How do you survive? anyone??

[Hatethewait85]

So I know I said I was feeling good today... But that was before I saw the homeless pregnant woman begging for money for her future baby. I'm almost cried right there. It is so unfair sometimes. Every month when this doesn't work I feel like life is just trying to tell me I'm not cut out to be a mom!

End rant.

 

[SweetV]

I'm on vacation

Going away with the hubby and the kids for a week. I'm not taking any tests with me so no option to test early!

I will miss you all

Home Sunday (Hubby's birthday). See if I can hold off until Monday to test but you ladies will surely be the first to know!

 

[Hatethewait85]

I'm on vacation

Going away with the hubby and the kids for a week. I'm not taking any tests with me so no option to test early!

I will miss you all

Home Sunday (Hubby's birthday). See if I can hold off until Monday to test but you ladies will surely be the first to know!

Have a wonderful time away! Enjoy every minute of it!! good luck holding off on poas!

 

[Laurana]

I will catch up with everyone later today, but now I'm in the dr's office and I'd like to point out they should have a courtesy where you can opt to wait in a "no pregnant women" zone. It would be so much less stressful.

 

[wantjust1more]

I'm probably going to ovulate today or tomorrow, test was really getting dark.. But can't do iui because husband is getting surgery.
So a break for us, which is fine because i would rather be mellow..

 

[Laurana]

So I know I said I was feeling good today... But that was before I saw the homeless pregnant woman begging for money for her future baby. I'm almost cried right there. It is so unfair sometimes. Every month when this doesn't work I feel like life is just trying to tell me I'm not cut out to be a mom!

End rant.

yeah... That's a rough one. I was unhappy just listening to a conversation between a pregnant lady and the secretary at my dr's office today. But I assure you- life isn't telling you anything of the sort- life sometimes lets AWFUL people become parents and sometimes good people have trouble. But it just dumb luck. Sucky, awful, rotten luck.

I'm on vacation

Going away with the hubby and the kids for a week. I'm not taking any tests with me so no option to test early!

I will miss you all

Home Sunday (Hubby's birthday). See if I can hold off until Monday to test but you ladies will surely be the first to know!

Yayayay!!!! Have fun!!!!

I'm probably going to ovulate today or tomorrow, test was really getting dark.. But can't do iui because husband is getting surgery.
So a break for us, which is fine because i would rather be mellow..

Can't do IUI but can you stil BD at all? Or skipping this month? Mellow is good.

 

[Laurana]

And now for my rant.... Ill try to keep it short.

I need a new dr. I am soooooo frustrated with mine. I can't get straight answers when I call the office and I don't ask all that many questions- it's simple but important things. Like my pills say "take for 7 days CD 10-14" but 10-14 is 5 days. Do I take it for 7 days or CD 10-14? THIS IS IMPORTANT- I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET A FECKING ANSWER!

And I decided on another round of Clomid/IUI this month- but there was a big scheduling thing and they told me that I either had to leave work RIGHT THEN or skip the month because she had such a full schedule. So I end up getting the ultrasound and the dr explains her understanding of my busy schedules by explaining how her au pair has issues too and had to switch schools to accommodate her work schedule. So wait a minute- my full time job and family is being compared to some kid that babysits for my dr and is switching colleges to accommodate my dr's babysitting needs?!?

Waiting on a call back from the place that did my IUI- they are a fancy schmancy high tech IVF center. The doc I saw there seemed great. I'm going there from now on. Ill find a new Ob/gyn for general care.

Rant over.

 

[Hatethewait85]

I'm probably going to ovulate today or tomorrow, test was really getting dark.. But can't do iui because husband is getting surgery.
So a break for us, which is fine because i would rather be mellow..

Mellow is always good. Will you just bd instead then? Hope your hubby's surgery goes well!

 

[Hatethewait85]

So I know I said I was feeling good today... But that was before I saw the homeless pregnant woman begging for money for her future baby. I'm almost cried right there. It is so unfair sometimes. Every month when this doesn't work I feel like life is just trying to tell me I'm not cut out to be a mom!

End rant.

yeah... That's a rough one. I was unhappy just listening to a conversation between a pregnant lady and the secretary at my dr's office today. But I assure you- life isn't telling you anything of the sort- life sometimes lets AWFUL people become parents and sometimes good people have trouble. But it just dumb luck. Sucky, awful, rotten luck.

I know you are right. I definitely feel unlucky these days. Hopefully hubby and I bring back some Vegas luck!! Heading home later today.

