Hurry up BFPs!!! We are ready when you are :-)

[ece77]

Hi again,

I'm 36 in a month and a half; and I'm from Turkey.

MrsBroodyPant - We won't be trying until after the 3rd cycle. I want my body (and soul) to heal a bit; and be sure that the hcg has left my system for good!

Dream - I waited soooo long, 65 days! But I guess the partial molar pregnancy is responsible for that. I seem to read everywhere that between 4-6 weeks is kind of the norm.

Nina - I couldn't have dreamt in my wildest dreams that I would actually long for AF to come, but here I am! TTC is such a roller coaster!!!

 

[Nina83]

I couldn't have dreamt in my wildest dreams that I would actually long for AF to come, but here I am! TTC is such a roller coaster!!!

I know what you mean! I never thought I would wish so hard for a BFN either. That was very bittersweet. Here's to only wanting BFP!!!

 

[hilslo]

Ece, Nina - I'm so jealous of your AF (not a statement I ever thought I'd say!) I'm still waiting for mine. I desperately want that clean slate so I can start again. I'm been filling my days with trying to find out a bit more of when to expect it following surgery for ectopic and the most common answer is around 5 weeks after surgery which would make mine on the 25th May (the day DH and I are going away for a few days for our anniversary!). Part of me really doesn't want ot spoil our few days away but the other half will gladly take AF coming as I fear it's going to take a lot longer to return (when I came off the the pill it took 3 months!!!)

AFM - I'm 32 and a half and can already start to hear the clock ticking. I'm from the UK, originally from the North West but have lived in London for c8 years now and it feels more like home than the North West these days.

 

[lune_miel]

I'm glad you asked as I was just wondering how old we all are... I'm 32 and DH is 41, in the US.

What frustrates me the most is you spend all of you life trying not to get knocked up that when you are finally ready your body has already started to close the door. I feel cheated by ever using bc as I think it has side effects no matter how much they try to deny it. Wish I knew about TYOYF when I was going thru puberty instead of just last year. It also took me 3 mos to O after getting off the Nuvaring, which I took to get only 4 periods a year for "convenience" as they advertise. I think that really screwed up my hormones.

And even tho I'm still young, and with Clomid able to O again, I worry that DH's age might be a factor. What is it going to take?! So I've been listening to a lot of music trying to heal, but just makes me cry. None of this TTC journey was as I expected.

PS. I tried Preseed and didn't like it, but everyone's different. Take Mucinex (with ONLY primary ingredient G on those days leading up to O) and it will thin out your CM. I'm convinced it helped me.

 

[Nina83]

I hear you on the BC... I got off it three years ago due to health, I had awful candida (a few times a month, yuck) and BC was the first to go.
It has such horrible side effects. I never knew I actually had a sex drive until I quite. :s
When our Doctor asked us why we're so impatient, I asked him how can't we be? We spend a good 15 or so years being told that you can get pregnant by the drop of a hat, so when the hat dropped and nothing happened...
So frustrating!

 

[hilslo]

Lol - stupid BCP - I'm never going on it again (well maybe if we ever manage to get the 2 children we want!).

How's everyone fairing today. Sounds like the mood in the camp is a little higher today. New week new positive thoughts! Not that I am in anyway detering people from venting - believe me I have done my fair share and it really does help enormously!

Susan - how are you doing? Sounds like you had a tough shopping trip but I'm so impressed you are getting out and about . I hid from the world for a couple of weeks. Though getting out and about it grey Britain is less appealing than getting out and about in sunny Oz as I'm sure you know!

AFM - I started back at work today - only working from home today and tomorrow but it feels like life is starting to begin again. I'm only days away from all that work stress again though which is definitely not so good . I ventured into town a little (still quite sore from the op so not overly mobile) and bought myself a new mug to take into work. It seems so appropriate, "when it rains look for rainbows; when it's dark look for the stars"

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

I love coming on here and reading all your updates.
We will get bfps by October!!

Ive been to work (im a dance teacher) and danced my troubles away. Exercise really does make u feel better and more 'alive'. Im self employed so dont have any stress of a boss telling me what to do. But i havent been able to take any time off because 1i wouldnt get paid and 2 i didnt want anyone to realise something was wrong and ask questions. So going to work is an escape because nobody knows.

