June bugs 2012! 6x Boys 12x Girls 8x Team Yellow :)

[Gemini85]

Thanks for the support, you guys are the best!
Its hard finding someone to talk to, my OH is ex services, the result being that he is very much a "put up or shut up" type, he doesnt mean it in a horrible way, but he is the sort of person that doesnt get why you are telling him things if you arent looking for an answer...if that makes sense!
And whoever else i mention it to, well, i suppose i just feel like i must sound whiney and ungrateful!
There are 2 others preggers in the office, and neither have had any problems, so its making me look very bad, plus they both live just down the road, not 42 miles away! lol x

 

[abic77]

OK, i feel like i need to have a massive whinge, so here goes.
I can barely walk from this SPD brought on by the fact im seriously double jointed. I look like a granny, and the physio says there isnt much that can be done, and that it will only get worse, Judging by how much movement is in my hips already, im probably likely to end up on crutches at least.
I feel constantly exhausted, i woke yesterday at 8.30, was back in bed by half 10, woke up at half 3, went to bed at half 10 last night and didnt wake up till this morning - and felt tired, how i am meant to be able to work full time 12 hours a day, when i need that much sleep, i dont know.
I had problems with my heart that became apparent, i was aware i had hole in the heart as a child and it mended itself, but as i was recommended to be on beta blockers in Jan, i am now being passed to consultant care for that.
I have already had one Kidney infection, since having pain for the last week passing water, i assumed it was another UTI, and was put on more antibiotics, turns out it isnt a UTI, its thrush that has spread to my urethra. WHICH, they said only an oral treatment will work for, which i cant take, so i have to suffer with feeling like my pee tube is falling out. Not only that, but ive given it to OH, so BDing is well out of the question, plus it hurts my pelvis too much, so wont be long before he gets a little annoyed (not that he would say)
I have to see an occupational therapist as requested by my work, as in total i have appointments for doctors (flu jab, urine/thrush infections etc) physio, heart specialist, smoking cessation (which this stress is making increasingly difficult) Midwife, Scans, all of this when ALL appointments are near my home, a total of 80mins drive when NOt in rush hour, away.
Add to that, sickness that comes and goes, and gets me sent home unpaid from work as the MEN dont like the sound of heaving, feeling like i could fall asleep evertime i go for an extremely painful pee, TBH, its left me feeling like im just not cut out for all this making me think that my body taking it so badly is an indicator that i wont be instinctively good with my child.

Sorry for the rant. Just dont have anyone else that can understand even the tiniest part of what its like! xxx

Dude...this sounds horrendous! I am so sorry that you're feeling this rubbish and really makes me think my headaches are just not even worth mentioning!
I don't know what to say to you other than to echo what the other girls have said about trying to stay positive and making sure you look after yourself and talking as much as you can to people you can trust etc around you.
I still don't see how someone can send you home for heaving, especially if you're not getting paid?
Is there anyone else you can talk to at work or the HR people about changing your responsibilities so you don't have to be in the office or whatever? When is your occ health session?

I really really hope that you feel better soon hun and that you get an easier ride too

As for your last statement about being no good at stuff...that's bollocks!! You will be an ace mummy!!!!

 

[Emzywemzy]

Gemini hun I totally, totally understand how you feel. I felt exactly like that in my last pregnancy, I felt like I was falling apart and I felt like I wasn't made to be pregnant as I had so many problems! I had really bad sickness and kept peeing myself when I was sick, I kept getting UTIs and the antibiotics kept giving me thrush. I also had it spread to my urethra and it really friggin hurts. I also had horrendous SPD and sciatica so can totally sympathise. I felt really down and depressed in the first tri, I just felt awful. BUT I did start feeling a bit better in the 2nd tri. Not bang on 13 weeks or anything, but probably around 17/18/19 weeks or something, when I started feeling baby move around and got a little bump and it all made it seem worth while. My SPD didn't start until 20 something weeks (the sciatica and groin pain started early on but turned into spd) but even then, I just felt sort of more 'level' and was able to deal with it. I was a bit of a hormonal wreck in my first tri and felt just as you have described. You will start to feel a bit better soon and just remember, it's really hard on your body making and carrying a baby!!

As for me, I've been feeling a little down because of all the sickness. I've been stuck in the house most of the time as I have been so sick and haven't been working and stuff, so I've been feeling pretty lonely (even though I have Holly, but you can hardly have a heart to heart with a 15 month old). I remember feeling the same way at about this time last time and so I keep trying to remind myself that I will start to feel better soon and it's hormones making me feel a bit down. I've been feeling a little anxious as well, not really sure what about, but I'm pretty sure it's from staying in the house so much. So tomorrow, if I am not feeling too bad, I'm going to try to pop to town. I'm not going to eat before hand so if I'm sick it won't be loads like yesterday! I just need to give myself a kick up the arse!!

 

[9babiesgone]

Sorry to leave you all but I lost my baby. Good luck and healthy and happy 9 months to you all.

 

[Emzywemzy]

I'm so sorry 9babies, take care x

 

[Sunshine12]

Sorry to leave you all but I lost my baby. Good luck and healthy and happy 9 months to you all.

So sorry to hear that. xx

 

[harri]

So sorry 9babies!

 

[Gemini85]

And then something like that happens and it makes you see that it really isn't that bad.

