to stay off of it lol. So I've been taking it again. They are going to recheck my levels when I go there on march 6.
And yes I figured these are maybe silly things to try but like my husband pointed out, I eat an avocado a day on most days anyway lol. Maybe it will make me feel like I'm doing something anyway. I'm thinking about acupuncture just once before and once after transfer as it gets expensive.
Oh and boobs are sore now from the bcp. I wonder if they will stay that way the whole month?

 

[Peachy1584]

My left one is just sore. Crazy I know. It doesn't hurt to do anything that is good its just that I don't want anyone to ever regret or think that if they had done this or that it would have turned out differently. Even the nurse at my clinic said to do acupuncture before and after transfer but my acupuncturist (who is from China) said it's best to start a few months before and not to do it after transfer at all that it's best to rest for 2 weeks. It can make you crazy. Did the break in the pills help how you feel? What do you with the avocado you eat everyday? Raw?

 

[lanet]

My acupuncturist is a specialist in fertility from san Diego. I'm assuming she would recommend after transfer bc she always highly recommended after ovulation or iui. But I'll ask. She calls it a holding pattern, only a few points can be done. It really helps with my anxiety so I see that as a plus! I last did acupuncture in November bc it just gets so expensive when you are also paying an RE!
I make guacamole out of my avocado, or just put it on a sandwich, it's one of my very favorite foods.
And I hear you on the one boob thing, my right one is much more sore than the left!
I hope everyone is well.

 

[lanet]

Oh and yes I seem to be feeling better, maybe not as fatigued? It's hard to tell bc I was soooo busy at work this week. But I think the warm weather is helping although it's about to get cold again. I also think waiting for af and not knowing when I would be able to start and just finding out all of this stuff was wearing me down too.