And right when I think I cant get anymore drained...i get drained mentally. Im already tired physically but its just the fact that all the ttc stuff has drained me completely. This cycle is my break cycle. Im not symptom spotting, no OPKs, temps, checking cm nothing. Im just going to just enjoy no AF until she comes. Im at 1 yr 5 months of ttc already and i am just completely tired of the whole thing to be honest. In reality, im not really trying anymore. Sometimes I push for baby and other times, Im just like I give up. I know after awhile of ttc, women tend to feel this way and you have to have strength to keep pushing forward but after everything, I dont even want to think about it until we go to my doctor and figure out whats going on. Any AF that comes before the doc's appt once its scheduled, will be irrelevant for me. I will start paying attention once i get the answers and help we need. But other than that yesterday, I didnt bd with dh because we were both tired and just wanted to cuddle and relax. So we fell asleep and I am still pretty tired. I have been drinking alot of water this month and I must say I did not know that water has such a major affect on my cm. I drink water and now im getting loads of cm so atleast i know that water is making me produce more cm.
but im just awaiting the go so i can go to my doc and he can tell me whats going on, fix it and then say congrats you both are going to be parents.
