I am honestly afraid to go into too much detail in case the person this is about is also on bnb and sees it... (sounds unlikely I know, but I only went and came across a girl I went to school with discussing her pregnancy a few years back! She went into loads of detail on here about her depression and relationship issues with the dad but over on fb it was all lovey dovey happy happy... )
ANYWAY I digress... Basically someone close to me I just found out is TTC. Now I know that this person gets pregnant at the drop of a hat and so I have no doubt she will be pregnant next month. Trust me it's happened a lot of times so far. And I feel sad because....I know this sounds so shit and bitter but the background is I was TTC a few years ago and she got pregnant during that time. No one knew I was TTC (and they still don't know I was). It was really devastating to me, I was SOOOO SO heartbroken having to watch her pregnancy and newborn etc. I gave up on TTC in my grief and...I got a very surprise BFP haha. That was great of course, but EVERYONE (including her) immediately assumed I had got pregnant because she had. You know how it is, sometimes it's seeing a close friend or family member be pregnant that gets you broody. I could see why they'd think that but in my case I was trying long before she got pg. To this day she and other people joke that I "copied" her by getting pregnant with my son.
Now I'm back TTC again and I've just found out she is It's honestly so upsetting to me. I know I don't conceive quickly, and she does. So no doubt she will be pregnant very soon (she has been a lot, although not all live births) and I will have to go through it all over again. Best case scenario now, is that I get a BFP and AGAIN people think I only did it because of her! Oh everyone will have a field day as it's second time around. She'll be pissed off too (and was last time) that I "tried" to steal her thunder.
I know that you're all probably wondering why the hell I care about anyone other than me, DH and DS (and potential future baby) but it's all a complicated and close-knit dynamic that further ruined a difficult first pregnancy and would do the same with this one, and that's even IF i manage to get pregnant!! If I don't it will be even worse watching her pregnancy.
Sorry for ranting so much. I don't know yet that I'm out this month but I strongly suspect as for reasons of flu we didn't manage to DTD around O time.
Just feel sad and I know that's shit but I really didn't need this. TTC is difficult enough.
Edit: I just realised I ended up posting quite a lot of information here, ha. Happen to know she can't be in the TWW though, so don't see why she'd be here.
ANYWAY I digress... Basically someone close to me I just found out is TTC. Now I know that this person gets pregnant at the drop of a hat and so I have no doubt she will be pregnant next month. Trust me it's happened a lot of times so far. And I feel sad because....I know this sounds so shit and bitter but the background is I was TTC a few years ago and she got pregnant during that time. No one knew I was TTC (and they still don't know I was). It was really devastating to me, I was SOOOO SO heartbroken having to watch her pregnancy and newborn etc. I gave up on TTC in my grief and...I got a very surprise BFP haha. That was great of course, but EVERYONE (including her) immediately assumed I had got pregnant because she had. You know how it is, sometimes it's seeing a close friend or family member be pregnant that gets you broody. I could see why they'd think that but in my case I was trying long before she got pg. To this day she and other people joke that I "copied" her by getting pregnant with my son.
Now I'm back TTC again and I've just found out she is It's honestly so upsetting to me. I know I don't conceive quickly, and she does. So no doubt she will be pregnant very soon (she has been a lot, although not all live births) and I will have to go through it all over again. Best case scenario now, is that I get a BFP and AGAIN people think I only did it because of her! Oh everyone will have a field day as it's second time around. She'll be pissed off too (and was last time) that I "tried" to steal her thunder.
I know that you're all probably wondering why the hell I care about anyone other than me, DH and DS (and potential future baby) but it's all a complicated and close-knit dynamic that further ruined a difficult first pregnancy and would do the same with this one, and that's even IF i manage to get pregnant!! If I don't it will be even worse watching her pregnancy.
Sorry for ranting so much. I don't know yet that I'm out this month but I strongly suspect as for reasons of flu we didn't manage to DTD around O time.
Just feel sad and I know that's shit but I really didn't need this. TTC is difficult enough.
Edit: I just realised I ended up posting quite a lot of information here, ha. Happen to know she can't be in the TWW though, so don't see why she'd be here.