"Full Circle" TTC-BFP April 2013 Bump Buddies

[sunkiss]

well that is definitely all sounding great to me, so glad u are feeling better and sunday brings us that bfp, u are so brave and patient to wait but i totally understand why

 

[c1403]

Hi Ladies

How are we all?

Bree i am sorry to hear things not going well, keep your chin up and I hope you get good news and alls ok

Kripy..I know the wait till sunday is a long one but keep waiting as no AF is a good sign, although as this is your first cycle ttc it may be a little messed up. Fingers crossed for you

Sunkiss - I get what you mean with the early scans, part of me wants one right now but the other wants to wait until 12 weeks as the baby should be bigger by then and they can see/hear more. Its just un-known whats going on and we cant do anything to stop what may happen...I wish we could and then there wouldnt be so much heartbreak for so many women

3outnumbered - Congrats on the BFP

As for me...I finally have an appointment with my midwife, 2 in fact. First is on the 2nd february and is basically a group session with a few other mummies to be around my stage, we just get general advise etc. The second is hte next day and is my official booking in appt, I get bloods done, urine test etc and basically all my details get put in the system....It takes over a hour and lots of form filling. I am hoping i get to book my 12 week scan in then too, so excited just to have an appointment

I told my boss today (even though he knew) he tried to act surprised and really nice. I told him I've been feeling quite sick and he said to come in late or work from home if i need to. I mentioned my appointments so ill be working at home those days...lots going on at work but I liked the way he made me feel happy to just take things easy etc (im his favourite lol)

7 weeks today going to take all my measurements in a little bit and maybe a bump pic although its still all bloat/fat.

I am going to make a baby scrapbook soon, ive brought loads of stuff off ebay like babys first steps, first haircut, first tooth etc and got loads of lovely papers too...cant wait to start it but am going to hold off until 12 week scan is done.

Lots of love to all my girlies.

xx

 

[sunkiss]

hiya ladies, i just realized i never uploaded the new pic of rainbows sono so here goes.

they are showing the heart beat

 

[sunkiss]

i would luv to get a scrapbook started also c1403, been thinking bout it, i figured i journal most things here so i can always come back for dates n such and can start it a little later also. yay u got the ball rolling on u appts, i know u r excited for that, for the most part at least when u do get ur sono at least ur baby will be developed n u wont have the scares we shared, but i know that u still worry everything is progressing as it should.

thinking of u bree, i read so many stories of everything working out so please dont give up ur hope n praying hun, remember that seeing the yolk sac is a good sign

 

[BreeLeeC]

Hi ladies-

Feel almost guilty coming on to the thread, like i'm jinxing myself if i pretend everything is ok.
My hope is pretty grim today. Felt good about it yesterday afternoon but waking in this morning and feeling the uncertainty of what was going on inside me was too much for me to cope with.
My husband and I both are wondering what and who did we piss off- we have had so much tragedy surrounding pregnancy. From the death of his ex-wife during labour to my miscarriages.
We finally felt like we had overcome all the fears after our son was born. But now this brings all the fear up again.
Really hoping I can get through this next week of waiting, wishing and wondering.
Trying to find my strength....... thank god for my beautiful little boy asleep beside me. Without my kids I would be in bed curled up in a ball wishing my days away.
Such a downer post ladies- so sorry!!!

Sunkiss- your rainbow pic is beautiful Very nice to see....

 

[Krippy]

I got my this morning! Pink line in 2 minutes!

Finally got it at 19 dpo...but who knows maybe I ovulated later than I thought! Either way it is there! I am shaking!

Thinking of you too Bree! Stay strong and have hope!

 

[Crownjewelz]

Bree I'm so sorry honey. I can completely relate to how you are feeling right now. I wish I could take it all away from you honey. Its like someone just pulled a blanket of depression over your whole body and you are stuck in it and can't find your way out. I'll be praying for you and your bean. I wish the best for you and hope it all comes out wonderful for you.
If it ends up being what your mind had been wondering about then you just have to remember it was God will. His will WILL be done no matter our hearts desires. That's the hardest part that we will never understand nor are we ever meant to. Keep your head up and your heart right. Thinking about you dear!!

 

[Krippy]

Bree I'm so sorry honey. I can completely relate to how you are feeling right now. I wish I could take it all away from you honey. Its like someone just pulled a blanket of depression over your whole body and you are stuck in it and can't find your way out. I'll be praying for you and your bean. I wish the best for you and hope it all comes out wonderful for you.
If it ends up being what your mind had been wondering about then you just have to remember it was God will. His will WILL be done no matter our hearts desires. That the hard part that we will never understand nor are we ever meant to. Keep your head up and your heart right. Thinking about you dear!!

Jewelz...Your words are so eloquent. I cried reading them. Thank you!

