I was noticing an unusual increase in discharge for a few days b4 her birth, i was having alot of discharge from week 25 because of my cervix issue so i figure at first maybe this is ok, but as time went on i knew this had to be a slow leak n my water had rupture, that wednesday night i did not sleep because i knew for sure then i had a leak, it was the same feeling i had with olivia b4 my water broke, felt like discharge trickling out but increased as the days went on n everytime i got up i would feel it more, it wasnt a gush just trickling, when i knew for sure it was my water was when i had no control over it, even if i squeezed it was coming down, so that night i was not in any pain so i just decided to start getting myself together n prepared, i didnt have my bag packed so i did that, went n shaved n got myself together, i didnt tell anyone, i let them sleep, i just did my thing n waited cause i knew this was it n i couldnt sleep, at 5am i woke up my mom n OH n told them i think my water had broke n we have to head to the hospital, they got all excited lol, i was sitting there dressed n ready but told them to take their time since i wasnt in any pain, just was wearing a big super pad from the leaking, i was calm looking at them running around
!! we got to the hospital 6 something that thursday morn 8/9/12...to my surprise my doc happened to be there, she was delivering all night, n she was surprised when i walked in, i was happy to see her there, she had them check me right away n indeed my water had ruptured, so she said she would have me admitted n remove my cerclage, she removed the cerclage (ouch) it hurt but was quick, i was 2-3 cm at that time, not long after that i got up to use the bthrm n my water really ruptured then, i felt a gush n had bloody show, so they started me on pitocin n antibiotics in case of strep b since i didnt have a chance to get tested....i started feeling contractions a little later on, not sure of time i wasnt really paying attn, things were going fast yet slow, i did ask for the epi b4 the contractions became intense but that was my plan cause i did not want to feel it, i did ask to get up n walk around a bit b4 the epi but they wouldnt let me because of meds n drip that i was on plus they wanted to keep me on the monitor....im going to fast forward to the next day cause i did not progress in cm until then, i pretty much stayed at 3 cm all day n night on that thurs even though my contractions were very reg, i was comfy from the epi so i would not feel the pain but i would know when i was having them cause i would feel the tightness...ok so friday morning maybe 5 or 6 something they checked me n i was at 4 cm ugh not much progress, i started to get scared cause i thought maybe i would have to have a c section, my mom got up n started praying for me so i could have a vaginal birth, i wanted that experience so bad, so my baby heartrate dropped during a contraction n they had my shift until it came back up, whew thank God that worked, got scared again for a min, not too long after i begin feeling alot of pressure down in my bottom, i figured yay maybe i am starting to dilate some more
, so they checked me again i believe around 6 or 7 something, i really wasnt paying attn to the time, she said ummm ur fully dilated n +1 station, i nearly flipped my wig literally
!!! in less than 2 hrs i went from 4 cm to ready, i believe it was when i started to shift this happened, i was laying on my back too long n not moving, my mom n OH jump up now n the nurse start calling for a set up, i was looking around confused n scared cause now there were lots of ppl coming in getting everything ready, i wasnt sure if i was ready to push lol, i was feeling scared that things were going so quickly now, the nurse was telling me she was turning off my epi n i told her no i dont want to feel it lol, she said they have to so i would know when it was time to push, at this time with each contraction now i could feel the pressure becoming more intense yet it wasnt unbearable, she said they would wait til i got to +2 station b4 i began pushing so i wouldnt get tired out too quickly, in the meantime they got everything ready n the nurse explained what everyone role would be n what i would need to do, i couldnt hear anything she was saying cause i was scared lol, the peds came in to talk to me since my baby was a preemie they would be there with a team ready, they explained everything to me n what to expect, i would not get to have her on my chest right away cause they want to access her first n make sure she is ok, so now they check me n i am ready to start some pushing, pressure was intense now but yet still bearable, felt like intense constipation, i believe the epi helped alot with this, ok pushing starts n i have to wait in btwn contractions to push, although they were telling me how to push i was confused n wasnt quite sure what i was doing, they were telling me to push from below n not my face n i thought i was doing that but i still making up my face n they would yell n say not from there they want to see it down below, so next contraction i am really trying to do that cause this pressure is really intense n i want her out of there, my mom is screaming i can see her head she is coming, that would happen then after pushing she would go back in, so they were trying to get me to push n then breath n push right back again so i can get her head out, i started crying cause i didnt know if i was doing it right n i was scared n confused but everyone was great n reassured me i will do this, so next push i concentrated n pushed right back n i felt when her head poped out, the doc screamed dont push, n she did her thing n then told me to give a small push n then her body slid right out, i heard her cry n barely seen her cause me n mother was crying so much, that moment was so amazing, i still cry now when i tell the story or think of it, at that moment i knew my baby was alive n she was breathing, i couldnt believe she was finally here, i didnt even see when OH cut the cord cause i was bawling so much lol, the peds took her right across the rm n started working on her, she never needed any help, her lungs were fully developed n she did so well with all her stats, she was so perfect n beautiful, i just could not believe it...i was in pain cause they were having a hard time delivering my placenta but my eyes never left my baby across that rm, same thing happened with my placenta when i gave birth to olivia also, it did not want to come down, so they had to constantly put their hands up there to get it out, after a few tries i started crying cause it was painful n they explained my cervix is closing n they gotta get it out now or i would have to go to surgery so i let them do what they had to do n finally thank God they got it out, not long after they got the placenta out i began bleeding so they were working on my now to get the bleeding to stop, the whole time all i can do is look over at my baby n make sure she was doing well, not too long after they got the bleeding to settle but they started my epi back just in case the bleeding started again, i suppose i would have gone to surgery although they never mentioned...i was grateful all the scary stuff was over n now i can concentrate n meet my lil girl, omg when i first held her i nearly died, it was like i was really on
, i could not take my eyes off her, she was so tiny but so perfect n beautiful, the nurse tried her on my breast n she latched right on like a natural, i was so happy for that cause it was a worry for me too, i have so much more to update but i will have to come back for that, i tell u i thought i would have time to still keep up but its really hard to balance it all, it takes time to adjust, i will be back hopefully today ladies, i miss u all so much, im still praying for u all, wondering who is up next
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