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[JasmineFrame]

I have a doctors appointment today to talk about my crazy cycles after my D&C and talk about what we can do to help me conceive. I have been using my OPKS and last night I got a flashing smiley face which mean im in the peak fertitity so we BD last night I also ordered pre-seed and progesterone cream and a good thermometer to track my temps

 

[tcinks]

Keep us posted on how the doctors visit goes. And yay for getting a positive opk!

I'm trying to wait until friday to test. Should be 10 or 11 dpo. I haven't been crazy symptom spotting like I promised I wouldn't, but I've been having pregnancy dreams!! And the only time I've had pregnancy dreams in the past is when I've actually been pregnant!! Ugh. So now getting all worked up. Trying not to obsess over it...but it's getting hard. Friday needs to hurry up!!

 

[mrs.green2015]

Jasmine- the flashing smiley is high fertility. The solid smiley is peak.

Tc- can't wait to see your test!

Afm- I had a huge temp rise yesterday so I thought I ovulated but now it's pretty normal. Idk if I did or not. I guess we'll see tomorrow.

 

[JasmineFrame]

doctors appointment went well I have an ultra sound to make sure my uterus is good after my D&C

 

[mrs.green2015]

Jasmine- I'm sure you've said but I don't remember. What's going on with your cycles? And when was your d&c?

 

[MsH15]

Hi Ladies - Been out of it lately... We decided to wait on the specialist stuff for right now since it will ultimately break the bank for us... a lil discouraged So, no temping, no monitoring or checking.. just straight getting it in the old fashioned way.. lol *shrugs* at least not this cycle. May pick it all up again in a month or two. I think I am just going to focus on picking back up some of things I enjoy doing. I got a new camera for Christmas so I am going to get back into my photography a lil here and there, finishing up a crochet blanket I started before Christmas (almost done), still working out, cleaning out closets and getting rid of unnecessary clutter, studying for a certification test I need to take for work, and even thinking about picking up my flute again and getting some lessons... Just keeping myself busy with positive things to keep my mind off of wanting a baby. Maybe being distracted will help it happen on it's own *shrugs* who knows...

Hope you ladies are all doing well... Haven't been posting but I have been lurking to check on you all. XoXo Mel

**Side note** I breed Rottweilers and just had a litter in September. My two mated today... So the count down begins to puppies again... If only it were that easy for me.. LOL But that is just another positive thing to keep me busy and get my kinda baby fix

 

[MsH15]

How's everyone doing? It's been quite these last few days!

CD7 here do nothing exciting going on. Have a kidney infection (they think) after they ruled out an ectopic with a pregnancy test (like I hadn't already done one)
Feeling pretty miserable about the whole baby thing at the moment

Km I'm so with you.... Not giving up just a lil discouraged, frustrated, and impatient... It will pass, but here now just the same.

 

[JasmineFrame]

Jasmine- I'm sure you've said but I don't remember. What's going on with your cycles? And when was your d&c?

I had my D&C in August and my cycles were 28 days prior to the D&C now they are 34-35 days than last cycle it was 30 days. I started using OPKs again and im still ovulating around when I would for a 28 day cycle. My doctor wants to make sure my uterus lining is ok

 

[mrs.green2015]

So sorry jasmine. It's like it never ends does it?

 

[tcinks]

Girls I'm going crazy! Tested today with a FRER and I know it's still early but I'm so sad now. It's been almost 8 months since Selah and I thought I'd be well into another pregnancy by now.

I don't know if I told you all this, but DH and I took foster parenting class last summer. We had always planned to foster and adopt, even before our losses, but now I want to even more. We said we would TTC for a few months and if nothing happened, we would really focus on fostering for awhile. Well...I'm ready now (if I'm not pregnant this cycle) but DH isn't. He wants to keep trying. Of course, he's not the one going through all the hormones and disappointment every month seeing those and having AF show up. Ugh. I just want children in our home. It was never supposed to be this big empty house for so long.

