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[stuckinoki]

mzswizz: Is there a planned parenthood or Christan center near you? Usually they have free pregnancy tests and they'll help you figure it out.

Your tests all look positive to me, honestly by the lightness of the lines I'd say you're closer to 4 weeks than 6....

If you can't pee long enough try to pee in a cup, put the test in for 10 seconds [1 Mississippi, 2 mississippi, 3 mississippi etc] and then lay it flat somewhere and let it do it's thing.

That's how I take all of my tests now, because I don't trust my urine stream! lol


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Ugh ladies, I'm still getting faint positives on the stupid tests but I thought the cramps were going to kill me during work today. My doc kept asking me if I was ok because I was pale and sweating from the pain.

I am still bleeding really heavily so even though the test is semi positive, I know for sure it's over.

I'm still in shock. I'm so freaking angry right now....not sure at who or what...I just know I'm mad.

A kid at work today at lunch was talking about how he thinks his new girlfriend might be pregnant and how he wasn't ready for a baby and blah blah blah....I couldn't take it. I literally ran out of the room, because I can't handle hearing about babies and people getting pregnant....it's like a big raw wound that people keep rubbing salt in...

I thought I was going to power through this like I usually do, but I feel like crap, and DH isn't home to cry to wither This sucks :/

 

[mzswizz]

Yes everyone is saying the tests are positive so i know i just have to be pregnant. I dont think i can trust the urine stream either lol i will dip from now on. I also think i ov'd late which would put me at 4+5 todays not 5+5 i just cant find a ticker to have the correct time frame :duh:

to you because i feel your pain. I went through the same thing when i m/c and then my sister fell pregnant right after i had the d&c. I felt so broken. You will be in my prayers. I hope you can get through this and become stronger with a strong BFP.

 

[stuckinoki]

Well ladies,

I received my death sentence today at my RE appointment.

Seems I have severe insulin resistance and moderate chromosomal mosaicism [<---- The first means I have shitty eggs and a crappy uninviting womb and the second means that 1% of my eggs have the proper number of chromosomes.]

I guess I'm off the ttc wagon for good.

We won't be able to do anything until they run more tests and find out which mosaicism I have [there's a couple different kinds that all mean different things] but we have to see a genetic counselor and do more in depth testing.

 

[mzswizz]

aww stucki . Well hopefully once they run all the tests, they will be able to fix the problem.

AFM, i took another test and it appears to be negative so either the 1st one was an evap or i had a chemical for the first time . I took it this morning around 7:40am with FMU. I did drink alot of fluid last night but the last time I went to the bathroom was around 10pm and dh and i dtd last night but i dont think his soldiers would affect the test soooo back to awaiting AF. Maybe she will come two weeks late.

 

[stuckinoki]

There's no "fixing" this problem.

My eggs are shit.

The only way we're going to have a baby is if we adopt an egg from someone else, which I'm not comfortable with.

I'm f****** gutted. I can't even form complete thoughts right now

 

[mzswizz]

I thought doctors have ways to making a woman's eggs become better quality or giving you something to help you produce better quality eggs.

Well, atleast i can share the gutted feeling with you today. I just feel like im the lowest of the low at the moment

 

[stuckinoki]

I thought doctors have ways to making a woman's eggs become better quality or giving you something to help you produce better quality eggs.

Fixing the quality isn't going to help.

My eggs are all missing chromosomes...therefore they will never become a baby even if DHs sperms do get to them.

Our baby dream is over.

[I didn't mean to sound like a B mzswizz; I'm just still a little numb about it all]

 

[mzswizz]

Dont worry stucki. Let all your emotions out. I might just be joining you in the end. I dont want to buy no more FRERs for as long as I live. Its like right when you have it then BAM its gone. Ugh I just cant stand it. It gets me upset and heartbroken.

 

[ChrissiK]

Stuckinoki -

I am devastated by your news. It sounds so heart-breakingly final that TTC must come to an end. I hope you can get to the States and get a second opinion soon!

Not to discount what the doc said, I also wanted to share with you that my cousin (and best friend) found out she herself and her eggs had a chromosomal abnormality after she had 5 miscarriages, all boys. Apparently the broken off chromosomes were fatal for boys. With the help of egg pre-screening - after 10 long years - she was able to conceive a girl and then another one. One of the girls is a carrier of the same abnormality, the other one is not. They are 10 and 8. As science advances, my cousin hopes her daughter will also be able to conceive, if she choses to later.
She is very active with support groups and forums, I will ask her for some links. Even if you don't feel like it right now, maybe they will be helpful in the future.

