MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[Hopeful2014]

@ProfWife Yay for improvements with your back! I hope it helps reduce utis as well. It makes me so hopeful for you! It does feel like a fresh start.

@momwithbabies I've heard that endometriosis pain/symptoms can come and go over time. Your mom might have been misdiagnosed. Did you tell your doctor that she was diagnosed with diverticulitis? If so, the doctor might have jumped to that idea instead of thinking of endometriosis. I don't have a close enough relationship with the women in my family to talk about any body issues, although I sometimes wish that we could. (At least general information/issues that they had). I know that af is painful for you. Was May much different than all/most cycles or does it happen more frequently than not?



If I haven't said it enough lately, I'm so glad to be able to talk to you all! It's so comforting to have a place to share and help each other.

 

[ClandestineTX]

Lazy! FX for you, ma'am!!!

Clandestine: I believe you are right. It must have been a chemical... I know it was pink so not an evap. Thanks for your knowledge

Any time! I just get so frustrated when I see people "judge" test brands or line intensities or duration. I am glad that at least you know you can get one and FX the next one is yours forever!

@Clandestine, the visiting professorship is just under an hour from my home, but I am only being asked to come in MWF, which is great considering it's "full time." I'll be staying home with my little girl on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Here you can "walk" through graduation even if you haven't defended yet (but intend to shortly thereafter) you just can't get a diploma .

Awesome setup for your professorship! We only have one graduation per year, and I'd rather walk next year in May at this point - it would have felt weird to go to commencement and know I wasn't done yet.

Yes prowife I did think I'm a mummy to 5 ! Lol and I've left them already -they are 40 minutes away in a Petri dish. I'm such a bad mum! lol xx

You are fabulous! I will keep my FX for you.

Doc found stage 2 endometriosis. He believes he vaporized it all and put a preventative gel to lower the rate of recurrence. This might be exactly what was needed to open the way for us to get pregnant. Looking forward to this surgery resetting the clock so we can have our miracle baby.

Wooowhooo! for almost paying off your house! and HUGE YAY for getting the endo out of there! I am so optimistic for you!

If I haven't said it enough lately, I'm so glad to be able to talk to you all! It's so comforting to have a place to share and help each other.

I second all of this ^^^ and huge Thank You for keeping this going all this time! Also - for your "where to buy tests?" question... by FAR... OSOM hCG combo tests are the most sensitive that I have used. Wondfo are second to them. Both are sold on Amazon. I have used a variety of other ICs and they are less consistent and not as sensitive. Down side to highly sensitive tests (at least if you test super early) is CP detection. In my case, I need/ want to know. There's also nothing that says you must test early because you have a sensitive test, if you don't want to.

AFM... current tests I will put in spoiler at the end of this post, because I get on here so inconsistently that I always have a LONG reply to catch up with everyone! I am not terribly optimistic right now - is 14 DPO and only positives are on super-sensitive tests. New cycle due to start tomorrow, so we will just see how this goes. I do have a follow-up with my doc regarding the crazy low estrogen on the saliva test report this Thursday - I haven't mentioned these tests to her yet - just seems better to wait until I'm there in person.

Spoiler

Left tests are FMU, right side are late afternoon/ early evening - ladies on my journal have assured me it's not terribly uncommon to have darker tests later in the day than FMU... so just waiting. But please remember my CP history and do not get too excited about this just yet.

 

[ProfWife]

Clandestine - Praying for you. (I've heard the same of some women having higher #s of positives and darker lines in the afternoon...my guess is metabolism plays a role in that). I hope that all you find out on Thursday is that you're on your way to a sticky little bean!

 

[pathos]

Clandestine, Oh I am trying hard not to hit dancing, jumping emoticons right now. I hope "you know who she is" does not come today. I tortured myself with ics until my bfp was confirmed, and in the end i concluded that the darkness or the lightness of the color indicated only the hcg concentration of the given pee at that time. FX FX FX.

Profwife, I am sorry to hear that you had pain, I truly hope your reward for all the emotional and physical toll of TTC is just around the corner.

Lazy, when is your test date?

 

[nikkilucky77]

Clandestine: I am really really hoping this is it! I would love to see that bfp next to your name

Hopeful: I agree! I really appreciate you ladies. Even though I was gone for awhile, I thought of you all often. And when I got my positive, you ladies were the first I asked after my hubby...that is a pretty high ranking I'd say . I look forward to everyone getting their bfp soon!!

 

[Lazydaisys]

Hi, I managed to get a day 5 transfer with one grade one blastocyst. I was lucky to get three others frozen. My official test date is in one weeks time. I'm in the process of analysing every twinge non twinge, preparing my self for positive or negative outcome and generally driving myself mad, so keeping myself busy.

