MAY we all be blessed with baby! May 2013 and beyond (BFFs Seeking BFPs)

[Hopeful2014]

@newbie2013 I figured you were doing or not doing most of them. I wish I had the perfect answer and solution for all of us. It's been freezing here lately! It's too cold to be outside for very long. I'm excited for the warmer weather to return. I guess you could use your fingers or dh's fingers if you'd prefer that or if it'd be easier. (Sorry!)

@ProfWife I think it's great the doctor has a plan for you. I hope the meds are not too bad for you. Will you be giving yourself the shots or will it be someone else? I hope the medication is all you need and that you won't have to worry about the next step. I do think it's a step forward and I'm excited for you.

@ClandestineTX How are you?

AFM I feel really strange about the cycle count. I was blessed to be pregnant and to have a beautiful girl. I know these months and the original months (since December 2012) are not all one batch of months, but it hurts that I still don't have a baby to keep after all of it. I suppose I technically have only tried 10 months with her and now I'm in month 4 for baby two, but it really feels like it's been so long. It's strange because it's not long term trying, but it sort of is in a different way. Ugh. I suppose I don't really fit into general categories after what happened. I'm CD 3. I wasn't very positive about last cycle because I ovulated late and timing wasn't as good as usual. I think the stress of the season and the stress from a certain family member hurt the chances. I'm optimistic about the future. I know getting pregnant will be my first step and then I'll have many mini steps/goals along the way. I wish for BFPs and happy and healthy pregnancies for us all.

 

[ClandestineTX]

@Hopeful: you may not be the typical LTTTC, but you are one of us. I don't think "LTTTC" is a date on a calendar, but a state of mind. My only non-CP pregnancy was basically over by 4 weeks, and I still count that one in my total. I only separate out the cycles post-MC when I'm measuring my frustration (e.g. this is my fourth cycle and most people who can carry a subsequent pregnancy without major complications get pregnant in the first six months... blah, blah, blah) and it's just another form of self-torture. The goal posts move throughout this process, which is why I simply prefer struggling to conceive (STC) to any variant of TTC. For me, until I am physically holding a living baby, I will have some element of disbelief. I have had so many cycles with +HPTs, they honestly don't even phase me... though I've not had once since Sept 27, when my hCG finally dropped low enough for me to not be pregnant anymore and that brings up its own collection of concerns.

As far as how I am doing, professionally - completely amazing. I'm exhausted, thanks to Femara fatigue and cleaning out a lab that's full of dust (my only real non-food or medicine allergen). One more day, then hibernating all weekend on account of this arctic weather on its way to us. I am a little behind on computer and paperwork type things, so solely in the interest of starting the teaching term strong, I will be working this weekend to spare the next 15 or so. STC-wise I have sort of given up. I am still temping and charting and taking most of my meds, we do have an EOD schedule that will be starting soon (it's CD 8 today), but I am no longer invested in the outcome. This is the first of the four final cycles for us and I am not one to set myself up for disappointment. We are doing what we can, whether or not that works is out of our control completely. I have accepted that and am simply focusing on my non-STC life. Thankfully, I like it and there are exciting things happening there!

 

[ProfWife]

@Hopeful - I only have one injection of Ovidrel (pre-filled syringe) to give myself on the evening when the doc tells me to. I have my last dose of letrozole to take tonight. On Tuesday at 7 I go in for an ultrasound and an estradiol blood test. The nurse will call Tuesday afternoon with instructions on when to inject the Ovidrel. One week post-injection, another blood test for progesterone. One week later, I'm allowed to take a pregnancy test.

For those on Femara/Letrozole - Any side effects that you noticed? So far I'm feeling okay without any side effects.

 

[ClandestineTX]

I have to take the Femara at night, it completely knocks me out like a sleeping pill. I have on occasion had headaches here and there (I am not at all prone to headaches, BTW, like never get them otherwise), minor muscle tension, and definite fatigue by the end of the course. And sometimes (like this cycle), my period will stop, then near the end of Femara I will have very faint spotting (like colored CM really), but that's totally normal, from the estrogen completely bottoming out, which is the point of the medication. Otherwise, strong and timely ovulation (like CD 13-15 every time). And by "strong" - my ovulation pains feel like I got punched in the ovary and then it pulses a little for a few hours afterwards, but at least I am always "sure" of my ovulation date!

 

[ProfWife]

My doc has me taking them between 6 and 8 at night. I think I've been experiencing the muscle tension - the gym hurt my calves FAR worse than normal. I'm hoping that I feel that same definite ovulation pain (especially since I've got to endure a shot...WHICH I dreamt about giving myself last night and it hurt badly in the dream...praying it doesn't hurt that badly in real life!).

Thanks for the info. Glad to know I'm not crazy on some of the oddities. I've been sick again this week; so, it's hard to tell what caused which symptom.

 

[ClandestineTX]

Just remember - the stuff works. And the side effects are temporary and wear off in less than 48 hours after your last dose.

 

[ProfWife]

Sweet. I know that's one of the many reasons why my RE prefers it over clomid. I'm anxious for my u/s on Tuesday to find out how the eggie(s) are progressing.

 

[ClandestineTX]

I will keep my FX for you!

I assume I have eggs progressing, CD 9 here... not much to write about!

How's everyone else doing?

 

[ProfWife]

I'm on CD 9, too. Just waiting to see what will happen.

 

[newbie2013]

I think af is on the way cd 23 today. I'm not surprised but still disappointed.

How's everyone?

 

[ClandestineTX]

Positive OPK about a half hour ago, Hubster has been put on notice!

 

[ProfWife]

Woo hoo!! ;-) Get to it!

AFM - I had my appointment with doc yesterday for my follicle scan and estradiol check. Estradiol came in at 91.1 for CD12. I ended up with FOUR measurable follicles. One was at 11mm, two at 14mm and one at 15.5mm.

The doctor has cleared me to take my Ovidrel trigger shot on Friday between 6 and 8. We're to time relations for Friday, Saturday, and Sunday (and to abstain until then...oy...I don't WANNA!).

I've been doing opks in the meantime...so far, negatives. So, my body has definitely responded to these meds. I'm happy about that!

 

[kksy9b]

Good luck ladies!!

 

[melann13]

Prayers for you ProfWife and Clandestine!

 

[ClandestineTX]

FX ProfWife!!! We are almost on the same schedule, did EOD until +OPK, so covered yesterday (first positive), today, and will cover tomorrow just because!

 

[ProfWife]

Oh my gosh - it feels like I've got marbles or something on my ovaries...is this what near ovulation is supposed to ACTUALLY feel like? It feels like there's something on both sides, too. Geesh...could I get blessed enough to have two strong eggs this month? I've always been told that's rare with letrozole.

 

[Lazydaisys]

Marbles sounds about right! Loving the hubsters on stand by. X

 

[ProfWife]

Did the Ovidrel injection about an hour ago. So proud of myself. No pain and only a drop of blood...AND the wait is over. It's gonna be a good night, girls!

 

[Lazydaisys]

Lol. Enjoy! Xx

 

[ClandestineTX]

yay for the trigger!!! I think yesterday was officially ovulation in this house, though some aftershock cramping most of today. No complaints, though!