My heart goes out to you! Sending lots of love from England!

 

[stuckinoki]

Thanks so much ladies. Right now we don't know a whole lot about what's going on, the doctor is rerunning all the labs and we're going to meet with yet another specialist and a genetic counselor.

Maybe IVF will be an option with a donor egg in the future, maybe it's not that serious.

In in all truth, I'm feeling a little more optimistic about it today. Maybe it's not really a death sentence, it's more like a detour.

What the hell, right? It's already been two years....and on the upside of things, the metformin is going to help me lose a ton of weight.

ChrissiK, I would definitely be interested in some forums for this! Thanks.

 

[mzswizz]

CD50 and no AF yay im thinking about buying a different a brand of hpts

 

[ChrissiK]

Stuckinoki -
here is the link to UNIQUE, a parents and doctor run website. The best place to start!
https://www.rarechromo.org/html/home.asp

 

[rjsmam]

Stuck, You are amazing. I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this - but truly - your outlook is inspiring. Am hoping that the US drs will have an alternative view on things. You WILL get there.

mzswiss - another hpt sounds like great idea.

sorry v short post today - been mad wk - had 2 days in london at start of wk and off to paris tomorrow v early with DH.... yay!

xxx

 

[stuckinoki]

OMG. I'VE GOT AN UPDATE LADIES!!!!!

So let me start off by saying; I absolutely can't wait to get back to the states and back into a private practice PCM.

I had a meeting with the genetic counselor today! I was crossing my fingers that he would give me some good news about the moderate mosaicism/unbalanced translocation that was detected on my chromosomal analysis last year....

Turns out he gave me fantastic news.

At first he seemed really confused as to why I was there to see him. He looked at all the results on the computer and told me that my results were normal and he saw no genetic abnormalities...so I showed him the printed out lab results that my PCM gave to me to take to my new OBgyn who in turn had me take them to the Genetic counselor.

He briefly glanced over them and then asked me what my name was and my social security number.

Turns out, my freaking PCM printed out lab results THAT AREN'T MINE!!!

And I didn't notice this until the doctor pointed it out!

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The actually makes sense because when I asked my PCM for my insulin results, she told me they were normal [WNL] so it was a surprise when the OBgyn told me it was high and I needed to take the metformin.

The only thing I have in common with this other woman is that we both have thyroid issues.

I just can't believe that I didn't catch the name thing myself! Seems like I could have saved myself some crazy!

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We still have the severe insulin resistance to work with, but that's just like the thryoid, it's possible to control it through medication, diet and exercise. So I'm not feeling as down about our TTC chances anymore.

Thank you ladies so much for all of your support.
I am greatly relieved and incredibly happy that I do not have a chromosomal imbalance, I have literally been smiling all day!

 

[expatttc]

Stuck, that's amazing news!!! So happy for you and all the warm thoughts that are coming your way should be showering over you right now!
mzswizz, still also sending loads of positive thoughts, and looking forward to you calmly trying a new brands of hpts....
Lots of hugs to all from POM!

 

[ChrissiK]

Stuckinoki -

that's the BEST news in the last weeks by far! So relieved for you. Positive thinking works in wonderful ways!

 

[Madrid98]

Excellent news stucki!! so glad it was just an error!!

X

 

[mzswizz]

yay stucki!! glad it was an error. Now you can feel good and get to work on ttc

Ok no more testing for me. I am going to go to the doctor for bloodwork. Soooo I bought the answer brand and immediately a 2nd line came up and what is this 2nd line...an evap . I wanted to slap the company personally. Soooo I am just going to get bloodwork done. I dont have no sign of AF as of yet still. My cp is still the same every day like it hasnt changed at all which i think is weird because i thought it changes during the day etc but anyways if the test comes back negative then i got to see what they can do to jumpstart my af so i can start trying and this time get bloodwork done so the doc can help with any issues preventing me from conceiving.

 

[Madrid98]

Can you please show us the pic mzswizz?

If you got a second line with this one you are pregnant. Why are you so negative about it? Just embrace what is happening to you sweetie.

XX

 

[mzswizz]

Madrid-Oh no im not negative about it. Its just that the line is colorless. It first popped up white and then it went gray. Thats how i knew it was an evap. Now if it was pink, i would say yes for sure im pregnant but it wasnt so thats why I said evap. I will take a pic for you. Hopefully you will be able to see the gray line.