 

[Hatethewait85]

And now for my rant.... Ill try to keep it short.

I need a new dr. I am soooooo frustrated with mine. I can't get straight answers when I call the office and I don't ask all that many questions- it's simple but important things. Like my pills say "take for 7 days CD 10-14" but 10-14 is 5 days. Do I take it for 7 days or CD 10-14? THIS IS IMPORTANT- I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET A FECKING ANSWER!

And I decided on another round of Clomid/IUI this month- but there was a big scheduling thing and they told me that I either had to leave work RIGHT THEN or skip the month because she had such a full schedule. So I end up getting the ultrasound and the dr explains her understanding of my busy schedules by explaining how her au pair has issues too and had to switch schools to accommodate her work schedule. So wait a minute- my full time job and family is being compared to some kid that babysits for my dr and is switching colleges to accommodate my dr's babysitting needs?!?

Waiting on a call back from the place that did my IUI- they are a fancy schmancy high tech IVF center. The doc I saw there seemed great. I'm going there from now on. Ill find a new Ob/gyn for general care.

Rant over.

That is frustrating!!!! I don't blame you for looking for a new doctor. When I started doing IUI's, my ob referred me to a fertility specialist. And I love her! She e-mailed me back within just a few hours this past weekend and answered every single question personally! I don't know if she was on call this weekend (my clinic is open 7 days a week) or if she just checks in even on her off days. Wouldn't surprise me if she was just checking in. Perhaps it helps that she suffers (suffered?) from infertility too. So she get's it.

I hope you hear back from the doc you saw at the IVF center soon!!!

 

[Laurana]

And now for my rant.... Ill try to keep it short.

I need a new dr. I am soooooo frustrated with mine. I can't get straight answers when I call the office and I don't ask all that many questions- it's simple but important things. Like my pills say "take for 7 days CD 10-14" but 10-14 is 5 days. Do I take it for 7 days or CD 10-14? THIS IS IMPORTANT- I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET A FECKING ANSWER!

And I decided on another round of Clomid/IUI this month- but there was a big scheduling thing and they told me that I either had to leave work RIGHT THEN or skip the month because she had such a full schedule. So I end up getting the ultrasound and the dr explains her understanding of my busy schedules by explaining how her au pair has issues too and had to switch schools to accommodate her work schedule. So wait a minute- my full time job and family is being compared to some kid that babysits for my dr and is switching colleges to accommodate my dr's babysitting needs?!?

Waiting on a call back from the place that did my IUI- they are a fancy schmancy high tech IVF center. The doc I saw there seemed great. I'm going there from now on. Ill find a new Ob/gyn for general care.

Rant over.

That is frustrating!!!! I don't blame you for looking for a new doctor. When I started doing IUI's, my ob referred me to a fertility specialist. And I love her! She e-mailed me back within just a few hours this past weekend and answered every single question personally! I don't know if she was on call this weekend (my clinic is open 7 days a week) or if she just checks in even on her off days. Wouldn't surprise me if she was just checking in. Perhaps it helps that she suffers (suffered?) from infertility too. So she get's it.

I hope you hear back from the doc you saw at the IVF center soon!!!

Heard back and all scheduled for my first appointment - CD 2 of next month. Now I need to decide if I use meds this month or just skip it. I'm so happy to be switching... Was shocked to hear the new patient paperwork is 18 pages! Never had to fill out that much before. But hopefully just means they are very thorough

 

[Hatethewait85]

Oh yay! Glad you were able to switch for next time. When I got set up with my fs the new patient paperwork was online but it was loooong!

Did you decide what to do about this month?

I'm getting anxious to be home. Traveling by yourself gets kind of lonely! And I'm actually looking forward to going back to work. I think it will be a good distraction! Have a good night all!

 

[barbikins]

Hey Ladies...I totally feel ya. I think its just as time goes on & cycles go on you might become less obsessed. I'm on Cycle #18 (ya very long) & while I'm anxious to know I don't google symptoms and crap anymore like I used to.
I hope none of you have to wait as long as I have but anyway thought I'd just say....time will go on & you'll be less obsessed

 

[Laurana]

Oh yay! Glad you were able to switch for next time. When I got set up with my fs the new patient paperwork was online but it was loooong!

Did you decide what to do about this month?

I'm getting anxious to be home. Traveling by yourself gets kind of lonely! And I'm actually looking forward to going back to work. I think it will be a good distraction! Have a good night all!

I'm going med free this month! Looking forward to a little mellow relaxing.

I fortunately don't have to travel alone ever... I'm not sure I'd like it for more than a day or so....

