International bumps to be!

[mzswizz]

DH and i are both from miami. Our houses were less than 10 minutes away. So we were raised in the same area. But our home is wherever we rest our heads at. But we will always represent where we from especially when it comes to songs and sports teams . When it comes to communication, if i am upset, i have selective hearing but if im calm i understand. My communication is weak. I can have everything i want to say to him in my head and the minute its time for me to act on it, i freeze up. Im not really open when it comes with me and how i feel until it blows the top off the house. I guess it was because of the horrible life i went through. Where i had to just keep everything bottled up inside of me so i got use to it. I been through sooooo much that an abusive relationship is just rubbing the surface. I think thats what also has me in a fright to speak up for myself. I have to put it in my head that he is here to help support love care cherish appreciate grow with me and not against.

 

[Madrid98]

I'm glad you're working out your differences mzswizz!

Chrissi my daughter is 11 years old. I never had the courage to send her in the past because I thought she was too young but I think now is a good age as she's very sensible but still a child.
I'll worry every minute no matter what.

XX

 

[Hena]

She'll have a grand time Madrid, I was 11 the first time I went away without my parents, in my case it was to my Godparents' house in New Jersey and it remains one of my greatest memories, I felt so grown-up but totally safe at the same time. I'm sure it's not easy for Mamma though

Sounds like things are going to be okay mzswizz! Good luck tonight!

rjsmam, where have you been all day? I miss you, hehe. Hope you had a good time with your friends and your dad's doing well.

I'm scratching my head here. I was 100% sure AF had landed, had my crying session with DH, ran the gammot of emotions from depression to hope for next cycle, then the bleeding stopped. It was just one brown-pink wipe at 1, then a few drops of watery blood, and now the paper comes out clean cd32 when last cycle was 40 does make ib seem possible, but the cramps? And surely 13dpo is unusally late for implantation...but mzswizz mentioned that other lady who had late IB.....plus my rl bff who bled through her whole first trimester..... I'm offically confused. Maybe I should go jump DH and take advantage of the lack of blood and stop overthinginking things. Thanks for putting up with my mood swings today everyone, I promise Suzy Sunshine will be back tomorrow come BFP or AF

 

[mzswizz]

Madrid-I know she will be okay. I remember when I was without my parents but staying with my sister. I was 14 and I felt like I can rule the world

Hena-You see what I mean Its not AF until she comes full force. Hoping it was late IB (which is possible). Just hop on DH tonight. Hopefully tonight I will be able to do the same after the long talk and if not then there's always cuddling up in the same bed which leads to it

 

[stuckinoki]

Hena, maybe the blood has been working it's way out for a couple days? You don't always see the IB as soon as it happens and brown blood is old blood. Either way, you're not out yet!

 

[ChrissiK]

Hena, maybe the blood has been working it's way out for a couple days? You don't always see the IB as soon as it happens and brown blood is old blood. Either way, you're not out yet!

Good point - we are all keeping our fingers crossed for you!

Plus: you don't NEED to be Suzy Sunshine for this group! We will listen to you in any mood you are in!

mzswizz - did you have your talk? Have you reconciled? I hope so!

2ww starting for me. Couldn't pinpoint OV this month - sometime during the last week, if at all - so the wait might be even longer, but my patience even shorter!

 

[stuckinoki]

I'm only CD7 and I'm already bored with this cycle.

 

[ChrissiK]

I'm only CD7 and I'm already bored with this cycle.

Yeah, when did my life become a waiting game in 2 weeks increments?

And I suppose when it (hopefully) finally happens, the wait increases to 40 weeks...

At least you still have the excitement of ovulation in front of you, I am expecting a and then we will be apart for the next OV, so the earliest I can get excited again is end of AUGUST!

 

[stuckinoki]

I'm only CD7 and I'm already bored with this cycle.

Yeah, when did my life become a waiting game in 2 weeks increments?

And I suppose when it (hopefully) finally happens, the wait increases to 40 weeks...

At least you still have the excitement of ovulation in front of you, I am expecting a and then we will be apart for the next OV, so the earliest I can get excited again is end of AUGUST!

Ugh. If it doesn't happen this cycle for us we won't be able to ttc again until December when DH gets home

I'd love to get pregnant this cycle but I'm not banking on it. lol

It seems like when you're ttc, you're always waiting for something. To O, to bleed, to test, etc.

 

[Madrid98]

Don't give up for something that hasn't happened yet. There's no point getting worried or depressed if we don't know for sure ladies.

Stuckinoki you're in the boring part of the cycle, waiting for O & no excitement.

Chrissik and Hena just wait and try to be patient. Until af doesn't show you don't have to think about the next step.
Hena ib is quite possible at 13dpo. It depends on how slowly your egg travelled from the fallopian tube. I'm thinking your eggie is a cool take it easy kind of egg, in no rush whatsoever, lol

Today is the day! I'm going to help her with straightening her hair (she loves that) & getting ready for the airport. I'm sure she'll have a great time being the centre of the attention & no mum or dad telling her off about teasing her younger brother. Sometimes I wish I could go back to that age with no responsibilities.

Have a lovely day!!!!

XX

 

[Hena]

Good morning ladies!

mzswizz, hope you had a good night!

