I'm probably going to be giving up nursing soon. She just is never satisfied from me alone and whatever hormones are released during nursing are making my PPD even worse. I never feel like myself when she's nursing. It's an awful, awful feeling.
I'm glad she's been getting some breast milk but I can't keep this up. I'm starting to turn to the FF more and more. Even with the washing and sterilizing I find it less stressful. I feel more in control and I give her so many cuddles and kisses the whole time. I also love watching DH feed her and DS loves to help hold the bottle. I'm not going to quit BF just yet and I don't want to quit "cold turkey" either so she'll still be getting more breast milk for the time being.
I'm just thankful that FF is an option. Can't imagine what I would have done back in the day before formula.