I've been debating on whether to tell my story as it is so embarrassing, but feel I need to. About 2 years ago I had a phantom pregnancy. I was on birth control and thought it had failed, for some reason. It all started when I spotted, just once, and I'd never done that before. I put it out of my mind, but it was still in the back of my head. Then a couple weeks later I started having all these symptoms. Headaches, hungry all the time, nauseous, my boobs even leaked what looked like colostrum a couple times. I started testing and negative every time. Then I started feeling kicks in my tummy, or what felt like fetal kicks. I have 2 children so I know what that feels like. I took test after test after test, went to about 7 or 8 different docs who all told me I wasn't pregnant, but I didn't believe them. I agonized, worried that I was pregnant and no one believed me. It was the worst, most devastating horrible thing I'd ever gone through. Thank goodness my husband loves me so much to put up with all of that, but our relationship was strained. I felt like I was losing my mind. It took a very long time to get over that. But 9 months came and went, me agonizing the whole time. I eventually got over it, and now I'm pregnant for real. I had been late on my period for over a month when I finally got up the courage to take a test and it was very dark positive. I didn't believe it, I thought I was going through a false pregnancy again and somehow my body was tricking the test into being positive. Over a period of a couple weeks I ended up taking four more, all dark positive. Still I wasn't convinced. When I went to see a doctor and she confirmed it, I cried. The point of all of this is, believe the test! If it is negative, than your not pregnant. And I say that as gentle as I can, because I've been there and heard those words uttered so many times and it would break my heart each time. The mind is a very powerful thing, and if you believe something strong enough funny things happen. Please don't do it to yourself.
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