What jobs do u ladies do?
Xxx

 

[twinmummy06]

Welcome Susan, I am sorry for your loss I'm glad to hear your getting things organised at the fertility clinic and I hope your blood tests come back ok.

Ece - Glad to hear AF arrived so you can get the ball rolling

Nina - I'm glad to hear things are better with the OH. I find mine bottles his feelings too. You know the whole 'real men don't cry' bullcrap. Frustrates me sometimes, I just wish he talk!

MrsBroodyPant - Don't worry, everytime I see a newborn baby on tv I burst into tears. Or songs on the radio. 'Small bump' gets me going everytime

Hilslo - I hope your AF surprises you early! But boo to work stress!

AFM: I'm getting there, Trying to keep myself busy. We leave for a brief holiday in 6 days so will be nice to get away.
I said I wouldn't test early, but well yea - that lasted til 6dpo
I don't know why I do it, I know they're going to be a BFN but I feel compelled to do it. I feel like a psycho having arguments with myself justifying why I should or shouldn't test lol.
Both I and the OH are 25 (I'll be 26 in August though) and from QLD Australia

 

[ece77]

lune_miel - I can't agree more with your statement:

What frustrates me the most is you spend all of you life trying not to get knocked up that when you are finally ready your body has already started to close the door. I feel cheated by ever using bc as I think it has side effects no matter how much they try to deny it.

I never used the BC, was always sceptical about it for some reason. But all I'm hearing and reading is, it sure has its side effects. Meddling with your hormones is some serious business!

hilslo - Loved the slogan on your new mug! Try not to stress more than you have to (or you can take) at work! And try not to stress over AF, it really comes in its own time!

MrsBroodyPant - What a lovely job you have! I'm jealous. I love dancing, and took tango lessons with dh last year. Would love to start again.
I am an architect working on historic buildings (not designing, but restoring). But I gave myself a break after I lost the baby. I guess I'll start working again in a few weeks, but mostly from home.

twinmummy - I totally get it with hpts! I was almost testing every 2 days to see my hcg drop. I would continue still if they could test below 10 miu

 

[xxDreamxx]

Hi All,

Have had a somewhat "ok" day today - a little cry earlier on but nothing since then. I saw my GP this morning and he has ordered the iron, glucose and thrombophilia screen for me - I go for blood work tomorrow morning. I am eager to get to 8 weeks and speak with my Ob/Gynae as I had low Papp A and Low Free B-HCG and I am wondering about the possible reoccurrence in subsequent pregnancies.

Right now, though....I am trying to keep busy and let my body heal. I did do a HPT last night to see how dark it was and it was pretty dark....so will do another in a week to see my HCG levels hopefully have decreased.

How is everyone doing today?

 

[twinmummy06]

twinmummy - I totally get it with hpts! I was almost testing every 2 days to see my hcg drop. I would continue still if they could test below 10 miu

Argh this was totally me too LOL. Seriously my HCG was 12 on blood tests and I could still see the faintest of faint line on FRER's. Totally trust those tests now lol. Pity my HCG was going down, not up

 

[twinmummy06]

Hi Susan - I may have missed it, but did you know why your little angel passed away? Just I saw low Papp-A and that was one thing I had with my recent loss. Are the doctors measuring your HCG to watch it drop - I had to push for mine to test me

 

[xxDreamxx]

Hi Susan - I may have missed it, but did you know why your little angel passed away? Just I saw low Papp-A and that was one thing I had with my recent loss. Are the doctors measuring your HCG to watch it drop - I had to push for mine to test me

Hi

I had low Papp A of 0.231 MOM and low Free B-HCG of 0.328 MOM - At the time of the blood and NT test, I was told I was high risk for chromosome abnormalities and my Ob said it could also be a possible growth issue. Bub was measuring a week behind but over 2 subsequent scans was growing a week in a week. I did have a verifi pre natal test which came back clear for trisomy 21, 18 and 13 though.