I could be getting all worked up for nothing, I know there's still hope for this cycle. Any of you have better luck with testing later in the day rather than first thing in the morning? I've read a lot of women do...although all my other positive tests always came in the morning. :/ Why is having a baby so hard for some of us and so easy for others

 

[Aayla]

I wish I could answer that. I don't know why. I wish I knew why it was so easy for some and hard for others.

We looked at adoption as well. We weren't allowed to pursue it while TTC. And once we were done TTC we had mandatory counselling to attend to in order to deal with the grief of losing the potential bio child. and then we were told that even if we did all that and passed our homestudy that we would still likely be looked over because we rent a small apt and don't make a lot of money.

I always wanted to adopt. Even before i knew about my fertility issues. My dad and aunt are adopted and my dad (technically my step dad) adopted me and my sis after he married our mom. It's in our family. But nope that dream is gone.

Our only hope for kids is to get pregnant. Our plan is to go all the way through IVF if we need to. but fx we don't have to.

 

[MsH15]

Oh Tc I'm so sorry your feeling blue. I can def relate, especially lately. I often ask myself the same thing: Why so hard for some us and cake for others? And why do women who don't even want to be mothers blink and get pregnant and women who would give their right arm to be mother's have so many trials and tribulations? But I suppose that is just part of nature. <-- No comfort at all, I know... but tbh, I try to believe and remind myself that some of our journey's are more difficult to prepare us for something much bigger, much greater than we could even imagine right now in this moment. I honestly believe that all of us have the natural Mother gene in us and in some way our passion for children will be a gift to the world in some form at some time. Tc You will be a fantastic mother to any child who is brought into your world. I saw Aayla mention they were not able to pursue adoption while ttc, is that true for all situations? And does that apply to fostering as well? because if not why not ntnp and go from there while fostering? that will satisfy both you and DH's needs and wants, right?

 

[c beary83]

Aww. I'm sorry tinks

I got bfn today too - ignore the ticker I'm either 9/10 dpo so feeling out.

Fostering sounds like a great idea!

 

[mrs.green2015]

Tc- I think we're all feeling similar lately. I'm so so so sorry. I really hope it turns into a bfp. What dpo are you?

I got AF this morning... After a 23 day cycle. And although FF says j ovulated I just don't think I did.

 

[MsH15]

MrsG - So sorry love. I know it's so frustrating. Hang in there girly

 

[kmpreston]

We are all definitely feeling blue at the moment

Update on me: I have kidney stones

The infection has gone which is fortunate as I am going to ovulate in the next 6 days and plan to have sex on all of them!

 

[Aayla]

MrsG....I am inclined to agree with you. If you did ovulate that is an impossibly short LP. Are you going to go to the doc to discuss fetility meds? Maybe get them to do a progesterone test this cycle. They usually do it on cd21 as a start to see if you are ovulating. I had a number of 12 on my first test. Low but it meant I ovulated. The next month I did opk's and it showed I O on cd17. So I changed the test day to 7dpo (which is what it is supposed to be). But if you don't know for sure you start with cd21 and go from there. If your number is under 10 then it means you didn't O.

Afm: I couldn't test opk yesterday as I ran out of tests and couldn't get to a store. So irritating. Tested today and it was negative. So I think i missed seeing the surge. We have been doing it everyday so I know we didn't miss it in that sense. But I was using them so I could try and pin point ovulation as I couldn't temp this month.
I have ewcm on cd 18 but I am not sure. I thought I saw a little when I went to the bathroom but I have a hard time really checking. Amd what I saw wasn't enough to confirm. I put it on my chart though.
I have been really crampy. If I didn't know my schedule I would think I was getting af.

 

[Aayla]

I am in the tww now. End of 2dpo as I write this. Feel very off today. Like my world somehow titled but I have no idea what caused it. I feel like a shift happened or is happening but I can't pin point what it is. So frustrating. I hate this blah off feeling.

 

[mrs.green2015]

Aayla- looks like you have a good chance this month! When are you planning to test?

 

[Aayla]

I would like to hold out until af is late. I always spot 1-2 days prior so if that doesn't happen then I will test. But I have also said that if I get different symptoms then I may test early. Af is due Feb 14.

Oh but there is a part of me that wants to start at 10dpo.