HI all, just wanted to jump in for an update(below). Thank you all SO much for your constant encouragement and positivity...it truly means a LOT to me. I appreciate you all sooooo much for your kindness and openness, and patience for people like me (lol). But seriously, thank you to ALL of you.
Sweetz - PAL/TTCAL means Pregnant/Pregnancy After Loss and TTC After LOss (I believe). Sorry to hear about your car craziness, I hope everything gets sorted out soon! How frustrating.
Never- I am absolutely amazed at how graceful, positive, and faithful you have been through all of this. I am sorry to hear about the twin but my heart is bursting with joy for your LO who is PERFECT and HEALTHY.

You are a constant inspiration for us all and I appreciate you more than you can know!!
LP and Lux- I'm so sorry to hear about the chemicals.

Up until this afternoon (will write more on that below) I was convinced I was having one as well and just felt...well, horribly depressed, low, sorry for myself, angry, etc. I know how tough it is to lose, even after a short time, so I'm sending all my

to you both right now. I applaud you for your continuous positivity and hopefulness towards the future...I know it will be rewarded with chubby bouncing babies in no time. xoxox
Well my UPDATE is that: after reading all day about chemicals/faint HPTs, I came across a post by one woman who claimed that afternoon is actually WAY better than FMU/2MU. I was so convinced I was having a chemical that I figured I didn't have anything to lose, so I went for my last FRER after a 2-3 hour hold (wasnt trying, was just working and not drinking much).
Much to my amazement, the line came up within 1 minute and was SIGNIFICANTLY darker than this morning's test. Amazing! Afternoon pee is the way to go! I also took a Digi that said "Pregnant". I am absolutely ELATED.
Pic shows 13dpo (FMU), 14dpo (FMU), 14dpo (afternoon) - keep in mind the top two were even fainter before they dried

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Of course, this doesn't mean that this pregnancy is going to be successful or not (Betas will give us a better idea of that) but it DOES mean that my levels are probably going up at least somewhat

Sooooo....in other words, I can relax a little, enjoy this good news, have a more positive weekend, and hope for more good news on Monday.
Now *cough* back to work...clearly it's been a VERY productive day *rolls eyes at self*.
I think I will make a ticker for myself now

you all!!