Hope everybody is ok. Thanks for you support also xxxx

 

[Hopeful2014]

@ClandestineTX I REALLY hope this is it! I'm sorry that you've had multiple CPs and that you have to hold back your excitement for now. It's like what we talked about; we each have a goal point to reach before we can relax. I hope you reach yours very soon, that af stays away, and that you are discussing your BFP at your next appointment. Fingers crossed!!

@nikkilucky77 I'm glad you're back. I hope we all get BFPs soon!

@Lazydaisys We're all so hopeful for you. Just think of all the positive vibes and wishes you are getting. I'm excited for test day. Fingers crossed!

 

[ClandestineTX]

Thanks everyone. I was updating my chart this morning and Hubster came into my office, basically asking when he was allowed to be excited because this morning's test was definitely darker than both of the ones from yesterday. I think if Doc uses the P-word, then we can get excited. I have just seen so many vanish and think I keep testing twice a day, expecting it to vanish and then I'm surprised/ confused when it's darker and sit here in emotional neutral, not sure what to make of it. So we continue to wait. 30 hours until appointment with Doc, but who's counting?

 

[ClandestineTX]

Hi, I managed to get a day 5 transfer with one grade one blastocyst. I was lucky to get three others frozen. My official test date is in one weeks time. I'm in the process of analysing every twinge non twinge, preparing my self for positive or negative outcome and generally driving myself mad, so keeping myself busy.

Hope everybody is ok. Thanks for you support also xxxx

I don't know anything about grading of blastocysts, but this sounds super good - so I will just keep my FX for you!

 

[newbie2013]

Waiting for your next update clandestine!

Lazy, counting the days with you sweetie. Thinking about you. Longest tww ever, right?

I found my opks again... will start on Saturday hopefully... if I remember! New teacher orientation starts tomorrow - busy but exciting!!

 

[Lazydaisys]

Clandestine I hope you get the p word. It looks like the p word to me. X

 

[ClandestineTX]

So far, no spotting - so that's the best news I think I'm going to get today. This morning's test is definitely the darkest so far, but I'm still really apprehensive about using the P-word, so we will just say I have a test line on my hpts and will wait for Doc to advise how optimistic we should be with my estradiol level taken into account.

 

[ProfWife]

Clandestine - I'm more excited to find out about the progesterone levels ;-) Can't wait to see your update tomorrow!

Lazy! 4 total! That's great! Praying first one takes so you'll have less stress for the future! So exciting!


Looks like the good news train is finally lining up around here! I knew it would be only a matter of time! Hoping everyone gets those double lines soon! :-D You ladies are all awesome! Don't know what I'd do without you!

 

[ClandestineTX]

I'm on a 100 mg per day progesterone supplement - I'm supposed to stay on it through 16 DPO or longer if I have a BFP. And those levels have been tested twice on the meds and have been great. I had a 28-day saliva profile done last cycle and my estradiol (E2) levels were "deficient" across the entire cycle. I got those results the day I got my +OPK and as a result was certain if I got a BFP this cycle, it would be another chemical. And now it's 15 DPO, I've had a line (no matter how faint) since 10 DPO and it just keeps getting darker and I am still really apprehensive.

 

[ProfWife]

Once you've had a chemical (or a few), you'll probably be skeptical or apprehensive until a doctor confirms on ultrasound...and even then you probably won't have it really sink in for a while (or a few appointments) afterwards.

I'm on a similar supplement for the lp, too. I'm glad yours are working as they should. I can't wait to hear what the doc has to say!

 

[ClandestineTX]

I've been dreading the appointment since she sent me those results a little more than two weeks ago. I am definitely not processing this at all - I'm just numb, which is sad. I should be excited by at least the possibility of this being a *real* pregnancy, but I'm not at all.

 

[kksy9b]

Sending lots of prayers and good thoughts your way Clande!

 

[ProfWife]

It's self-preservation. You don't want to feel let down or hurt by the chance that something might go wrong. I think anyone who has miscarried (chemical or later) would feel the same.

Hang in there.

 

[athena87]

Clandestine those look positive to me. How many chemicals have you had? I just wondered because a friend of mine has had 5 and tested positive for the mthfr mutation and they can put you on a special prenatal that will help with it.

 

[newbie2013]

Clande, can yoy post you updated photos of your tests?

Ditto on what the ladies posted earlier, you guys are my ttc lifeline. Never thought I'd be on this journey so long but I am so grateful that I have your support along the wait.

Let's hope that good luck train slows long enough to allow several patient passengers on board!