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[Mom15]

So sorry loves! Hugs...hoping next cycle is the one. I can't shake this feeling that I will conceive right away, so I know I will be disappointed if not.

Welcome cowgirl and so sorry for your loss! I'm glad to hear you are ready again. This is a group of really nice ladies Hoping you will get your bfp soon. Where are you at in your cycle. And I think we all have fears having had recent losses, so you are not alone!

Tmi, but I have soooo much ewcm. Usually it just hangs out by my cervix and I have to check for it, but this is unreal. I'm starting to have to go to the bathroom so it doesn't end up in my panties.
Would you guys say the min hold for an opk is 2h? I forgot and went to pee after I hadn't gone for 4h. Grrr.

 

[CowgirlBaby]

@Mom15

I appreciate that i know this time at least I'm living in a place that is mold free, so I won't get really sick again and miscarry, I also worry because of my spinal injury a year ago. I have nagging fears that something will go wrong. But I just finished my visit from AF two days again, so now to start charting again. My better half is super excited to try again. I have my reservations but I'm ready to get back into it. Even with reservations. My best friend just told me she thinks she might be pregnant. So that made it harder, hence why I came back here. It's nice to have an awesome group of ladies I can turn to who understand

 

[karoolia]

Hi Cowgirl!

I'm so sorry about your loss. That must have been so terrible to get sick and miscarry. I can't imagine how you must have felt. I'm glad you are in a mold free house now and are ready to try again.

Like Mom15 said, the worry and reservation is normal. I feel it. I should be ovulating any day now (assuming this is a normal cycle) and I am so excited to try again, but also terrified. I agree that these boards really do help. It is nice to have people who understand. I hope being here helps you!

Mom15 - I have no idea what the best hold for opks is. I was wondering that myself actually. I had to come in to work today and am holding until I get home so I can start opks. I think I'll be around a 4 hour by then, but I don't really know if that's necessary?

 

[CowgirlBaby]

Hi Cowgirl!

I'm so sorry about your loss. That must have been so terrible to get sick and miscarry. I can't imagine how you must have felt. I'm glad you are in a mold free house now and are ready to try again.

Like Mom15 said, the worry and reservation is normal. I feel it. I should be ovulating any day now (assuming this is a normal cycle) and I am so excited to try again, but also terrified. I agree that these boards really do help. It is nice to have people who understand. I hope being here helps you!

Mom15 - I have no idea what the best hold for opks is. I was wondering that myself actually. I had to come in to work today and am holding until I get home so I can start opks. I think I'll be around a 4 hour by then, but I don't really know if that's necessary?

Thanks hun It was a horrifying experience, they said they were going to put me on antibiotics and I said I was 10 weeks pregnant, and to be careful about antibiotics and they did an ultrasound and said there was no heartbeat. It was like a bombshell had hit...

on the lighter side being here has already helped me lots. My DH and I have officially come up with names like definitive first and middle for each gender. So that helps me feel better, and you're right, it's easier knowing there are people that understand. My friends just don't understand. They say to just try again and suck it up and get over it, but I can't its not that easy. But take it a day at a time on the upside my little business is going well. ^_^ can't wait to bring an itty bitty into the world though.

 

[Mom15]

That sounds horrible cowgirl. I'm sorry that you had to go through this. After the miscarriage I realized that I always new how terrible it is to misscarry but going through it is ten times worse.

Opk was negative, BUT half the hold and twice the fluids as yesterday and day before, so it may have just been more diluted. We'll see what tomorrow brings. Temp should go up soon if I truly did O.

 

[Mom15]

Karoolia - I think I've read 2h with very little fluids is enough and that fmu is not the best to use. I get my surge around 10-1p I have learnt so I usually test with smu.

 

[karoolia]

Ya, I generally test in the afternoon. Not that I have much experience, but that has seemed to be a good time. It was negative today. Not surprised, I usually o around CD 15-17, but figured I would start testing now incase this cycle was still off.

cowgirl that truly sounds like a terrible experience. I was 10 weeks as well and was told baby had stopped at 8. It's terrible to stare at a silent screen. I really hope we all have better experiences next time.