 

[Laurana]

Hey Ladies...I totally feel ya. I think its just as time goes on & cycles go on you might become less obsessed. I'm on Cycle #18 (ya very long) & while I'm anxious to know I don't google symptoms and crap anymore like I used to.
I hope none of you have to wait as long as I have but anyway thought I'd just say....time will go on & you'll be less obsessed

Welcome! We all are around the 2 - 2 1/2 year mark... I lost count at about cycle 20. <sigh> I don't think there's any hope for getting LESS crazy with time. Mine goes in waves, but has generally been getting worse.

 

[barbikins]

Hey Laurana!
I can't say I don't have any crazy in me & I shoot daggers at pregger woman on the streets...I have my anxieties over pregnant friends....but, I'm not obsessing over symptoms & googling. I've also been through IUI's & I've been diagnosed with unexplained infertility SO I think I'm done finding what's wrong. I guess I thought for a lot of woman too that in time, they'd start to sorta give up on certain things. I'm just not as invested as I used to be which totally helps me.

You're right it's waves...I can say the same. Mine hasn't gotten worse thankfully but some days I feel like screaming!

 

[Laurana]

Hey Laurana!
I can't say I don't have any crazy in me & I shoot daggers at pregger woman on the streets...I have my anxieties over pregnant friends....but, I'm not obsessing over symptoms & googling. I've also been through IUI's & I've been diagnosed with unexplained infertility SO I think I'm done finding what's wrong. I guess I thought for a lot of woman too that in time, they'd start to sorta give up on certain things. I'm just not as invested as I used to be which totally helps me.

You're right it's waves...I can say the same. Mine hasn't gotten worse thankfully but some days I feel like screaming!

I'm sure some people do relax with time- but for me it's just one more step towards this not working at all. I don't really google symptoms too much- unless it's a new med causing it or something- but I certainly google statistics, procedures and options. My first 3 kids were EASY to conceive so this is a bit frustrating - SOMETHING happened between then and now- and I really need to know what so it can be fixed. Until I find out and give up or end up pregnant, I doubt ill truly relax. Seems each month I'm a little more crazy.

 

[barbikins]

Yeah I can see what you're saying about not getting closer....and I have those same feelings & often doubts I'll get pregnant again. But like you, I can't give up.
I've gone through all sorts of alternative medicine & taking 15 types of vitamins in hopes some thing will fix me....I too was pregnant once before, so what's changed?
I'm currently working on doing Acupuncture & Traditional Chinese Medicine. That's my last straw....the last card in my back pocket. If it' doesn't work then I'm saving for IVF and hoping we get pregnant in the mean time.

Did you go through series of blood work & ultrasounds?

 

[Laurana]

Yeah I can see what you're saying about not getting closer....and I have those same feelings & often doubts I'll get pregnant again. But like you, I can't give up.
I've gone through all sorts of alternative medicine & taking 15 types of vitamins in hopes some thing will fix me....I too was pregnant once before, so what's changed?
I'm currently working on doing Acupuncture & Traditional Chinese Medicine. That's my last straw....the last card in my back pocket. If it' doesn't work then I'm saving for IVF and hoping we get pregnant in the mean time.

Did you go through series of blood work & ultrasounds?

I've done the whole drill- hysterograph, HSG, d&c, internal and external ultrasounds at various CDs- with and without the blood flow thing whatever it's called, blood work galore... Over and over. We've drug my hubby in for 4 or so semen checks. I think I've ran out of tests. Lol. Now it's trial and error- see what works- play with meds and timing - try new things and pray! We've decided against IVF at least for now- though we may eventually change our minds. I did get pregnant last march but miscarried at 5 weeks. We suspect I'm conceiving but it's not sticking- but who knows why? I've got a great lining supposedly.

 

[Hatethewait85]

No worries. You aren't alone. I had a cray cray moment at work today! So much for being glad to be back at work, haha. I'm just glad the crazy does come in waves!

I think the hardest part for me is the whole "unexplained" infertility diagnosis. And I've never even been pregnant in any way shape or form so I don't even know if my body knows how or is capable.

I've thought about acupuncture and chinese medicine but it seems so weird to me! I feel like I have to truly believe it will work for it to work and I think I'm probably too cynical. I mean if nothing else has worked, why would this?? How'd you find an acupuncturist Barbikins? When I search for one in my home town so many come up, I wouldn't even know where to start! I feel like I would want a personal recommendation. I think it might help my cynicism! I wonder if my fs would have a recommendation?