"impatiently waiting and complaining" IVF November/December/end of the year bumps

[lochbride]

Late starter to this thread but thought I'd say hi. Currently on day 2 of a day 3 transfer and suffering major bloating and gas. This is our second ICSI and we are hoping, wishing, praying that this is the one for us. Two perfect little embies went back in on Saturday - test date 13th Dec....

How are you all coping with your 2WW's? I'm off work but going a bit stir crazy. I already cleaned out some of the kitchen cupboards this morning!!!

 

[michelle01]

Anx - I am so sorry

Afam - Are you on progrestrone suppositories? I know they cause some symptoms, but I have had a few spouts of cramping here and there, along with gas too. This wait is a little different then my previous 2 cycles, I feel good, which is making me so nervous, like literally no symptoms whatsoever. Well I have been having dizziness, but not sure what that is about, but other then that, had I not been going through IVF, I feel like I am ready for a 2 hour workout right now!

Welcome loch! Hope this cycle works for you And I am kinda going crazy during this wait, I am 6dp5dt right now!

Good luck today Ash!!!

Hope everyone else is doing good!

 

[septbride]

Hello Lochbride! Welcome to the lovely 2WW. I'm on my second ICSI cycle too. Had three transferred in last Thursday, OTD the day before you on Dec. 12.

Afam/Michelle/lochbride: I'm extra gassy too! The whole process is delightful, isn't it?

Anx, I'm sorry about the BFN. When is your WTF appointment? Hope it's soon and you can get going on your next step. Take it easy in the meantime. It's a BRUTAL time.

AFM, I'm holding up OK, thanks! Sort of working under the assumption that it isn't going to work and that we can run off to Mexico for a week in January to recover. I guess after the last failed cycle it all feels so similar that I don't feel like it's going to work...I'd rather be proven wrong than be bitterly disappointed like last time. I know this sounds a bit negative, but it just feels safer for now.

Love to all!

 

[Afamilygal]

Anx- I'm really very sorry to hear this... I feel really badly for you and wish it were different, I really really do *hugs* do you have some frozen embryos? My clinic told me that with their new freezing techniques that they are literally having more success now with the frozen embryos!!! I don't think I have any frozen.. I had one little guy who was really struggling along but they haven't called me yet to let me know what happened to him.

Loch- hi there! I got me gas too- holy moses. I'm also a little bloated (I think from the gas- ha!) my test date is the 9th so we are all really close together on that which is nice. I am definitely stir crazy but trying hard not to move much (not that it would do anything at this point) I've been having a lot of cramping which makes me nervous (as it tends to)

michelle- I am on crinone and in the past it has made me nauseous from time to time as well as a little crampy but not really... this time I feel nauseated often and pretty crampy most of the time... It is making me NUTS.
I get dizzy too but I think its the inertia.
I hope your feeling different is a good sign! didnt you say 3rd time was a charm? ;D

Sept- hello fellow gassy! 'delightful'...yes, thats certainly one way to describe it!
I hate to hear you assuming it isn't going to work. cause really, you never know, right? but I know what you mean about it feeling safer though. like it will hurt less? (only Im not sure it will..) I'm always tempted to assume the worst but it makes me unhappy and right now, I need all the happiness and hope I can muster.
but it's scary. It's normal to protect your heart but maybe allow in a little faith or hope if you can.

I hate to sound too positive about any of this cause then I run the risk of being totally wrong and getting crushed and truthfully I want a family so badly I wouldnt put it past my brain to be making up symptoms for me! but I do have hope, I can't help it. plus this may be my only IVF so its now or never!
hugs to you all.xx

 

[kchope]

Hi all,

Sorry for not posting any updates last week. I noticed that all you ladies were getting ready for ET and didn't want to be a downer. My beta was last Tuesday and let's just say that I went through Beta Hell. My 1st beta came back as an "unsure" maybe preggo or maybe not. Had a 2nd beta and HCG increased but still very low numbers so things were not looking too good from the start. Had my 3rd beta and we are so crushed as it came back a bust. My heart aches...and the holidays will be miserable to say the least. Now I have to have a consult with the Dr and most likely will not be able to get in for 3 months. Wonder what that conversation will be like...

Wishing all you in the 2ww that your holiday wishes come true! Best of luck to all of you as this is such a hard path to go travel for wanting a family. I think I'm going to take some time off and heal for the last cycle attempt in 2013 as I cannot imagine living a childfree life. I will be thinking of you all!
xoxox

 

[michelle01]

Oh kchope - I am soooooo sorry hun for what you went through Why will it take 3 months to get an appointment?

