MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[pathos]

congrats River , do you have your results?

 

[Lazydaisys]

They gave me a new injection no problem and I watched people on YouTube so did it myself.

Hope everybody is well?

Any update river? X

 

[mummy2o]

I'm so excited about River's update. Hope its good news.

AFM meeting with the social worker in 2 hours to see if I can have my daughter back. I swear its the last time we take her to hospital. We never did anything to her. So if its bad news then I'm not sure. I guess I haven't thought about that since we're innocent in all of this.

 

[River54]

The beta came back at 66 for 11dp5dt. They told me that while that is considered technically pregnant, the levels are lower than they want to see.
So, I am to retest now tomorrow.
FX for doubling!!

 

[Lazydaisys]

River all my fingers and toes are crossed.

Mummy2 I hope so much you get your baby back. If it's not straight forward you need legal advice. The system is in place to protected children, not keep innocent people away from their children xxx

 

[Lazydaisys]

Went for scan and my silly follicles hadn't grown. They have given me more injections to do. Last scan on Friday before iui is probably cancelled. X

 

[momwithbabies]

Mummy2o: I hope everything goes smoothly so you can move on.

River: I hope those levels keep going up for you! I know how much you want this!

Lazydaises: Sorry things aren't going the way they need to...I know you are frustrated with all of it. I hope things start going your way soon.

AFM: I'm guessing that I'm about 9 DPO. So nothing to report. Feeling a little crampy lately which usually means AF is gearing up. Praying it's a baby implanting, but I know it's probably not. I'm waiting on my blood test results from last Friday, but who knows when those will be in. He checked off so many boxes on that test...I don't even know what all he is testing. I know my thyroid for sure. Hope everyone is well.

 

[ProfWife]

River - praying for a double or more!

Lazy - I'm so sorry they're being stubborn! Can't believe the little buggers won't grow!

Mummy2o - I hope all goes well today and they clear you - as you should be.

Momwithbabies - You never know! ;-)

AFM - I wasn't going to test, but was curious today (we just got back from vacation). Positive OPK. Hoping to get in some bd even though I have my annual appointment with my gyn tomorrow morning. I'll tell them straight up in case there's an issue with the cervical screening. I'm not missing a chance to have a baby because I've got a doctor's appointment!

 

[mummy2o]

Well. She's not home So we have a child protection plan going on Friday. I have a solicitor for the next stage after that which they want to happen in 2 weeks and want to charge my partner for child abuse for taking his daughter to hospital. The social worker completely BS us earlier and said it was only going to be a child protection plan and some parenting skills, not all this crap. The only reason I know this is as my solicitors colleague (mine is on holiday until next week) phoned her up and this is what she said. They might also consider putting my child permanently into care. We're really unsure of the next steps right now, but this isn't right. He never purposely hurt her and if he had why would he take her to hospital? I feel like I'm loosing my baby in the most horrible way imaginable.

River: good luck tomorrow fx for you.

 

[Hopeful2014]

@mummy2o I hope everything works out soon.

@athena87 Thank you so much. I appreciate it.

@ALiKO Thanks!

@River54 Congratulations! Fingers crossed for doubling!

@Lazydaisys Thanks! I'm glad your lining continues to show improvement. I really hope your scan goes well on Friday. I'm sorry it's all so frustrating.

@momwithbabies I hope you get your results back quickly. I know it sucks when you have to wait for them. Fingers crossed those are good cramps and not af.

@ProfWife I totally understand not wanting to wait just because of an appointment. I hope you had a nice time on vacation. Good luck at your appointment tomorrow.

AFM I'm CD 4 (Tuesday). My last cycle was 29 days and I had a 14 day lp, which was up from the 9 day lp of last cycle. I'm glad. I hope this means everything is going back to normal. My temperature is still high though and hasn't even dropped below the coverline for last month yet, although it has been slowly dropping over the last few days. It's strange. My pre-conception meeting is scheduled for July. I'm definitely looking forward to it, but I'm nervous.

 

[pathos]

River, fingers crossed for doubling

Lazydaisys, i hope eggies will respond to injections and grow by your next appointment and you ll have your iui.

mummy2o, oh don't think the worst yet, i hope you will be cleared. apparently the priority is the minors from the perspective of the system, don't feel stigmatized.

 

[ProfWife]

mummy2o - I am so sorry you didn't get her back yet. This upsets me so much. I see so many kids legitimately abused who cannot seem to get away from their parents. Then there are parents who aren't but are caught by the system and have their little ones removed - even temporarily. Hopefully it will all be over soon.

Hopeful - So excited for your appointment. I'm sure it's nerve-wracking, but they wouldn't clear you unless they were sure you should be safe this go around.

AFM - Appointment was actually hilarious. Started off by finding out that about 4-5 of my friends from church see this same doctor and LOVE her when I ran into one of our mamas in the waiting room. Nurse was wonderful. Doctor wanted to speak with me before the appointment to get full history. They've already referred me out to the fertility center in town. I'm going to talk with hubs about scheduling our consult in a few weeks to get the ball rolling with their docs (and maybe meds). Doc suggested pregnitude for a supplement and increased calcium. The whole time though, they were giving suggestions...tequila and a weekend away, bd in the back of a chevy (doc claims American cars are best ;-) ), and visiting the fertility statues at one of the museums in town. LOL On the way out, the nurse put her hand on my head and told me "Go forth and multiply." I was laughing so hard! They're a great bunch, and I'm glad I transferred care over to them.

Doc said that she didn't see or feel anything that was out of place. So, not sure exactly where we'll go from here...but balls are rolling in multiple places now.

