@ProfWife Thank you. I really wish they would have been there for us differently. We need them. It hurts. He talked to his father and his mother has apologized, but I just don't know. His sister-in-law has always pushed an agenda with his mother leading it for her. I just wished this would have been different. It hurts me, but I also feel like I have to take up for Emma because no one else will or can. This should have been her week and everyone should respect that. I want everyone to know she cannot be replaced and that she needs to be remembered and regarded as an important member of the family. I hope the Clomid is just what you need and you don't have to worry about it.
@ClandestineTX Thank you! We have been working so hard to keep focus and work on ourselves. Things like this really shake it though. I'm trying to walk every day to get some control back and to try to be in the peak shape if/when we are able to try again. I've been doing so well, but this hurt that focus. However, I'm doing well again. I know in my head that we have to keep focus and help each other, but my heart says another thing sometimes. My head does me in sometimes as well. I really hope we do deserve a happy life and that we get it. I'm waiting for Karma to catch up.
@kksy9b Thanks. I appreciate you all being here for me. I don't know if I will say anything to her. I wish I could say she would change or care, but I don't know if that's possible. I've always let my husband handle his family, but I've told him that if anyone says or does anything that I feel like is against Emma directly to me that I will not let it go. That's hard for him, but he understands and feels the same way.
@newbie2013 Thank you!
@Lazydaisys Thanks! I'm sending so much luck for this IUI. I can't wait for you to be on the front!
@momwithbabies I agree. I believe that is part of why she did this. Thank you.
@athena87 I'll probably talk to my mother-in-law at some point. Perhaps over time I'll be able to talk to them both more in depth about it. I feel like talking to them would make me risk them saying something that makes me angry or hurts me more. Thanks.
@RaeChay I wish it was because she wanted to tell us first, but she's been spreading it around for a while. We knew since April, but we didn't want to say that we knew. After his mother told us she said she assumed we did know because of Facebook. ?!!? Then let it go. If we want to talk about it, then we will talk about it! I completely agree. I know one reason people don't mention it is because they think it will make it too hard on me or that I seem to be doing okay. They may or may not realize that I think about it every day and nearly all day. I want her to be treated like an actual member of the family. I want to hear her name and sweet remembrances of her. Yes, it might make me cry. But not hearing it does not make me forget. It just makes me feel more alone than I already do. I understand about the season change. A lot of little things like that hurt. Trying to decide what to eat when I wasn't eating for both of us, seeing my stomach tone back up when she should still be in there, or even just looking outside at the sun and everything turning green.
@mummy2o I find myself checking Facebook when I know I shouldn't. It's like I'm feeling so bad that I want to torture myself more by looking. You're right. It will always hurt, but at least the timing could have been better. My husband is being strong. We decided to let this bring us closer together and to support each other. However, he does feel like he is in the middle of it because it's his family. He started making excuses for them, but then decided it was inexcusable. He is so strong and definitely feels like he is the protector. It hurts him because he feels like he can't do much to fix the situation or others in it. We took a few days and then we both hit it again and are trying to be productive and keep our focus on what we can do.
@River54 Thanks. Lots of luck and positive vibes! I hope this is it!
What's your favorite drink? Hope you had fun!
woo woo and cheeky vimtos. They were watered down a lot so no hangover today. X
Other than that, I love wine. A sweet, red wine is my favorite. I also like just about anything with rum in it!
. People have all these weirdly naive ideas.
