Watching the tests eagerly btw
I saw hints of a line. Fx’d!
Cystic Fibrosis Info:
I should explain the cystic fibrosis (CF) issue. I don’t believe I ever told you guys about it. My little sister has been having pancreatitis bouts since the start of the school year, and she’s been in and out of the hospital. She had to go on multi-day fasts to control it. Every time she started eating again it would come back, she’d have excruciating pain and often have to go back to the hospital. They were very confused as to what was causing it. She had a sweat test done (which is a precursor test to CF testing) and it came back with moderately elevated chloride levels (sign of possible CF). They finally did extensive genetic testing and it turns out she has two very rare CF variants, one bad CF variant, and one very mild CF variant. You need two variants to have CF, otherwise you’re just a carrier. Since one is mild, she does not have full-blown CF, but rather, atypical CF, which often is asymptomatic until middle school to high school. She’s the 6th child to be missed by the newborn CF screening in the state of Massachusetts since it was instated in 1999. It’s been kinda crazy.
I actually had a sweat test done last summer before being referred to the surgeon for my rectal prolapse, because atypical CF can cause rectal prolapse (this was ages before my sister’s diagnosis), and the sweat test came back with normal chloride levels, aka it was negative. Anyway, my sister’s genetic results mean that both my mom and my dad each have one variant for CF, one has the bad one and one has the mild one, and using a basic Punnett square, there’s a 75% chance of me either being a carrier or having atypical CF. Now, based on my sweat test results, even if I had both variants I would not be diagnosed with atypical CF, but it’s likely I do not have both variants. So this leaves the chance of not being a carrier or carrying one or the other variants. Because of my rectal prolapse issue, my mom expects I’ll be a carrier for the bad CF gene, but we’ll find out soon enough. I have my appt at the genetics clinic on Wednesday. I assume they’ll be taking blood and talking to me about the testing and stuff. I think it takes a few weeks to get the results back, unfortunately.
If I am indeed a carrier for CF, my SO will have to get tested. While it is unlikely that he will also be a carrier, I do worry, because it was unlikely that both my parents would be carriers as well, a lot of things have been unlikely, so yeah. Chances are, he will not be a carrier. However. If he is, and we’re both carriers... we can’t TTC normally in the future. We’ll have to do sperm sorting and IUI. Otherwise there’d be a 25% chance of our kid having CF, and that’s not something we’d want to risk. Of course, chances are that he won’t be a carrier, and we’ll get to TTC like normal.
Moving on!
I started doing a 30 day exercise challenge, but being home for spring break has messed it up. Idk what it is about being home, but it sucks the motivation out of me. Back in my dorm I had no problem taking out my yoga mat and doing the exercise each night before bed. I’m doing sit ups, crunches, leg raises, planks, push-ups (terrible ones as I can’t do them tbh), squats, and lunges. I’m using a challenge app that tells me how many to do each day, so I’m increasing each day and having occasional rest days. I bought a Fitbit and I figure if I’m gonna have one I better exercise lol. Maybe if this challenge goes well I’ll get a gym membership, but I don’t want to spend the money, so I’m going slow on the whole thing.
I’m home for spring break until next Sunday. I hate being home honestly. I feel 15 again, and my parents make me do chores of course which for some reason bugs the shit out of me, like I don’t mind doing them at college, but I hate being told to do them in a house that doesn’t feel like my own. Idk it’s weird. Also my bed smells like cat pee because one of the cats peed on it multiple times last semester, and we haven’t been able to get the smell out so far. Ugh. I think it’s in the mattress, so it’ll likely never come out. That’s another reason I miss being at college. My mattress doesn’t smell like cat pee there. I also can go to Taco Bell at 1 am in college, but here I have to ask to go out. It’s frustrating not having the freedom to make my own stupid decisions lol. I can’t wait to go back, despite all the assignments I have due. I’m dreading summer break, I thought I’d love such a long break compared to the one I got growing up, but I just know I’m gonna hate it. I loved it when I was going home every afternoon, but now that I know what it’s like to live on my own... I told my mom that although I love them, I felt out of place at home and missed college, and she was surprisingly understanding. She said that it’s a normal part of growing up and leaving home, that this little town and this house, they’re too small for me, I don’t belong here or fit in here anymore (not in a mean way lol). I’m glad she understands how I’m feeling. I’ve talked to some college friends about it and most of them totally understand and relate. Idk. It’s weird. I can’t wait to have my own place to live in. We don’t have a curfew or anything at my college, but we can’t have alcohol in the halls and we can’t have boys in our rooms at night (although nobody follows the boy rule lol, SO has slept over countless times).
Okay end multiple rants lol