I'm so so sorry for your loss. Please KIT and best of luck for the future xxx

 

[LittleBird]

I have rung antenatal today to tell them I was bought forward a week, so instead of my NT scan being 24 Nov it is now...

Tomorrow! at 9.40! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yay for an earlier scan! I hope it goes wonderfully!

So i just rang my hospital scanning department to query this and was told that because they are so busy right now that my name is in 'the system' and that it will probably be nearer 13 weeks or 13 & 1/2 weeks before im seen. I have to ring back on friday if i still have not received my card through about the date grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr I dont think i can possibly wait another 2 weeks to see my bubba. Plus i wanted to go public after my 12 week scan now that has to wait another week. Not a good start to my monday morning

Sorry about the delay in your scanning, TrAyBaby. That is very frustrating. Hopefully the rest of your Monday is going better.

Sorry for the rant. Just dont have anyone else that can understand even the tiniest part of what its like! xxx

Gemini, It sounds like the pregnancy is a nightmare for you at this point. I don't have half the stuff to complain about, but there are times when I feel like I'm not going to be able to make it through the rest of the pregnancy. I don't feel good, ever. I have done this before, twice, so I know how things progress as time goes by, and I hope the 2nd tri. is better, as it has been in the past. But it really seems like a long process looking forward. I guess the only things I can say are 1) you should be feeling better during the 2nd tri. and that will probably have a big effect on other things, and 2) pregnancy is a short-term condition and once your baby is here, you'll forget about how horrible it was for you. I know it seems impossible, but somehow we forget everything bad that happened and only focus on the beautiful baby in our arms. Just focus on today and getting through it the best you can.

Sorry to leave you all but I lost my baby. Good luck and healthy and happy 9 months to you all.

I'm so sorry, 9babies.

 

[Gemini85]

Gemini hun I totally, totally understand how you feel. I felt exactly like that in my last pregnancy, I felt like I was falling apart and I felt like I wasn't made to be pregnant as I had so many problems! I had really bad sickness and kept peeing myself when I was sick, I kept getting UTIs and the antibiotics kept giving me thrush. I also had it spread to my urethra and it really friggin hurts. I also had horrendous SPD and sciatica so can totally sympathise. I felt really down and depressed in the first tri, I just felt awful. BUT I did start feeling a bit better in the 2nd tri. Not bang on 13 weeks or anything, but probably around 17/18/19 weeks or something, when I started feeling baby move around and got a little bump and it all made it seem worth while. My SPD didn't start until 20 something weeks (the sciatica and groin pain started early on but turned into spd) but even then, I just felt sort of more 'level' and was able to deal with it. I was a bit of a hormonal wreck in my first tri and felt just as you have described. You will start to feel a bit better soon and just remember, it's really hard on your body making and carrying a baby!!

As for me, I've been feeling a little down because of all the sickness. I've been stuck in the house most of the time as I have been so sick and haven't been working and stuff, so I've been feeling pretty lonely (even though I have Holly, but you can hardly have a heart to heart with a 15 month old). I remember feeling the same way at about this time last time and so I keep trying to remind myself that I will start to feel better soon and it's hormones making me feel a bit down. I've been feeling a little anxious as well, not really sure what about, but I'm pretty sure it's from staying in the house so much. So tomorrow, if I am not feeling too bad, I'm going to try to pop to town. I'm not going to eat before hand so if I'm sick it won't be loads like yesterday! I just need to give myself a kick up the arse!!

Thanks emzy, and others.
Nice to hear in not the only person that hasn't taken to it like a duck to water as they say! X

 

[RedRose19]

im so sorry 9babies

 

[LittleBird]

Since you guys were so kind to share commercials to get me all teary-eyed, here's one of my favorites of all time. The first time I saw it was when DS1 was an infant. So beautiful!

https://youtu.be/TSnMeiOPtLQ

 

[FirstBean]

Gemini so sorry your having a tough time as the other girls say feel free to have a moan on here we are here to listen to you and help if we can.
I am so sorry for your loss 9 babies.

 

[gemgem77]

9babies I am so sorry for your loss, I know there's nothing I can say to make you feel better so lots and lots of

Laura sorry your feeling so rubbish today, I completely agree with what the others have said and don't think your work are being at all supportive. I would be on the phone to HR for sure about being sent home unpaid for heaving. If they don't like it fine but if it's their choice to send you home you should be on full pay. Aand you will be a FAB mum! xx

 

[pink23]

Sorry for your loss 9bsbies. X
I've just had a nap and feel better xx

 

[abic77]

9babies...so so sorry about your loss. Take care and good luck with whatever the future holds.

 

[Emzywemzy]

awww little bird, that ad is lovely too!! Nothing lovelier than a sleeping baby Holly does that really cute sucking an imaginary dummy thing whilst she's asleep too, so so cute! I still just sit and watch her sleep sometimes, so peaceful and lovely

 

[cricket in VA]

So sorry, 9babies. There's not much we can say, but just know we're thinking about you!

Laura, how your body handles pregnancy is no reflection on your parenting abilities! And your bosses need to treat you better. For real.

 

[pink23]

What's everyone got for tea. We are having a korma for tea and I actually can't wait.
How's everyone doing with their Xmas shopping xx

 

[gemgem77]

Hi Pink, I have chilli tonight and am sooo excited about that!! I am at my happiest when I am eating and sleeping right now lol
I am going shopping to Canterbury with my mum on Saturday and so will hopefully get a few bits then, I actually haven't bought a single thing lol xx