MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[ClandestineTX]

I had hCG and progesterone drawn on Thursday, but hCG, progesterone and estradiol drawn yesterday - so it was definitely yesterday's labs that came back first. I usually get them next day - think with the holiday that the one from last Thursday may have gotten lost or something (or on someone's desk or inbox).

At the absolute most - there's a possible 2-day error in my ovulation estimate. It's definitely been really low all along, but as long as the doubling was normal - there was some shred of hope. I am really OK. I do a lot of research, as I am sure you've all noticed. There are thresholds for specific DPO and statistics for viability - I actually won't share them publicly, but know I had 0% viability numbers on those specific days all along (hence the lack of ticker or changing my status from NTNP#1). I had good, solid, science-based reasons for believing this was a long shot - and Doc even agreed from the beginning this was a "hope" for us. I am ready to be on to the next cycle, legitimately.

 

[ProfWife]

I can totally understand. Being one of the researchy types myself...I know how that can both deflate and give you some assurance as to what is happening.

Even still, virtual hugs to you.


AFM - Met with the surgeon today for my post-op and plan.

Stage 2 (which I already knew). Both tubes involved plus the cul-de-sac (Pouch of Douglas). All adhesions and implants removed. Fluid drained/washed. My DHEAS he wants down under 200, nearer to 100 if possible. So, I'm going on a corticosteroid when CD1 comes around (if it comes around). That's all. Doc seems fairly certain that those two things are all we need to finally fall pregnant. His guess, 3-4 months. After that, we're cleared to start Letrozole/Ovidrel if we still aren't pregnant. So, we're going to wait until January and give it the college try. Doc said we could try to "time" it...or just go with what works for us. He really seems to think that the surgery was the key.

So, we'll see what happens. 10dpo today. Negatives (not surprising - too early). I'll test over the weekend.

 

[momwithbabies]

Clandestine: I was thinking about you this weekend because we visited Hurricane Harbor again! We had so much fun, but my legs were so sore from all of the walking. I hated to hear the news about this cycle. Sending hugs to you.

ProfWife: That's comforting to hear him say that the surgery was key! 3-4 mos. is an awesome timetable! I'm hoping this cycle brings your BFP.

AFM...CD 34 and no AF, but I've felt PMS junk for the last week!!! At least she didn't show up at the waterpark I've had diarrhea for the past two days, but I'm thinking it was something I ate on our trip. I ate quite a few things that aren't the healthiest, lol! I just wish the diarrhea would go away!

Teaching + diarrhea = Running out of the classroom

P.S. AF needs to show up! I only had sex once this cycle!! I am not getting my hopes up!!! I am not getting my hopes up!!!

 

[ProfWife]

One is all it takes! Are you officially late at this point or a few days away?

I'm so blessed - the faculty restroom is directly across from my classroom. One of the other things my doc found was that an endometrial implant/adhesion had glued my colon into a zig-zag pattern instead of the normal arrangement. It explains what we thought was IBS...it was that. The sad thing is that, without the extra bend, since surgery my body hasn't been...umm...holding on to much. The doc said that was normal and it would go away about 6 weeks post op (I'm half way there) once everything figured out how to process normally. On the bright side, all IBS symptoms should be taken care of! :-D

 

[Hopeful2014]

@ProfWife I know that the two year mark is approaching, but remember it's almost like a fresh start after your surgery. I really feel like that will make a big difference! I can't wait until you get your BFP! I hope it's this month, but I'm certain it will be soon!

@ClandestineTX I'm very sorry to hear this. I wish it was different. I know that it will happen for you and I feel like it will be very soon. Your doctor and you will make an excellent plan.

@momwithbabies I had one very uncomfortable experience when teaching. I still remember it. It was 1st period and we were reading something about the Salem Witch Trials. I still remember the student who was reading and how terrible I felt! There was only 5-10 minutes of class left. 2nd period was my planning period so I was VERY happy to get them out of the class! I hope you feel better soon.

 

[ClandestineTX]

@ProfWife: Sounds like such good news for you! I agree 3-4 months timetable is AWESOME! I think I agree with Hopeful - you and I are both approaching the 2-year mark, but both of us with new circumstances that should give us both renewed optimism.

@momwithbabies: Well done on no AF at the waterpark! I sometimes get GI issues right before a cycle resets and pre-O from hormones - either way, hope your issues clear up soon!

 

[nikkilucky77]

Clandestine: Dang it. I was really hoping for you! I am thinking of you! I am very impressed with your motivation for next cycle. Good for you!

Prowife: I am glad to hear surgery was good! And I tested yesterday at 9dpo and it was negative too. Why do we test so early??

Momwithbabies: When are you testing??

Atm I am 10dpo, roughly, and my bbs are soooo sore, nips and all. I also have had the worst acne the last two days and I seldom ever break out. Trying not to read into anything since I know they are PMS symptoms as well. Sigh.

Hope everyone is having a good week!!!

 

[momwithbabies]

ProfWife: That's great about possibly no more IBS for you! It is no fun! And I wonder if my endo attached to the part of my colon that hurts at times during AF. If I even have endo, I should say.

Hopeful: That sounds like me! I hate that feeling!

Clandestine: Thank you!

