Kind of down today

[chefamy1122]

So...... today my friend's mom had a pampered chef party (sorry mods if I should not have said the name of company-I don't want to break any rules!) and everything was going okay... my friend is pregnant and I am SO INCREDIBLY happy for her and her husband b/c they are great people and are going to be wonderful parents..anyway, another pregnant girl was there, and she had a handheld device that can listen to the baby's heartbeat, so the 2 of them took turns with finding and listening to their babies heartbeats... This is the first pregnancy for both, and I know how happy they are right now, but it was very hard for me not to completely lose it and start bawling. I feel like a horrible friend b/c even though I honestly am thrilled for my friend, I have this jealous feeling in me that I can't shake.
I just want to know when is it going to be MY turn?? I don't know when we are going to be able to try another IUI b/c of the money situation and our house flooding, so all I can do is just sit here and watch everybody else get pregnant and hope that one day it will happen.
Life is so damn unfair sometimes.

 

[maybebaby]

I'm sorry Amy... I hope you feel better tomorrow!!

 

[xXx Vamp xXx]

I'm sorry sweetheart. big big hugs I hope it happens soon xXx

 

[FJL]

What you're feeling is completely normal and you shouldn't feel bad about that.

I cannot be around pregnant people I know, I just can't. So for you to have gone there makes you very brave in my books.

The jealousy is normal, but at least you can be happy for others, I can't!!!

Infertility is hard enough to deal with and each day is a challenge. I find that I just start to be going ok then BAM someone else I know gets pregnant or has a baby and I then go back to square one. I feel gutted when I find such news out. Even though most of these people will be great parents, they're thrilled etc and all of that is great, I just don't want to know about it!

So a huge for you and please don't be hard on yourself about it.

 

[loopylew]

i find it dificult when people are pregnant around me which is constantly at the moment. I moved from one team to another and supervised preganant girls on both, one of my best friends was also pg a bit back so slowly im being surrounded by new born babies. As much as im happy for them it makes me feel that there is something wrong when others can have babies so quickly. I really hope your IVF works hun, you deserve it xx

 

[buffycat]

i think i might have bawled my eyes out to be honest - well done for not !

seriously though, i've been ttc for 16 months, and it does get so difficult.......

fingers crossed that ivf works though...

luv & hugs

 

[pixielou]

Sozyour feeling a bit down. Iknow I get days like that, I find it helps keeping busy though! One of my firends is pg at the moment and she had been trying for so long, so I'm really happy for her and i think when is it going to happen and I drive myself nuts somedays! X