Help me... Am I pregnant? Going crazy

[PrincessMommy]

Phantom pregnancies aren't that rare!! About a year and a half ago- I guess I was so ready to settle down and be a mama that I kept thinking I was pregnant. Like every period. My mind was pretty much forcing my period to delay cuz I wanted it so bad. I hope this isn't the case for you but if it is- don't be too upset. The mind is a powerful thing

 

[slowloris]

Dock, sorry your going through this. I hope you get a destinct result soon.
the sunshin feeling and looking up stuff on pinterest isn't foolish its broodyness. And now you've felt it it might not go away for a while. Broodynes can be tough to deal with when your not ready. If you aren't preg and you new somewhere to vent, have a look over at the wtt board. It really helped me in the past. X

 

[lilmonkey86]

I went through similar when DH and I were TTC, I actually used to posted about it in the TTC board, I had the most regular cycles (like clockwork 9am on the 28th day of my cycle... BAM there she was) then I got married and DH and I decided it was time to start our family, the very first month day 28 comes and goes, day 35 comes and goes, I am throwing up in the morning, smells put me right off, i just felt off, not myself, I did a HPT Negative, finally called my doctor and went for bloodwork which also came back negative, I seriously thought there was something wrong with me, why was I getting symptoms if I wasn't pregnant, my doctor sat me down and explained that it is actually common when you want it that bad for your body to actually construe those symptoms. I had that happen nearly monthly for 15 months, I got to a point where seeing a negative was common practice for me, DH and I saw fertility specialists and had tests and they found out DH had a vericocele and told us until it was corrected we had less than a 10% chance of conceiving naturally, I had given up hope. 24 days after being given that information, I pee'd on a stick (much like other ladies have said I was a POAS addict) I think at this point it was actually just habit. I looked down at the test then tossed it in the garbage as I had done probably 100 times, then realized that there was a second line (yes i went rooting through my garbage to find that little stick). so what I am trying to say is if you are not pregnant and do wish to be pregnant, try not to put so much pressure on yourself, that is honestly my best advice to you! I literally conceived my baby 7 days after being told it was nearly impossible (i think it helped me to relax as there was no pressure to get pregnant until after DH's operation). GL hun and I hope for nothing but the best for you no matter what your outcome.

 

[xJessie91x]

How are you doing? xx

 

[PrincessMommy]

Yes, Dock!! Let us know how you are!! I'm anxious to know what's goin on in that belly

 

[Dock1]

Hello loves... Well so far it's been 39 days since the first day of my last period. I'm going to use my very last HPT on Sunday and if it is still negative then I will make an appointment. I've actually noticed that I've been hungry, emotional, still have the nausea... Etc. I love you all so much for this support. You all are really all I have during this time and all your concern and words more more than the world to me. You'll never know.

 

[xJessie91x]

Keep thinking of u hun, hope you get your answers soon! xx

 

[Dock1]

Three and a half weeks since it was possible. That makes five a a half weeks no period. Too another pee test and negative again. Nausea is curbing a little but but my energy levels are so down. Could be just being blue. I don't feel myself at all. I feel something is... Off. Can't put my finger on it at all.

I am usually so active and I exercise all day long but I can barely get off the couch today. I dragged at my workout and I'm hungry and craving.

I don't know. I just don't know. I just know that all these negative tests must mean I'm not pregnant.

 

[LadyHutch]

I really hope you call a doctor tomorrow, both to put your mind at ease and investigate the cause of your symptoms. Best of luck.

 

[Dock1]

I've lost 3 pounds but I had a really bad day today. Newest symptom? Slightly sore nipples. I had absolutely no energy today. I broke down crying for no reason and just laid in bed alone. Terrible cravings and hunger. So thirsty.

Calling the doctor this week. I think I'll wait until Wednesday which will make 5 weeks. I'll do another pee test Thursday maybe.

 

[Dock1]

I can barely move I'm so tired. I've never felt like this in my life before.

 

[lilmonkey86]

I personally wouldn't bother with the pee test and wouldn't wait until Thursday to see your doctor, it seems like your scared of what the answer might be but you really need to know, some of your symptoms could point to something more serious (ie. hyperthyroidism) so I would call your doctor today and try to get in sooner rather than later! Good Luck hun

 

[LadyHutch]

^wss

 

[eme]

I agree with the pp, there's no longer any reason to wait. The hpt would be showing a line if there was proper amounts of hcg in your urine. There could be something else going on that needs proper attention. Although it might be scary to find the answers you need to take care of yourself!

At this point you just need to take a deep breath and make that phone call. The anxiety of all of this is making you feel even worse than your physical symptoms are.

 

[PrincessMommy]

Agreed- Dock, go to the doctors hun whatever the cause of your missed perood, it's really important that you find out ASAP!!

 

[Dock1]

Well. This turned out to be one of the hardest things I've ever had to write.

I actually had the first good day yesterday that I've had in a really long time. I wasn't tired and I felt good all day. I was woken up from 2:30-3 this morning with cramps. Yesterday I looked down and imagined a baby bump. I imagined a tiny person and began to smile. Woke up this morning at 4 to go to the gym and got my period. No mistaking this one. It's my period for sure. I'm not going to be a mom.

