I feel the same way as well CC! My midwife said I should ask if they could let me know when they're looking at "the goods", they may say no but she said it doesn't hurt to ask.
I had a dream last night, I had the baby, who again was that same baby from my unknown gender dreams, lots of dark hair and soooooooo adorable! I was at the house I grew up in (My parents sold it last December) and myself and other family and friends were in the kitchen, everyone was holding the baby and I was like "So what is it?" and someone said it's a boy. I felt so irritated. Not happy, just annoyed that of course it wasn't a girl. I just felt so... Disappointed! I really hope that's not how I really feel if this baby is a boy. =( It was not a good feeling towards the little one at all. =( =( =(
I feel the same though, I don't feel like I'd be lucky enough to actually have a little girl. I mean, not that having another healthy little boy isn't lucky.. But I guess not lucky enough to get what I wanted. This feeling is so bad.
Still excited to see baby regardless but not ready to let go of the dream. =(