I knew when I typed my last entry, AF would finally show. It never fails, right? At least I didn't bother testing. I'm exhausted, crampy, diarrhea-y, and just not in the most cheerful mood. I haven't seen my husband since Monday, so that doesn't help.

 

[ProfWife]

Nikki - MINE, TOO! Oh my gosh...even walking hurts! I'm not even taking the progesterone supplements this cycle. Who knows...I'm figuring out that our bodies are SO weird that hardly anything is overly predictable.

Clandestine - I do have some renewed optimism...it's cautious though. I don't want to get my hopes up on the 3-4 and find myself depressed if it doesn't happen that fast.

Hopeful - Thanks (as always) for the encouragement. I can't wait to start cycle watching with you again!

 

[momwithbabies]

Nikilucky: I know about how hard it is not to read into everything. It's almost impossible when you know your body so well. Good luck for a fast next few days for you!

 

[ClandestineTX]

@Nicki: the OSOM tests I bought really are super sensitive, we're talking I had the first unmistakable line at 12 DPO - and at 14 DPO my serum beta-hCG was only 8 mIU/mL. The down side to that is that you will definitely detect chemicals, but for me it was reassuring to know we could fertilize an egg.

I would have greatly preferred for this one to be THE ONE, but if it couldn't be it, I am so grateful to have all of you ladies to carry on with. It has definitely made all of this so much easier. I stopped the hormones yesterday and my daily spotting is more impressive than it has been. Since Tuesday's progesterone was only 5.1 ng/mL, I am hoping the floodgates will open soon and my body will sort this out without additional intervention. I have stopped daily testing, but will probably check tomorrow and every 2-3 days after that, in hopes the hCG is out of my system quickly.

 

[nikkilucky77]

Clandestine-I'll have to check those tests out! Did you say Amazon for those? I hope it isn't too bad when the floodgates open. Hopefully it goes fast and we are here for you!!


Prowife-Walking, stairs, etc hurts bad! I don't normally get them that bad so I'm hoping its a good sign for both of us . I'm getting closer to my 2 year too and its time for us!

Momwithbabies- Shoot...sorry AF showed hope she goes fast.

Hopeful-As always, you are awesome and thanks for youd support for us ladies.

 

[ProfWife]

Nikki - I just noticed you're in Iowa...which section of the state? My hubs is from a tiny town in the far northwest corner (practically in Minnesota).

 

[Hopeful2014]

@ClandestineTX I'm all for renewed optimism for all!

@nikkilucky77 Thanks! I really hope those are your BFP symptoms and not PMS. When will you test again?

@momwithbabies Big hugs. I hope you have a better weekend.

@ProfWife I definitely think you are much closer to your BFP! Thank you. If my cycles stay on track we may be starting in my October cycle assuming ovulation comes after the end of the month. That will be the last full month of required baby aspirin before trying. I'd love for us to be bump buddies. I hope we all get BFPs soon and can have our pregnancies together! Fingers crossed.

AFM I've been working on having renewed optimism for myself as well. I know I can get pregnant, have a healthy baby, and deliver it now. Of course the biggest scare is that I could get preeclampsia again or more what could happen if I did. I need to be healthy as well. I have been working on envisioning a good outcome and happiness. I remind myself of the things the specialist said. There's another thing I remind myself of that might help some of you as well. Anything is possible and things can be different when variables are changed. The variables that I will change (or have already changed) will be having a healthier/more fit body, taking baby aspirin and extra vitamins, closely monitoring everything at home, having a team who will provide me with better care, and many other small changes. I'll be going into a next pregnancy with completely different variables. Yes, it will still be my body and I might still develop issues. However, we know when we change things the outcome can change as well.

 

[ClandestineTX]

@Nicki: these are the tests: https://www.amazon.com/OSOM-HCG-Combo-Pregnancy-Test/dp/B000KPZMU8 (note you can use them with serum, in addition to urine, but I didn't see that as necessary). They do take longer than the reported 3 minutes for full development (even though you would see a line by then) and to compare one day to the next, I found they needed to dry completely (~ 2 hours).

@Hopeful: I am so glad to hear that you are feeling strong about your next LO. I think it's amazing that you are working so hard and have been largely positive moving forward. I so want to be your bump buddy SOON!

 

[nikkilucky77]

I want to be bump buddies with each of you!!!

Prowife: I live in the opposite corner...NE Iowa in a little town called Waukon. How are your bbs today? Mine are not as bad today...so I am thinking AF is on the way but we will see!

Clandestine: Thanks! I need to order some anyways so perfect timing!

Hopeful: You are so right! I agree...our bodies have different circumstances each time. I also think getting healthy is the right step. I have been getting bigger and bigger so I need to start doing something whether it is yoga again or something! I am excited for you because you are right...you can get pregnant and I know it will happen for you!!

 

[nikkilucky77]

Also I want to hold out on testing but I am sure I will tomorrow lol.

What about you prowife??

 

[ClandestineTX]

Getting healthy continues here, too - though I'm going to go eat some crap for lunch (I'm thinking fast food) and hit happy hour tonight, because I CAN. But tomorrow, I will get back to walking/ jogging intervals and lifting weights.

 

[nikkilucky77]

Ugh so I caved and tested again...super faint line. I'm going to test tomorrow again with fmu (I held it for 2 hrs with this test). I'm hoping its not another chemical :-/

 

[kksy9b]

FX'd Nikki!