Hey Ladies,
Just thought i would let you all in on an update. I realize how much we all missed having news from sunni and how we wondered so much how she was. So i thought i would update you all from time to time.
I am healing, and feeling more positive about life. I can talk about my baby with happiness instead of tears. Dont get me wrong, i still hurt and wish I had my baby. But i realized that i should cherish the moments i did have instead of mourning moments I never had. OH and I made a frame of the two pieces of clothing we bought (a onsie saying my daddy is a rockstar and little botties written my 1st christmas on them) with his scans and a peom that we loved.
My angel Baby
to the baby I carried
But never seen your eyes
Or tell you how much we loved you
Or ever hear your cries
You will never be forgotten
The excitement we had for you coming
When we realized we d never hold you
The feeling we had was numbing
Our angel baby is who you are
Our angel baby you ll always be
Your loving memory will live in our hearts
So you will always be right here wiht me
This homage that we dedicated to our angel brings me peace. And i am happy to have known the love that i did. Its helps a llot beause OH has decided to impliment condoms AND Birth control so its offical that i am no longer ttc.
Cherishing the angel i now have makes this reality somewhat easier.
As for physically healing doesnt seem to be going as well (maybe because i was a little stupid...) I stopped bleeding sunday and was happy. I thought to get rid of this baby belly that id bike to work. I didnt get very far before i was throwing up.
Guess my body was telling me i wasnt ready. And now im bleeding heavily again with major cramps and huge back ache.
Also, i was thinking I would get a follow up from my dr, but i called my clinic monday to ask when i would see my dr and they told me they dont do follow ups on these procedures..weird...
Anyways, i am so happy to see all of you in good spirits.
Yum ( chin up love, i know sometimes it gets hard but it WILL happen, and im sending u lots of love)
Trying, same goes to you love!!!
Love you all, and see u in the near future. xxxx