Cassie10
WTT After Loss
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So since losing Brailynn in June after I quit bleeding from the loss my periods have been coming right on time every 23 days... except for this time.
I'm just a few days late but man it has really got me thinking! I've been telling myself all this time that I don't want to be pregnant again for a while. I know for some people it is easier to jump right back into TTC but for me the fear of this happening again was too much.
But I took a pregnancy test a few minutes ago (which is negative btw) and I caught myself kind of hoping it would be positive. I caught myself analyzing it like I used to...staring at it, holding it to the light, everything!
I don't know how to feel about this... I am a bit sad it was negative. But I don't really understand why. We've been super careful because I don't want to be pregnant right now. Or maybe I do? I dunno...
Has anyone else had an experience like this? I mean I def want to have children some day... I just wanted to wait until I was more stable and doing better with losing Brailynn.
I'm just a few days late but man it has really got me thinking! I've been telling myself all this time that I don't want to be pregnant again for a while. I know for some people it is easier to jump right back into TTC but for me the fear of this happening again was too much.
But I took a pregnancy test a few minutes ago (which is negative btw) and I caught myself kind of hoping it would be positive. I caught myself analyzing it like I used to...staring at it, holding it to the light, everything!
I don't know how to feel about this... I am a bit sad it was negative. But I don't really understand why. We've been super careful because I don't want to be pregnant right now. Or maybe I do? I dunno...
Has anyone else had an experience like this? I mean I def want to have children some day... I just wanted to wait until I was more stable and doing better with losing Brailynn.