Hello everyone :wave:
This is my first post in here, as the ticker says, I am pregnant with my third, I already have 2 boys. This will definitely be my last regardless of gender, I feel 3 is enough for me and will be asking to be sterilised during my c-section.
I am feeling a little strange about this one. With my first baby, I really wanted a boy, didnt find out the gender, and we got a boy. With my second, I was desperate for a girl, and absolutely convinced it was a girl as my pregnancy symptoms were different, found out at 20 weeks it was a boy. A bit gutted I wont lie. and felt foolish for saying i thought he was a girl etc.
This time, a part of me really wants a girl, and worries how I will feel if i get a boy, will I be upset? Will i want another
But, another part of me thinks, now I am so happy my second was a boy, because watching the relationship between my boys is amazing, they are so close and have so much fun together, and I cant wait to watch them grow up together playing football etc. So a part of me feels, yeah its most likely going to be a boy, but they will grow up close, be into the same things, and always look after their mummy
I feel a bit defensive because everyone who we have told so far the first thing they say is, I hope its a girl, and im getting a bit annoyed now, I feel like saying NOOOOOOOOOOO what if it is a boy, my poor boy everyone wishing hes a girl...
and then to add to the confusion, a part of me wonders whether I am really feeling this way, or whether I am using some sort of self protection thing so that I wont be as let down when they say....its a boy.
sorry for the essay, its nice to have somewhere to say these things