elliot
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I have some ranting to do since I cant share this with anyone apart from DH. Ever since I have started TTC I keep on getting a horrible dream, a nightmare in fact. And I invariably get it during the luteal phase period. I dream that I am getting AF but its such a horrible image-a pool of blood is what I see And needless to say I wake up immediately and pass the rest of the day all grumpy. Lat night I slept with prayers that God please dont give me nightmares but I ended up with one I saw I am pregnant(pretty early stage) crampy...in order to confirm I took a test and all I saw was blood-it ended in an MC I dont know how do I get over this. I sleep with prayers in my lips but its not helping me so far. I am sorry for all these ramblings but I am so disturbed. I just feel the month when I dont get this nightmare will be the month when I fall preggers. I am sorry once again.
I'm sorry about the nightmare you've been having Anne, and I can definitely sympathize. I'm a bit of a worrier, and I've always had nightmares my whole life. While TTC I often had them about my worst fears... DH deciding he didn't love me anymore or being terrible to me or leaving me. I've always had dreams like that even though he's a really great guy and our relationship is very solid, so I chalk it up to the fact that as a kid of divorce one of my deepest fears is that my own relationship will fail. And I've also learned that there's nothing I can do to control when I have those dreams... they come up whenever my deep-seated subconscious fear stirs up.
Sorry for the big ramble about me... all I really meant to say is that I hear you. And I understand how much it sucks. And I don't think there's anything you can do about it other than realize that our sleeping minds tap into all kinds of strange, irrational, and sometimes really wacko ideas and feelings, and try to remind yourself when you wake that it's just a dream and to spend your day cultivating positive feelings about how are ready to lovingly receive your little one just as soon as your little one is ready to come to you.
I know it's super hard, but try not to give the nightmares even more power by spending waking time and energy on them.
Wishing you only good dreams and deep, restful sleep. And keeping fingers crossed that when you least expect it that BFP will pop up!