I want a Christmas BFP...anyone else?

[jessschuck]

oh ok. I have had two miscarriages and one full term birth in the last two and a half years, I went in at 6 weeks back in July, the doctor saw a heartbeat but it was low, 81 bpm, I came back a week later, the heart beat was at 91, the baby didn't measure right, they told me to go home and wait, two weeks later I passed the baby at home, when it came out i knew, I just knew, my doctor wanted me to bring it to him, so i did. I remember the look on the nurses' face when I handed her the baggie, she said "I can't believe how calm you are... most women I think would be freaking out!" truth was I had been crying so much that I was numb by the time I arrived at the doctor's office. My other miscarriage was I guess a "chemical"? I got a positive pregnancy test, a few days later I started bleeding... went to the ER, they did a pregnancy test and said "yes, its positive, so lets do an ultrasound", but there was nothing in the ultrasound.. not even a gestational sac... a week later bleeding was gone and pregnancy tests were negative. But I'm just wondering if something is wrong... Is two miscarriages in two years a big deal??

I'm so sorry for your losses. God please help pray2bBlessed have an uncomplicated pregnancy, give her a beautiful baby that is 100% healthy, Amen!

 

[Pray2bBlessed]

Thanks Jess! That would be so hard to have to take your babies remains in. I don't even know if I could do it! So sorry for your losses! I don't know if two MC in 2 years is a big deal. Has your doc offered any testing, or have you asked? I know after a year of unsuccessful trying you can get tested but I don't know if they consider the MC's successful (even though they aren't)! I would maybe look into go seeing a specialist, because they were able to tell me more than my regular OB.

I pray that you get your healthy bean soon!

 

[calliebaby]

Woohoo! Positive digital frer and dollar store opks!!! Time to get busy!!!

 

[Sophiasmom]

Get to it Callie!!!

 

[wannabewillow]

Go Callie! Xxxx

 

[Lbrum]

12 dpo and fighting the urge to test til Friday! Mlm, have you tested yet?

 

[wannabewillow]

12 dpo and fighting the urge to test til Friday! Mlm, have you tested yet?

I admire your patience! My impulse got the better of me.... Have stick, will pee. Good luck when the time comes to you and Mlm. Xxx

 

[mlm115]

I did test yesterday- bfn. Hoping af comes quickly so I can start a new cycle now. Hope you get your bfp though lbrum!

 

[Lbrum]

Don't give up yet, you're not out until it actually comes xx

 

[JohnsonGirl]

Hey ladies. I'm having a bit of a 'wallow in my own self pity' kind of day! Husband is away, ov'd a few days ago so we've missed our shot this month. Our families seem to be talking about my sister in law's pregnancy all the time and I hate that I feel so jealous and sad for myself. I love my SIL, she's great but I can't even talk to her at the moment. I know my time will come but some days on this journey just suck!!
Sorry for the moan.....someone cheer me up by peeing on a stick!!

 

[Topanga053]

Mlm, still keeping my fingers crossed!!! If it really is a BFN, then I hope your AF starts soon and you can get going on another cycle!

Johnsongirl, I'm so sorry. I absolutely hate those down in the dumps days. I'm so sorry you missed your window this month. That is really sad. But as awful as it is, the more time that goes by, the closer you are to your BFP! That's how I have to think of it!

Afm, big updates this week! AF came on Friday (two days late). Also, I got my Day 21 results Friday evening. My progesterone is really low. So low that my OBGYN isn't sure if I'm actually ovulating or not. (I knew all of those positive OPKs weren't good!) I had another blood draw this morning to see how my follicules are developing to confirm ovulation. If this suggests I'm not ovulating, my doctor is going to start me on Clomid ASAP. If I am ovulating, she wants me to TTC for another 2-3 months and then start Clomid if nothing happens.

I was really scared when I first heard that because my Mom had anovulatory cycles and TTC (with Clomid) for 15 years before she had me. But, I'm much more optimistic now. First, I know that we CAN get pregnant. Second, we got pregnant on our second cycle the first time, so things can't be that bad. And third, I know that medicine is much better now and I'm getting tested SOOOO much earlier than my mom (who waited 3+ years to start testing).

I'm starting to use FertiliTea tonight, which is supposed to increase your CM and progesterone levels. I also researched what foods are supposed to help ovulationg and progesterone levels and went grocery shopping! I was cooking salmon last night (helps with ovulation) and added some olive oil (also helps with ovulation!). DH thought it was odd since we never add olive oil to fish. He looked at me for a minute and then was like, "Let me guess, olive oil helps you get pregnant?" HAHAHA the man knows me so well!!!!!

 

[Lbrum]

14 dpo and managed to hold on and not test! But don't feel hopeful this month, no particular reason. Had a bit of a cry the other day too. Found out another one of my close friends is pregnant. It's not that I'm not happy for them, honestly. But there are 3 now and I just keep thinking I should be sharing this with them. One of them had her own loss which was horrendous last year so in another way it gives me hope but I just want to be pregnant too and sometimes it almost feels like it's never going to happen

 

[bluebird]

Oh man, I'm sorry Lbrum. We all have those days Try to hang in there, it will happen for you. In fact, you could be pregnant right now!!

 

[mlm115]

Sorry lbrum. I had one of those days this part weekend too, I know how you feel. Still hoping for you this cycle though! When is af due? Still waiting til Friday to test?

 

[mlm115]

AF came today- I'm feeling ok since I knew I wasn't pregnant. I'm going to work on getting my valentines day bfp this cycle!

 

[Lbrum]

Still no af but I did give in and test today and got a bfn. I knew too though, we both felt the same this month! Sorry mom but on to next month xx

 

[Topanga053]

Sorry mlm and lbrum. Looks like quite a few of us are shooting for spring BFPs!

I'm so happy because my doctor called yesterday and said that my second blood work was normal! I have to schedule a meeting with her next week, but I think that means that I'm at least ovulating! Hugely exciting news!!!

 

[mackjess]

Sorry for the negative tests and the AFs ladies. But great news that your bodies are cycling away and OVing! Hope this means BFPs for you very soon.

 

[bluebird]

Thats great news Topanga! Hopefully it will be a BFP for you this month, what CD are you on? Im on 9.... BORING....I seem to remember that you and I were close last month.

I'm sorry MLM and Lbrum, Valentines BFP here we come!!!

 

[bluebird]

And mackjess... woo hoo!!! 12 weeks!! Have you started showing yet?