God I feel awful now. Last night I was crying because I want this baby to be a girl so much and this morning I hear from a friend who is 2 weeks ahead of me in her pregnancy (so around 17 weeks) that she is in hospital and has lost her baby.
I feel like a terrible person for caring about my babies gender at all while she is going through this. I should just be grateful that I've got a healthy baby who is still growing in there.
I want to cry for her now. This is her 4th and we have been pregnant together every time. The last few years she has been having real mental health problems and this baby was a complete surprise and it took her a while to decide if she could cope with another baby. She decided to keep it and now this has happened.
Its so sobering that even though I'm out of 1st tri and will be 15 weeks tomorrow something could still go wrong.