 

[L4hope]

Michele, afam, sept, loch you are all getting close to your beta tests! Have everything crossed that all the bloating, gassiness, and cramping is just a sign of more to come with your bfp's!

Kchope I'm so sorry you went through such a tough week!
Hopefully you're doctor will have some idea as to what they can do differently for your third cycle. For some of us it seems as though it is a little bit of trial and error to get it right. Meanwhile we are going crazy wondering why we can't just get pregnant!

Ash how did your appt go? Does your doc want to do anything different next time? I'm on my second fresh cycle and my doc didn't change my protocol or do any testing. I'm like you though, I figure if it would fail again then I would push for a change and testing.

Anx so sorry for your bfn. Hope you get some answers St your WTF meeting.

Hello to all others..Kirs, snow etc..

Afm, I got the go ahead to trigger tonight thank goodness!! ER is wednesday morning at 8:00. Finally!!!

 

[michelle01]

Yay for trigger L4 Hope you get lots of eggies

 

[septbride]

Oh KChope, I'm so very sorry. There is nothing like having it all blow up in your face after all the hard work you've put in. I'm so sorry you had to go through an inconclusive beta on top of everything else. Hang in there, sweetie. I'll be thinking of you.

L4, here's to triggering!

Afam, you are totally right about the mindset! I just have to try something different after my crushing disappointment last time.

xoxo to all, hang in there ladies!

 

[Kirs_t]

Hi girls -

I have been a bit unsure as to whether I should post an update, as I know some people have had some bad news lately. Kchop - I am so so sorry I honestly know how bone achingly painful a failed cycle is. Sending you so much love and care and hope you can take some time to do something special for yourself and feel better.

We have had some happy news. Yesterday I had my beta and officially confirmed we are pregnant! My DH was with me when the clinic called and we cried and cried all afternoon! This time tears of joy.... It is such early days and there are no guarantees that it will stick around - but for now I am just so excited to have made it to this point! It's the furthest we've ever got! Beta was 232 at 16dpo and have to wait till next Monday for the next one! It is going to be a long week waiting! I can't bare not to poas even now- cos I keep thinking its not real and those lines will go away!

L4 good luck for trigger and ER this week? Thinking for you and hope you recover well xxx how many follies have you got now?

Ash I hope your appt goes well too! Look forward to your update.

Afam, sept, Michelle and the girls in tww- when can you test???

Love to all xxxx

 

[L4hope]

Kirs, huge congrats on your positive beta!!! Stick little one stick! Don't be afraid to post your good news. For one we are all here to support each other good and bad. second, we all can use the hope of seeing a bfp to know that it CAN happen! So so happy for you...enjoy it girl!

My ultrasound showed 18 follies which is great. However, I had about 15 last time and only 1 made it to a good 5 day blast and 2became blast on day 6 and 1 morula. So, while I'm very happy with the follie number I'm really praying for a few more good blasts this time. We will soon know!

 

[Snowbunny]

Wow, ladies, so much going on here. Let's see if I can catch up.

L4 - Yay for trigger. I'll be praying for a good retrieval to blast ratio.

Kchope - I'm so sorry. Like a lot of the other girls, we know how tough this is. I can't imagine how much harder it must have been with the uncertainty. I had to wait almost 3 months for my FET, as hard as it has been it has gone by faster than expected. I'll be thinking about you.

Anxious - I'm sorry about the negative beta. I hope you are taking care of yourself.

Septbride - I totally get the 'expect the worst' attitude. I always hesitate to get excited and then be so let down.

Afam - you my lady are glass half full. I wish I could have your courage to hope. You are getting close - will you test early (I can't remember).

Michelle - hope the rest of your 2ww flies by. Have you decided to test out the trigger?

Ash - can't wait to hear about your wtf apmnt.

Kirs-t - woo hoo! What great news! I am so happy for you. Please keep posting on your progress. We need the hope!

AFM - I have my endometrial biopsy tomorrow...needless to say I am a scared!!! I have decided to bring myself so DH doesn't have to take another day off work without pay. He works for a very small company and we are running out of excuses (nobody knows about your journey other than parents and friends who have been through ivf).

 

[Sandy83]

Morning ladies

L4 - Fx'd for more blasts!

Snow - Good luck for today

Kirs_t - That's great news

Kchope - Im so sorry, thinking of you

Anx - How you doing?

Afam, michelle - Hope you are doing ok not long now!

Ash - How did your WTF appt go?

Sept, Raz and all the other ladies hope you are doing well xx

 

[Anxiously]

Kchope, I'm so sorry about what you're going through. We're in the same boat. I've cried the entire day yesterday and poor DH was trying his very best to dig me out of the hole. If he could get hold of a clown costume I'd bet he would have gone for it.

