Hey DrS
I think all of us who have ended up going down the IVF route have had our moments of being uncomfortable with it ... I for one cried when I found out that it was the only option left to us.
It takes a bit of getting your head round (even iui feels less 'clinical' - even with a medicated cycle, as conception still happens inside your body; the place that nature intended it to be)
With IVF, conception - which should be the most natural of occurrences - happens in a cold sterile petri dish, in a lab somewhere ... and for me at least, that felt very difficult.
But
When you get your head round it, it is still the same process - the sperm still meets the egg and delivers its payload right where it's needed, and the same miracle happens.
The spark of life ignites and a new person begins.
And once you do get your head round it (weep, wail and gnash your teeth in the meantime!) IVF really does have a much better success rate than iui.
When you get started with the drugs, the time flies by so quickly as you are actively DOING SOMETHING each day.
Big hugs to you chikkie - it is a biggie to come to terms with I'll not deny it, but once you've squared it with yourself it really is very positive xxx