New and desperately in need of some encouragement

[justme27]

hello ladies - i'm new here and have read so many posts on b&b over the years but never joined till today. A bit of background, my husband and I have been TTC for 3 years now with on m/c early on. DH all good and me all good except for a low ovarian reserve which has only recently been discovered. I'm finally starting IUI in a couple of weeks which I'm pleased about but then I heard yesterday from my sister that she's just found out she's 8 weeks pregnant. To set the context they were 6 years TTC and 2 failed IVFs and they've now gotten pregnant naturally and completely unplanned. I'm SO happy for my sister and really do see this as a miracle baby but at the same time it's pretty much taken me back to square one in terms of all the psychological preparation I've done to get myself ready for IUI. I was so positive about everything and now I just feel completely unprepared for dealing with if/when it goes wrong, because I won't be able to talk to my sister about it. I've been an emotional wreck all day today (PMS probably doesn't help with that either!) and I know I'm being irrational but I just need someone out there to tell me that they understand how I'm feeling. I love my sister and genuinely want only good things for her and her baby, I just so wish that a) it would happen for me too and b) it wouldn't have happened for her just before I'm supposed to be starting treatment and potential disappointment that comes along with that.

Help....does this make me a horrible person?

Feeling sad....

 

[JayhawkLvr]

That doesn't make you horrible at all, it's completely understandable!! My advice would be to let yourself be upset, and then try to look at it in a hopeful way. Especially since she was TTC for so long, it just shows to never give up hope!! I've had a couple of the same experiences, in the last couple months a friend and a cousin got preggo on accident, and they're completely unprepared for children. So that's REALLY hard, but I try to keep positive and look on to the next step in my journey with some hope. FX for your IUI!!

 

[justme27]

Thank you for your encouraging words, it does help to know that I'm not alone in this situation....here's hoping today was just a bad day and tomorrow my PMS leaves me alone and I can get on with being hopeful...

All the best to you too and fingers crossed for all of us on the LTTTC journey!