1. I have the job for two reasons: To supplement income, and to save...whether for a home, a reversal or school. Aside from this job, I have baby bonus and disability coming in. Mike also has EI. EI and Baby Bonus is enough for us to survive on and for me to be able to put money away.
2. A lot of the stuff I'm collecting for my house has been given to me cheap or free. This has freed up a lot of money for me to be able to put away towards the reversal.
3. I'm not neglectful, nor am I stupid. I wouldn't put the reversal before my kids' needs, EVER, so I don't appreciate being treated like that's what I'm doing. Right now, it IS affordable for me to put money away. I COULD put more than $1000 a month away, but $1000 is my limit. I'll be making a bigger dent in the cost of the reversal when my taxes come in anyway. If in a months time I move and see that $1000 is no longer affordable, like I said before, I'd push the reversal ahead. I'd adjust how much money I put down each month and push the surgery ahead. If I can't put ANYTHING down anymore, then so be it. I'll keep the money already down in there and push it ahead until I can afford the rest of it.
I would NEVER EVER EVER put the reversal ahead of my kids' needs. I may seem selfish to you, but I'm far from it. I'm not like my asshole husband who blows his money on music. If I want something, but my kids NEED something, their NEED ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS comes first and that will NEVER change.
I'm too pissed off to be here right now. I trusted you guys, and now there are a few of you that I'm not so sure about anymore. All I've ever felt was judgement from you over this reversal. I appreciate the concern over the abuse, but I'm dealing with that and a reversal will, in no way, jeopardize us getting out of here. If it would, I wouldn't do it.
Again, I'm not neglectful, nor am I stupid, and I sure as HELL don't appreciate being treated that way. I get enough of that from the asshole I live with. I don't need it here too.
I'll come back when I'm not so pissed off.