I know that countless other women who have wonderful homes and husbands are trying desperately to have a baby and can't. I don't have anything close to a steady guy. I'm selfish. I would make a terrible mother. I spend money like it grows on trees. I'm immature and I make bad choices some times. I'm lonely. I get moody. Sometimes I'm not a very nice person and I don't have one shred of patience.

But I wanted it. I didn't know I wanted it, but I did. I thought I had it. I mean, come on. I had every symptom under the moon. It wasn't the right time or the right circumstances but, dammit, I wanted it. I was even planning for it.

Then the bottom dropped out of my faux happiness with six squares of toilet paper. I know I'm not the first and I know I didn't even deserve it in the first place.

I know I wanted it.

I know I was ready for it.

I know I am crushed and I can't talk to anyone about it. I am completely alone in this world. I have absolutely no one.

I was going to spend this Friday night at the doctor getting a blood test. I guess now I'll get absolutely drunk out of my mind.

 

[slowloris]

Sorry your feeling like this. Sadly lots of us have been there. You are not alone. Head over to wtt and you'll here of lots of ladies that aren't with anybody but are broody, probably be ausr they had a scare too and didn't realise they even wanted a baby until then.
its how i can to join this site 4 years ago.
i hope you find your happiness soon. X

 

[cncem]

Dock, that's all how it started for me. My husband and I agreed no more kids. I didn't even know I wanted one. Listen, I know it's hard, and it hurts so much, but you will go on. At least it didn't last you a year and a half like it did me. At least you didn't have contractions,or what you thought were contractions, or see a baby on a sono screen. At least you don't owe docs and labs hundreds of dollars like I do. I went to ER, no ins, god knows how much that was. The last doc I saw for it was a gastroenterologist, she ordered a sono, that was $138 bucks. My heart goes out to you, I've been there, I know how you feel. If you need someone to talk to I'm here hun. You may not believe it, but there is a silver lining here, and things will get better. Please don't feel alone. I wish I were there to give you a squeeze.

 

[PrincessMommy]

Ugh I'm so sorry I know what it is like to want it so badly- before I was pregnant and with my current boyfriend, I had a few lovers I was with. I thought I was pregnant. I wanted it so so bad and it crushed me when I found out I wasn't :/ I cried for weeks. Don't be down because it isn't happening now. 3 months after I had my phantom pregnancy, I started to hang with my current bf and became loyal to him. Out of the blue, there was that second pink line I was looking for. I was just like you before that. I didn't have a care in the world and spent money like a mad man. It doesn't mean it can't happen or you can't change. The second I found out I was pregnant, I was a new person. I believe this will happen to you hun. You genuinely wanted your little bean. And some day, life will give you one. You do have people to talk to and you're not alone. We may not be there physically, but we can still listen and share your pain. Things will get better- keep looking up and don't be so hard on yourself. Drinking won't fix anything. Trust me

 

[eme]

Well. This turned out to be one of the hardest things I've ever had to write.

I actually had the first good day yesterday that I've had in a really long time. I wasn't tired and I felt good all day. I was woken up from 2:30-3 this morning with cramps. Yesterday I looked down and imagined a baby bump. I imagined a tiny person and began to smile. Woke up this morning at 4 to go to the gym and got my period. No mistaking this one. It's my period for sure. I'm not going to be a mom.

I know that countless other women who have wonderful homes and husbands are trying desperately to have a baby and can't. I don't have anything close to a steady guy. I'm selfish. I would make a terrible mother. I spend money like it grows on trees. I'm immature and I make bad choices some times. I'm lonely. I get moody. Sometimes I'm not a very nice person and I don't have one shred of patience.

But I wanted it. I didn't know I wanted it, but I did. I thought I had it. I mean, come on. I had every symptom under the moon. It wasn't the right time or the right circumstances but, dammit, I wanted it. I was even planning for it.

Then the bottom dropped out of my faux happiness with six squares of toilet paper. I know I'm not the first and I know I didn't even deserve it in the first place.

I know I wanted it.

I know I was ready for it.

I know I am crushed and I can't talk to anyone about it. I am completely alone in this world. I have absolutely no one.

I was going to spend this Friday night at the doctor getting a blood test. I guess now I'll get absolutely drunk out of my mind.

Hey hun, so many of us have been there it's that moment in life when you realize the reality of what your dreams are for your future....and then you look at your current life and see so many things not adding up.

Instead of drowning yourself in alcohol this weekend use this experience as a turning point in your life, or a new fork in the road. Keep that vision of what you wanted, remember that smile when you looked down, and make whatever changes in your life that need to happen in order to steer your life in the direction of that dream.

I had a miscarriage over 10 years ago that did that exact same thing. I was pregnant by a guy I dated for 3 weeks and who I was no longer dating, I partied all the time, etc. What that loss did to me was make me re-examine my life, made me take a loooooong HONEST look in the mirror and to be truthful with myself as to the life I really wanted...and I started taking the steps necessary in order to bring that about.

I wasn't always perfect in that journey, I made a lot of stupid choices and missteps along the way.....but I made it, scars and all.

Sometimes sadness and tears aren't bad...they're necessary to bring about some of the best changes that will happen in life. I'm thinking of you and pray that you use this whole experience as something that betters your life and builds you stronger!