So, I had my first OB appt today. It was all pretty standard and the nurses seem nice. And it turns out the women who is gonna be my OB was my sister's OB nearly 5 years ago. I was told that everything looked fine on the U/S and it was still a boy. When I went into work (slightly late cuz of the appt), most of my female coworkers were asking where I was. I said "the Dr's" and they were all like "why? Are you pregnant? hahahaha" and I just said no and laughed with them. I really hope I'll be able to hide it for another 4 weeks.
I took back all the onesies and sleepers I got from WalMart and picked up some boys stuff. I'm feeling kinda "meh" about boy clothes again. I know there's gonna be a lot of back and forth when it comes to me dealing with this.
Speaking of which, of the few people at work that know, none of them asked me how my U/S or OB appt went. Which is fine by me. I'm not really in the mood to talk about it with anyone I know. I did however get a FB msg from my friend (who's also pregnant) asking how it went cuz I told her I wanted to wait til Monday to say anything. However, several weeks back she invited me to a secret FB group that her and some of her girl friends have. There's like a dozen women. Some of them I know well, some sorta, and a couple barely or not at all. I announced my pregnancy to the group, but that was all I said. Then, a few days ago, my friend made a post saying how she was hoping to be team blue and asked if I was still hoping for team pink. I replied saying I wasn't sure how the U/S would go, but regardless, I wasn't gonna be making a public gender announcement (I was gonna tell her though cuz she mentioned she has a bunch of boy and girl clothes and if we were having different genders, she'd give me whatever clothes she didn't need). Now I'm feeling kind of pissed at her for saying that when it was in no way her place to say anything. There's a lot of shit going on with me both physically and personally that I have no control over. But I do have the control to decided who I tell and how much I share. I just feel hurt and betrayed and kind of embarrassed cuz everyone in the group will be waiting and hoping to hear I've had my girl, but it'll be a boy instead. Half of them are moms, so I'm sure they'll be sympathetic, but I would rather have had them think that I didn't have a preference. I msged her letting her know that it was not ok that she told everyone and I'll let her know if I need any of the clothing shortly before my shower (in June). She replied, but I've been too nervous and upset to even read it.