I don't have any answers as yet, bub and placenta have been sent to King Edward Memorial Hospital for a post mortem and I had a whole heap of bloods taken in hospital and need to repeat them at the 6 week mark. I then see my Ob/Gynae at 8 weeks and we will discuss all the findings then. I do believe it was the combination low Papp A and Free B-HCG that did this though and I worry about it happening again

So many questions and no answers as yet.... early days though. I am not having my HCG monitored at the moment, but will ask my GP for a blood test in another weeks time.

What were you told about Papp A in your circumstance? Was your free B-HCG low or high (if you don't mind me asking?).

Susan

 

[twinmummy06]

I wasn't told what my Papp-A levels were, just that they were low. My HCG was fairly high I think it was 42k at 6+1, I'm not sure if this is the same as the free B-HCG your talking about though. My daughter also measured behind. I know when I ovulated and going from the date of positive test (impossible for conception after these dates too!) she was consistently 1.5-2 weeks behind. But growing well for "the scan dates". She had triploidy - which is three full sets of chromosomes and incompatible with life. Not saying that's what your situation is, just sounds very similar.

Edited to add - My NT scan came back perfect. When combined with the blood screening however, it brought our risk of Down Syndrome to 1:79.

 

[xxDreamxx]

Twinmummy06 - Yes, it certainly does sound similar. I hope we do get some answers after the testing as been done. I am scared to go for another fertility treatment (IUI) until I know what's happened.

It just sucks that we fell pregnant on the first IUI with all our issues and then had the ups and downs of everything. free b-HCG is different from the regular HCG you get tested for early on to see if it doubles - I had issues with that too though and my progesterone. Just makes me wonder if my little girl hung on for 14+ weeks (she passed on somewhere between 14 and 16) and just couldn't manage any more.

Thanks for sharing your information. I appreciate it.

 

[twinmummy06]

She certainly was a little fighter - I like to think of mine the same way. I'm sorry to hear it all happened this way, but hopefully the results come back in your favour and it's something that isn't likely to reoccur

 

[hilslo]

Wow - it sounds like the care is much better in Australia and your doctors are being very proactive which is good news! I was sent home with no follow up or any advice. I only knew to take a HPT test to monitor my HCG as I'd read it on these boards otherwise I would have had no clue that it would still register!

I think you really have to push to get anything tested here in the UK. Susan, I hope the test results come back with something concrete so that you can work towards fixing it. The good news is that IUI did work for you so should do next time and you'll be better armed.

I'm just confused with my body. I've been tempting since the op (not for the first few days) and have seen my temps come down to there normal Pre-o temps. For me I usually get 36.2 or below pre-O and 36.4 and above for post-O (36.3 throws me for a loop and I don't know where I am! ). Today my temp shot up to 36.4 today from 35.8 yesterday. Could this mean that I have ovulated? I know you need three high temps in a row so this could be a freaky oddball (I think MrsBroodyPant had one of these so this could be the same!). For those who are temping - do you know how to add my chart from FertilityFriend to my signature?

I'm jealous of your interesting jobs, dance teacher and architect sound fab! I am a financial controller of a number of property funds so not nearly as interesting, just stressful!

It's really lovely getting to know you all. It's starting to feel like a real little community now we know a little bit about each other. Twinmommy - where are you going on your hols? It will be good for the soul to have a break! x

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Yes usually these issues do not reoccur. I hope u get some answers soon.
As u know my baby had triploidy like twinmummy. My papp-a was very low at 0.08 and my hcg was the same. Its a massive indicator of a problem. My NT measurement was fine at 1.3mm. It just goes to show how important these tests are. Hopefully next time we can all have smooth pregnancies without all those ups and downs.

Xxx

 

[MrsBroodyPant]

Hilslo - i feel the same about treatment in the UK. Ive just been left without any follow up until 27th June.
Maybe u just got a crazy temp like i did. I guess we got to expect some strange goings on but maybe u have ovulated, only time will tell. I dont know how to put chart on here. Id like to do that too.

Xxx

 

[twinmummy06]

Hilslo - it's not so much of a fun holiday. We live remotely and one of my twins needs day surgery and we have no paediatric surgeon here (well at least not when it's elective and not emergency). So making a short getaway out if it for a few days before the surgery. Still means te kids can go to the beach or aquarium and stuff