 

[River54]

ok, so 2 days later - my beta is 121 up from 66. same time of day, so according to betabase calc, that is a 55hr doubling time.

FX!

 

[ClandestineTX]

...@ClandestineTX Thank you! We have been working so hard to keep focus and work on ourselves. Things like this really shake it though. I'm trying to walk every day to get some control back and to try to be in the peak shape if/when we are able to try again. I've been doing so well, but this hurt that focus. However, I'm doing well again. I know in my head that we have to keep focus and help each other, but my heart says another thing sometimes. My head does me in sometimes as well. I really hope we do deserve a happy life and that we get it. I'm waiting for Karma to catch up.

@RaeChay I wish it was because she wanted to tell us first, but she's been spreading it around for a while. We knew since April, but we didn't want to say that we knew. After his mother told us she said she assumed we did know because of Facebook. ?!!? Then let it go. If we want to talk about it, then we will talk about it! I completely agree. I know one reason people don't mention it is because they think it will make it too hard on me or that I seem to be doing okay. They may or may not realize that I think about it every day and nearly all day. I want her to be treated like an actual member of the family. I want to hear her name and sweet remembrances of her. Yes, it might make me cry. But not hearing it does not make me forget. It just makes me feel more alone than I already do. I understand about the season change. A lot of little things like that hurt. Trying to decide what to eat when I wasn't eating for both of us, seeing my stomach tone back up when she should still be in there, or even just looking outside at the sun and everything turning green.

FX for your pre-conception meeting next month! I think your plan to get as healthy as possible before getting pregnant again is a fantastic idea. That's part of why I have become such an avid walker, I wanted to start a program that I could continue during pregnancy. I really do believe karma has your back and it really is just a matter of time before you have a LO that you can take home with you.

Your post to RaeChay reminded me of old-school psychological advice. Have you tried journaling or writing letters to Emma? If you haven't, something like that might help you get your emotions out of your head, so that you can "see" them and see the good in how you feel. I watched a movie, which I have to imagine you've been told about by now, Return to Zero: https://www.mylifetime.com/movies/return-to-zero
It was completely heart-wrenching to watch and I've not been in your shoes, but they have online discussion materials and a journal guide of sorts that might help you with the emotional processing, too. Something one of the characters said to the woman after her loss I feel applies to everyone who has STC, not just ones with losses, was that the gift her lost baby gave her was a deep-rooted appreciation of children and that no child will ever go unappreciated or neglected in her presence. I think that's already true for me. Before STC, I never really had an interest in anyone's kids and now find that I am drawn to ones who are even casually neglected or wanting of their parents attention.

well, I have a very faint BFP! Beta isn't until Tuesday.... will probably test again with a FRER on Sunday

We have never gotten a bfp when ttc these past few years, so this is very exciting However, we are pretty cautious people, so we haven't told anyone yet, probably tell the close family that knows we went through IVF this cycle after the second beta if all looks good - since they'll be wondering...
I don't think it'll really sink in for OH til the ultrasound... lol

Congrats and FX for you!

AFM... apologies for the duplication for those of you who follow my journal. It appears (and doc agrees) that I had a 7-8 DPO CP, and this was likely just the most recent of several I've managed to have since last July. I'm freakishly excited, because this was the darkest one yet (albeit faint), but is effectively confirmation that I can get pregnant. We are keeping the progesterone going through 16 DPO to encourage the next group of follicles to mature fabulously and doc is pretty sure it's just a matter of time. Will be sticking with 5 mg Femara CD 3-7 and 100 mg progesterone from 3-16 DPO indefinitely until BFP or we reach a point that we're pretty sure there's another issue at play (> 6 months of current plan or so). So... FX... and moving on for now.

 

[ClandestineTX]

ok, so 2 days later - my beta is 121 up from 66. same time of day, so according to betabase calc, that is a 55hr doubling time.

FX!

Fabulous! Congrats!!!

 

[ProfWife]

River!! Congratulations! That's terrific!! Now to wait until 6 weeks for the heartbeat scan?

Clandestine - I'm so sorry for another CP, but I can understand the excitement. I'm glad you guys have a plan to move forward! Perhaps your BFP is just around the corner!

 

[River54]

I back for yet another beta on Friday...

 

[momwithbabies]

River: I'm hoping it will keep doubling! So excited for you!

Hopeful: I'm glad your cycles are seeming to return to normal. And I know your July appointment can't come fast enough!

ProfWife: Sounds like your appointment went well. It also feels better when at least one ball starts rolling I hope you are enjoying your fertile time (my favorite time of a cycle). Have fun! And good car advice from the doctor...might have to try it one day, lol! At this point, I would have sex just about anywhere if it meant I would get pregnant!

Clandestine: Fingers crossed that your time will come very soon!

AFM: More dull cramps that feel like AF...I keep praying and hoping. I've been asking St. Gianna to pray to God for me that the cramps are a baby implanting. I know all things are up to Him and He hears my prayers, but I'm getting frustrated. It doesn't help that I'm still waiting for my blood test results. Tomorrow will be one week. Does anyone know how long it takes? I hate calling to ask.

 

[momwithbabies]

Mummy2o: That all sounds awful!!! I hope things start going your way. I'm sure you are missing your baby so much I can't imagine!

 

[ClandestineTX]

Cycle 20 decided to show up on 15 DPO, technically right on time. I think my body wanted the CP out in a timely fashion, despite Doc's request that I continue the progesterone through 16 DPO. I am stopping it now, as I don't see the point in trying to fight off a new start, if that's what my body wants!