thanks ladies,
torres, i have no swelling (a stranger commented on how wonderful my ankles look) lol, no protein in my urine, and my BP is okay, ive gotten 2 isolated high readings.. the feeling went away, im prety sure it was his foot or something, i know he is head down and his butt is halfway between my boobs and belly button, so im assuming it was a foot!
my feelings are really hurt today. i feel like im being sensitive but i just need to vent. Not sure if ive explained this, but basically i dont have any friends and hardly any girl relatives. I get real lonely sometimes. Anyway, my mom really wants to throw me a shower. I didnt really see the point, i have no friends to invite and there is about 9/10 ladies we could invite from the family. But she said its important to her and she wanted to do it, so whatever. I just feel like its embarassing. Everyone will notice that no friends are there or anything..
So today my mom tells me that she invited my aunt (whom i have always had a serious close relationship with....) and my aunt refused. First of all, she has not ONCE even acknowledged my pregnancy. When Sophia passed away, she didnt even come to the funeral. She told my mom she doesnt support me or my pregnancy and has no intention of coming to a baby shower or anything. And it just made me cry. I always really loved her.. and i just dont understand. Its not about the baby shower, i couldnt care less about one, its the fact that its just so hurtful. She loves my nephews to death, and sees them all the time. And now i know my son wont have that. Its not like its a huge deal but it made me sad. Maybe its becuase im not married? I have no idea.. and now i feel like this is going to cause a huge rift in the family, she is my moms sister and lives 10 minutes away , i already havent spoken to her son in 5 years and now i feel me and her will eventually have an argument about this entire thing.. becuase who the EFF is she to judge me on if i should be having a baby or not? i am an adult, she is not my mother, its not like its a burden to her...