Madrid, those tickers give my happy butterflies! Hope your dd has a wonderful time with her grandparents, and you can share the happy news with her when she gets back!

Chrissi and Stuckinoki, keep the faith! With any luck you'll both get your BFPs this cycle and won't have to worry about being apart from your DHs!! I find that lots of makes the time go fater...just a thought

Thank you all SO much for your encouraging words, I can't tell you how much easier it makes this.
Here's my update for today: at about 11:30 last night there was some very dark brown gummy blood on the paper and it "smelled" like AF iykwim, so I was quite sure I was officially out. Then this morning I wiped before peeing, and only a tiny brown-pink watery spot again. So we decided to test with fmu... Since then I've had a few dark brown spots but mostly clean paper. Still some cramping. I often have very light periods, but this is rediculous, could the pregnacare conception vitamins be causing this?

Anyway, had another good cry with DH who like the trooper he is lifted me up and renewed my can-do attitude. A team like us can't fail in the long run!

BUT at the same time I am DREADING going to the States and Canada in two weeks and having everyone ask when we're going to have kids and telling me not to wait too long even if we had our bfp before going it would be too early to announce to anyone but my mum and dad, but it would have been a lot easier to coyly say "that's for God to decide" or "We'll see" or "I dunno, the DINK like is really good!" as it is, I think I'm likely to slap someone and say "mind your own business"

 

[Hena]

Don't give up for something that hasn't happened yet. There's no point getting worried or depressed if we don't know for sure ladies.

Stuckinoki you're in the boring part of the cycle, waiting for O & no excitement.

Chrissik and Hena just wait and try to be patient. Until af doesn't show you don't have to think about the next step.
Hena ib is quite possible at 13dpo. It depends on how slowly your egg travelled from the fallopian tube. I'm thinking your eggie is a cool take it easy kind of egg, in no rush whatsoever, lolToday is the day! I'm going to help her with straightening her hair (she loves that) & getting ready for the airport. I'm sure she'll have a great time being the centre of the attention & no mum or dad telling her off about teasing her younger brother. Sometimes I wish I could go back to that age with no responsibilities.

Have a lovely day!!!!

XX

it would be just like me to have that kind of eggie/zygote! I was that kind of baby (2 weeks late) and am that kind of woman. My poor DH if we end up with a whole family of cool take it easiers

 

[stuckinoki]

I hope something gives for you soon Hena! I know just how horrible it is to wait for something when you don't know when it's coming. I'm sorry that you're having such a rough time of it this cycle!

I guess that June was a weird cycle for more ladies than just me than! Hopefully July will be easier.

DH and I are watching "The Descent" and it's an extra scary movie so far I'm such a baby and DH won't even tell me what's going to happen next...I hate not knowing. I'm jumpy by nature so scary movies are really hard for me to sit though. I usually end up not sleeping for days.

 

[Hena]

gah! I still have nightmares from watching the Ring in Uni! Horror is not for me, thank you very much.

The way I figure it, June was a good month for Madrid, so if we keep pace at at least one bfp a month we'll all have nice round bellies by the time she gives birth. It works that way, right? Not that I'd be opposed to doubling or trippling our bfp rate, obviously!

 

[stuckinoki]

I thought Madrid was a May BFP?

 

[stuckinoki]

I guess it was the beginning of June
My memory just ain't what she used to be!

 

[stuckinoki]

Ugh. Help ladies.

I'm CD7, and I really really want to :babydance: I just can't get in the mood

This sucks. Do you ladies ever get that? Where you just don't have the drive to BD even if you know you should?

 

[Hena]

I just scrolled back, the was on the 17th of June, my memory isn't that great either


When I'm not in the mood I usuall tell DH that I want to but that I need a little help feeling sexy. It works 90% of the time. The only fail is when he's also not in the mood. Give it a try? Let him "wow" you!

 

[ChrissiK]

Stuckinoki - this might be TMI, but I've purchased a "woman friendly" porn DVD and a vibrator for times like that. Had to come out only once so far (phew).
But if you are really down and hopeless, even that won't do the trick.

I was so frustrated a couple of days ago and fed up with the TTC that I went to the DVR and deleted all recorded episodes of Baby Story / Baby Tales / Deliver Me etc. Just couldn't bare to watch them anymore.

Hope you get in the mood when OV strikes - it's only one DTD, well one SPERM that is needed after all...

 

[dusty_sheep]

Hey you all,

stockinoki - I too, have these days when I don't feel like DTD either. Not a good thing when it's the perfect time to conceive - we had that on Thursday: bad day, and I simply hadn't been in the mood to BD but knew I kind of had to do it anyway. DH didn't feel like either, and the result was, that nothing worked. A day later we were all relaxed and things worked well. So I dunno if there's anything you can do besides maybe you two watching some porn if you like that

Hena - Whah, I remember the Ring and it gaves me sleepless nights as well. I haven't been able to watch horror movies without panicking for days anymore since I got pregnant the first time.


Busy weekend here. I'll be away next week, and I guess this will distract me a little from TWW. I'm wondering why, but I'm very relaxed about how it'll turn out.

Because even if I turn out to be pregnant when they test in 2 weeks, that's still soo early. I kind of wish they wouldn't tell me until week 20, so I don't have to worry all the time.