 

[Crownjewelz]

God's greatest gift is the gift of ministry. Ministering to hearts that are broken and scared is the most rewarding gift in life. Even in the midst of my own suffering life still goes on and hearts need support and encouragement. If the world had a bit more compassion for others it might just be a better place.

 

[Krippy]

God's greatest gift is the gift of ministry. Ministering to hearts that are broken and scared is the most rewarding gift in life. Even in the midst of my own suffering life still goes on and hearts need support and encouragement. If the world had a bit more compassion for others it might just be a better place.

Thank you! I needed these words. I just got my BFP this morning...I have never been so excited and so scared in my whole entire life.

 

[Crownjewelz]

Best of luck to you. It can be a beautiful journey. Enjoy it!! H & H 9 months!

 

[sunkiss]

oh bree hunny, im so sorry u have to have this worry, i so know how u feel and how long this week will be, all the uncertainty and anxiety u are feeling are very natural reactions, i still feel them and i know i will until i hold my healthy baby in my arms, we have suffered losses which causes these fears so never feel like u are pretending, u feel how u want to feel and come here and vent anytime, that is what we are here for, to support one another and be there for each other through this, i missed church last sunday but i will make sure i dont this sunday, i believe in prayer, God has the power to change all things, pray deep from ur heart n he will hear u hunny, and even if things do not work out in the favor that u want, just know that everything has its purpose beyond our control and understanding, what does not make sense to us now will in the future when happiness comes again, never give up ur hope or faith, im here for u

 

[sunkiss]

God's greatest gift is the gift of ministry. Ministering to hearts that are broken and scared is the most rewarding gift in life. Even in the midst of my own suffering life still goes on and hearts need support and encouragement. If the world had a bit more compassion for others it might just be a better place.

jewelz u couldnt have said it any better, i continue to admire ur strength, i really appreciate how u still support us despite ur hurt, God is most definitely with u

 

[sunkiss]

I got my this morning! Pink line in 2 minutes!

Finally got it at 19 dpo...but who knows maybe I ovulated later than I thought! Either way it is there! I am shaking!

Thinking of you too Bree! Stay strong and have hope!

oh my GOSH!!!! i knew it yay!!! praise God, u so deserve this hunny, He has blessed u again!!! i am over the moon happy for u

 

[seaweed eater]

Wow, so much to catch up on!

Lots and lots of and well wishes to you Bree. I hope you get some reassuring news soon. You are in my thoughts.

And congrats to Krippy and 3outnumbered! Excited for you both!! Hope you have a happy & healthy 9

I've been feeling a bit worried since my symptoms haven't been as acute...I know this happens to people all the time, but I hope it means my hormone levels are not dropping. I'm on my way home from a work trip now, can't decide whether to POAS when I get there. Probably won't. Too scary Just 5 more days until my scan.
Stupid symptoms...can't be happy with 'em OR without 'em!

 

[Crownjewelz]

Back at work today since my surgery... feeling a bit sad and depressed to be back here and carrying on again. Kinda feel like I shouldn't be here quite yet but here I am. It's hard to concentrate and work. All I think about is what I have just been through and how much I'm still sore. Ouch! I feel like I'm carrying a secret and everyone who passes my desk kinda wonders what happen, but doesn't wanna ask. No one here know what really happen besides my boss and owner. I know a return to normalcy is healthy and it will just take time, just like it did last time I had a loss.

 

[sunkiss]

i thought it to be a little soon for u to return, i was afraid u would feel that way, u r so brave to go back, again shows alot of strength, i personally think u needed a little more time to heal and mourn ur bean, but u have a point that maybe returning would give u some normalcy, time really does heal all wounds

 

[Crownjewelz]

Considering I had the surgery on Monday it may be a bit early but my work needs me and I've been out for 5 days already. I hate eating up sick days on this.

My hubby and I have decided we will be going to see a grief counselor next week. Hopefully he or she will be able to give me and teach me some advice/tools to help me cope and move on.

Everything happen so fast and in such a short time frame that i could probably benefit from this. After we get some help and time has healed our hearts then we will be going to see a fertility specialist. Hopefully we can get some answers and then get our rainbow.

 

[sunkiss]

i think grief counseling is a wonderful idea jewelz, i still go to a bereavement group once a mth and i find it really helpful. being there with other mommies going through the same thing really helps us get through it all and help each other. even though i have my rainbow growing inside me, i still mourn my Olivia, i would have been 35 weeks yesterday and it still hurts but with each day it gets better. i never knew the amount of love you have inside until i got preggo, that love is so unreal. i have so much respect for mothers now and even more for mommies of angels, takes a special kinda woman to give God an angel

 

[Crownjewelz]

"takes a special kinda woman to give God an angel"

Made me cry.. thank you!!