"The battle"
This was never about me having a baby. It turned out to be everything but that.
It was a different story altogether.
The prince removed everything to see where my eyes would lay.
He turned his back to see if I would follow.
He gave me silence instead of answers, to see if I would notice.
He watched me endure loss to see how resilient i was made.
He removed my hope to see if I would fight for it back.
He wanted to see if I would choose him.
He wanted to see if a baby was all my heart desired.
And although at times i thought that is all that consumed me.
That getting prayers answered was all that mattered.
I realised in that moment, the more empty I became.
The fight was more evident then ever before.
Would i choose my faith, despite my pain?
Would i choose his way, despite my understanding?
Would i choose to obey, without certainty?
If i didn't get what i wanted, when i wanted it. Would it change how i felt towards him?
Would i praise him despite my circumstance? Isn't that what 'the war of love' is about?
The fight isn't just a battle, it's a love story. I choose him, and i will choose him every time. Every time i get knocked down, i will choose love.
xxx_faithful
This revelation was inspired by Hillsong's 'War of love.' What a worship song!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzbzjAhhDNY