I am ok just very tired. I never got to nap yesterday for various reasons so I think today needs to be a very very lazy day.
I am getting upset with DH. He doesn't get up with her at night and half the time doesn't wake up when she cries but will kind of roll over and groan. I addressed it in a moment of hormonal sleepiness after she first came home cause I thought he was annoyed/mad and he's not and told me not to think anything of it cause he is f awake and doesn't know he is doing if but it still bothers and annoys me! He does not get up with her or take care of her much at all- partially cause I am exclusively breast feeding so he can't do much with that. By the time he gets home from work she is in a phase where she wants Mama and to eat really close together so even then it's usually me with her. If I ask or tell him to take her he will if just doesn't happen much. I think he would probably like more time with her, in his defense, if just isn't happening right now. I a afraid to let him/ask him to take her at night between nursing because he sleeps really soundly and doesn't hear/respond to her. I am worried if he would fall asleep holding her (which I a pretty sure he would) that he'd drop her or something would happen and he wouldn't wake up and something bad would happen to her. I fall asleep with her on my chest sometimes on the couch but I a really on tune with her and hear her/respond so I feel like it is safer. I try not to sleep with her at all, even on the couch, but I can't help it sometimes as I am so tired.
Sorry that was so long. I needed to vent!