Afam, I have 7 frosties but they are only grade 3, which is right in the middle of the scale based on the hospital's grading system. I had only 2 grade 4 embryos, and those had already been transferred into me. I'm going to ask the RE about the possibility of transferring 1 Day 3 thawed embryo first, and then send the remaining to Day 5 blast. I don't think I'm ready for a 3rd round anyway so might as well use them all. I'm likely moving to Qatar with DH next May once he gets his job offer. So I may just take a break and do my next fresh cycle over there.

Kirs_t, don't worry about us. I may be speaking just for myself, but as all of us have stuck together through this IVF hell together, sharing our daily experiences, I'll always be happy for good news from any one of you.

Sandy, guess we'll be FET buddies Though I'm going to bug my RE tomorrow to let me go for it this month.

Loch, warm welcome! I had loads of bloating and gas for the 2 days following ET too. It's just the fluid that's replacing your empty follies. Drink lots of water - I know it defies logic but it really helps. Some ladies swear by isotonic drinks. Is this a fresh cycle or FET for you?

L4Hope, sorry for being a forum idiot but what is WTF? The only WTF I know of is "what the f***"

All other ladies, hope everything's going well for you!

 

[Sandy83]

Anx - Ill be starting FET on this months cycle. AF should be here by early next week and then start injections on day 21 so should start this month but ET will be in Jan 2013. Sorry you have to join me but am glad you are looking to moving forward its the best way.

 

[Anxiously]

Sandy, what kind of injections will it be? I'm clueless about the whole FET process.

 

[Sandy83]

Im pretty clueless as well but i got my programme last week

On day 21 i start buserelin injections and should expect to start AF within 10 days of starting injections, then start on Oestradiol tablets which is day 1 of my replacement cycle. Will take these for about 10 days and have a scan half way through and get a date for ET. So from day 21 of cycle i will be looking at 3 to 4 weeks before ET depending how i respond. xx

 

[lochbride]

Oh thanks ladies, I was really hesitant about coming back on the forum - I haven't since my failed first ICSI cycle in April - like you KChope, I had a beta that was high enough to warrant dragging it out for 3-4 days but low enough for the nurses to let us know that it was very unlikely to stick. It was so painful and my heart goes out to you and your OH.

Anxiously, the same goes to you - healing power to pick yourselves back up again. Easy to type but I understand how awful it is. This is a second fresh cycle - no freezing on the NHS unless the eggs are amazing quality which sadly mine weren't. Luckily the ones going back are top notch so fingers crossed they are continuing to grow.

Septbride - three?! Ooh that's so exciting - how many did you do last time? We picked 2 last time and two again... we're so close in dates. I'm trying to keep positive but I know what you mean about not wanting to get too excited before hand. I don't know about you but I do feel more relaxed the second time round - that has to be a good thing right?!

Michelle01 thanks for the welcome - not long til test time?!

Afamilygal - how much not moving have you done? I've been trying to be really calm and haven't been out since the transfer on Saturday. However, I am doing things around the house - nothing more than washing dishes and cooking but I am getting pretty bored. Thinking of going out for a walk later - as long as I'm not running around right?! It's so tricky. At least this time I've taken proper time off work so no work stress. How about you? I've been gassy since the ER, showing no signs of lessening much to the sadness of poor DH!! I blame the progesterone pessaries as well as those poor ovaries for being so busy in the last few weeks!

Good luck to everyone else - it's great to hear from other people going through the same thing and lovely to be here

 

[michelle01]

Kirs - We want you to post your happy news I am so excited for you!! This gives all of us hope that this process does work. And you should not feel bad for sharing it with us

L4 - I bet you get some good eggs this time I am rooting for you!!!!

Sandy - I am counting down the days I am now getting ansy...before I didn't seem to care as much, but as it gets closer to beta day, I cannot control myself from testing You are so close to starting again

Snow - So I told myself, NO testing till Thursday morning, to test out that darn booster. Now mind you it was just given Saturday and I POAS this morning I have NO self-control And I knew it would show a dark second line, and it did, so now I have to keep testing to see that it goes lighter or darker! I just hate not knowing.

Afam - How are you holding up? When is your beta again?

Loch - I couldn't resist the urge to POAS this morning, but I had an hcg booster Saturday, so I am testing that out now to see what happens. Good for you for taking it easy during this wait! I went back to work the day after ET and I am trying to take it easy but going crazy! I want to get back to the gym SOOOO badly!!!

kchope - Thinking about you

 

[lochbride]

Haha, POAS addict Michelle? I think I'm going to be good and steer clear

BTW, if my 3 day transfer was on Saturday - does that make today (Tuesday) day 3? Stupid question but it's bugging me Thanks!