Inconceivable and beyond :-)

[hollyhopeful2]

2have! you're pg! Congrats!

I think about you guys all the time and wonder how everyone is. I am still reading back to finish getting caught up. Just wanted to pass a quick hello

 

[2have4kids]

Hi Holly how's twin mommy life treating you? Yes, somehow I got pregnant. I just got back from the doc's office and she had a young patient of hers pass away suddenly from a blood clot in her lung. She had the same issues as myself as it came out in the autopsy. AntiPhospholipid antibodies & Thrombophelia. Scary! So she's recommended me to a hemotogolost. I feel a little better knowing I'll have a specialist tracking that stuff locally. It was nice that Dr. beers clinic finally diagnosed my issues and made drug recommendations to help with implantation & prevent mc but I still feel that I can mc at any given moment.
Felt crampy this morning and felt like I was bleeding while walking through Costco today. I got home and there was nothing, is my head playing tricks on me? Wish I could just fast forward to the 30 week mark.

 

[2have4kids]

Oh Mrs G I just flipped back & saw your bub, beautiful!!! So glad everything's on track for you we need more successes on this board.

Coolstar, how are you? Have you heard anything? I hope you're ok my dear

 

[sienna]

lovely pic Mrs G, thanks

 

[hollyhopeful2]

Mrs G your baby looks lovely! What a beautiful keepsake

2have for me that feeling of 'could mc any minute' never went away. Right up until the birth! I feel sad about that because I felt like it got in the way of really enjoying my pregnancy. Being so guarded because the other shoe could drop at any given moment. Most of us on here have experienced loss and failure...I wish it was just easier to forget about it when it finally happened.

This is the beginning to your 4 kids!! 3 more to go! Hoping and praying for a safe healthy and happy 9 months

Momhood is good Still break into tears occasionally while rocking one of them because my heart feels like it is busting at the seams with love. Its all good

 

[Pussycat1]

Just found this article re RIF and what could be contributing factors https://www.manchester.ac.uk/discover/news/article/?id=13787
Grasping at straws? x

 

[Coolstar]

Mrs G, so happy for you !! Congrats.
My beta came back negative. At least I am out of the TWW limbo that's the good part. Surprisingly , I am holding out quiet good.

 

[Pussycat1]

Coolstar, so sorry, I really hoped at least one of is would get lucky. I'm in the library trying to find some answers, of course there are none .... xxx

 

[Coolstar]

Thanks Pussycat .

Coolstar, so sorry, I really hoped at least one of is would get lucky. I'm in the library trying to find some answers, of course there are none .... xxx

 

[Mrs G]

Girls I am so sorry to hear your news. I know there is absolutely nothing I can say except I do know what you are going through and for me once I knew the result, it was strangely ok. I hope you can move forward and have a next step plan to work toward, whatever that may be. Do try and keep believing, as hard as I know it is. Treat yourselves to nice things and remember we are all here for you.
Much love xxx

 

[Mrs G]

Holly, I know exactly what you mean. I spent the whole 9 months worrying when pg with dd. today is the day I mc last time so a massive day for me to get over. I know it's completely different this time but doesn't stop the worry. I'm gonna have scans ever couple of weeks just cos it gives me something to work towards!
Xx

 

[Butterfly67]

PR girl, PC and Coolstar so sorry ladies xxx

 

[dmama]

Coolstar - so sorry to hear the news - big hugs. I used to think IVF was a sure thing; then I thought DE was a sure thing. Now I see that nothing is for sure and it is all a f-ing crapshoot. I think it is a numbers game and a matter of time. I think your time is coming soon. Hugs my friend.

 

[Pussycat1]

Dmama, you are so right! x

 

[2have4kids]

Coolstar I'm so sorry to read your news. Do you have any plans next? Children can come to you via many ways, like my DH said: you. May not have to ruin your body to have them

I know the feeling of numbness and moving on...all to well. I didn'tcry after my failures but it definitely effected my motivation and ability to take care of myself for the next 3-6 months. It was a low lying depression of sorts. I didn't want to work out, couldn't think about doing anything creative. A very basic way of living, work and carry on the next day. I hope you can shake it up and get over the hump without it taking too much from your life.

 

[crystal443]

So sorry cool star

 

[Coolstar]

Thanks ladies. I totally agree with Dmama, IVF is just sheer luck. Infertility is so tough coz you can't share it with others and those who are fertile will never ever understand you.
I had a talk with my doc. She does not want to do a FET with the remaining 3 embryos. She says since half of our embryo did not survive and the last cycle was BFN the possibility of getting a BFP with those 3 embryos is very less. I have an appointment tomm, let's see.

 

[Pussycat1]

Hi Coolstar, jeez mother natures a bitch isn't she? I'm surprised that they froze the embryos if they weren't convinced they were top quality. Did you have a day 3 transfer in the end? I'm really interested to hear what your Re says, I'm hoping you get something positive to move forward.
I'm hoping to hear from the clinic today as my dr should be back from holiday. I'm not sure I'll get any answers as I think I'm just one of those 'unexplained' cases, the worst possible diagnosis for me. I just want to take a pill to make this better.... x

 

[2have4kids]

Pussycat don't give up, you've been properly diagnosed with NKC's. Intralipids isn't the only treatment for NKC's and you may need something like Crystal in combination ie IVIG, Humira, a stronger dose of prednisone, and/or Intralipids. Making sure you're on the vits proven to help IVF (D especially) success may help too. But again, I feel like with me and DOR, plus 3 different immune issues and you and Coolstar, it's a numbers game, keep trying and trying until you're exhausted financially or emotionally or the doc makes a call

Coolstar if you've had quite severe scarring from Endo, implantation can be tricky. Loads of women with endo can get pregnant while lots can't. My gf with endo went onto adopt and eventually had a hysterectomy. She'd had enough pain. It's a terrible condition to struggle with. Do they refresh the tissue before your ivf's? I know less about that then immune issues.

 

[Mrs G]

Hi everyone.
Hope you're all doing ok.
Pussycat, Coolstar, just wondered if you'd done acupuncture before with ET? I had acu literally right before and after ET with both my bfp cycles. I did have it with a couple of bfn cycles but not so close to transfer, maybe the day before or after. It may be nothing but I just know that feeling of wanting to try anything.
2have, how are you feeling? Do you have any more scans coming up?
Xx