 

[ricschick]

Welcome cowgirl sorry for your loss how awful!! Best of luck this cycle! X

 

[karoolia]

I miss the days before miscarriage where I wasn't concerned about all things fertility. I am currently waiting for ovulation, which likely won't happen until Friday at the earliest, but I'm already worried it won't happen. Absolutely ridiculous to be worrying about that on CD11, but here I am all the same.

 

[loves_cookies]

I miss the days before miscarriage where I wasn't concerned about all things fertility. I am currently waiting for ovulation, which likely won't happen until Friday at the earliest, but I'm already worried it won't happen. Absolutely ridiculous to be worrying about that on CD11, but here I am all the same.

Karoolia, I know what you mean. I'm already worried that we won't be successful this cycle I'm only on CD1!

Welcome Cowgirl. I'm sorry for your loss and that you find yourself here.

 

[CowgirlBaby]

Thanks guys, I know things will get better now that I am here. I feel better. It makes today easier to deal with too. Today is my god son's 2nd birthday and his mom is having a lot of mental health issues and has blamed me for everything and walked out of my life, so I can't see my god son anymore.

 

[ricschick]

Oh that's awful hopefully once she is well again she will let you see your godson!!
Me too! I took getting pregnant for granted but I won't anymore!!! I've opened a test thread in the gallery if you guys want to go and look. Don't mind if you don't tho. Xx

 

[Mom15]

I think yesterday's opk was just too diluted. Today's I think is positive, but I haven't looked at it compared to the others as I was watching my nieces all day and so i just poas and put it away, but I could tell it looked dark. I have never had that many dark opks. Went for another hCG draw tonight. Please, please, please be negative! I will probably hear from them in the morning. I'll update when I get the results. I hope I will o tomorrow or Wednesday. The previous two cycles I had about 5/6 days of ewcm. Of course it could be different now.

 

[ricschick]

Fx mom15!!!!

 

[ricschick]

Pretty sure af is here 🙄 Probably for the best I S'pose. Still feel bummed tho. I should have been 18 weeks as a stupid email keeps updating me which ive unsubscribe do too. 😡

 

[karoolia]

I'm sorry ricschick I just found your test gallery post. I was hoping your cycle was just off and you were just getting implantation bleeding. I did feel some peace in getting af and starting fresh, hopefully you'll feel the same. I know it sucks though.

I deleted all my apps and emails that were tracking my pregnancy, I just couldn't handle the updates. I can't seem to forget though. I should be 17 weeks. It feels so weird to think I should be 17 weeks and yet here I am waiting to ovulate hoping for a spring/summer 2018 baby when it should have been a November 2017 baby

 

[ricschick]

I no it bloody sucks doesn't it!!!
Yeah your right tho best to start off with a clean slate! Going to eat better and I just bought some evening primrose tablets which I think are meant to help with cm. xx

 

[loves_cookies]

Sorry af is here ricschick. It's gutting isn't it even when you're expecting it.

I unsubscribed/deleted everything the day after I found out I think. I still know I would have been 20 weeks, should have been finding out if it was a boy or girl this week not having af! I had quite a long cry last night to my husband about how unfair it was that we miscarried and that af had showed which means another month has passed. That it means my daughter will be at least 5 1/2 before we have another. 5 years 1 month was a bigger gap than I wanted and now its going to be almost 6 months bigger at least. I know people have bigger gaps and it's fine and Amelie will never know different. But it just not what I imagined when we started out. We were originally planning a 2-3 year gap but Amelie's problems meant we weren't ready, so it became 3-4, then we moved and couldnt afford it. After that I got a new job so we couldn't try or I wouldn't have qualified for occupational maternity pay and now we're here and we can't change it now. My husband tries to comfort me but i get the impression that we doesn't really understand why I'm upset? That we can try again this month and we always knew that miscarriage was a possibility. He just says that it's in the past and we can't change it.

 

[ricschick]

Thank you cookies. Sorry you've been upset! I think it's hard for them to understand as it doesn't physically happen to them and I think men are more literal about things. My dh thinks it was meant to be as there was a reason for it not developing,and he explained it as he worries about me rather than what's actually happening, obviously they feel disappointment but they can't really understand how we feel as long as their there to look after us. Xx

 

[Mom15]

Let me join you guys on the "boat of bad day". Got my hCG back and it is still at 60 😔