Good morning ladies
Sorry wasnt so active yesterday. So this morning my temp had a huge dip and an hour later was greeted by the witch. Wasnt expecting a miracle this month but you know you always feel in the dumps with the appearance of the witch. On to cycle#6. I know this is nothing compared to what others go through, but to me even this seems like forever. In fact the whole TTC thing seems like a charade at times.
OPK
Charting
Grapefruit juice
Soy
Then when you get that positive in the OPK you try to BD as much as possible to cover the fertile period.
Then you drive yourself crazy in the TWW trying to symptom spot.
Test
BFN
AF
Open your flood gate of tears.
Back to square one.
Start over again.
During this time your mind is an emotional roller coaster ranging from hope to despair to excitement to anger to utter frustration.
My DH's SA result is normal, I have a cycle that comes and goes with clock-work precision, I am 30 and DH 31, healthy and yet nothing for the last 5 months. WHY?
When I pray to God for a baby, I wonder if I am asking for too much. But then I realise that when I was born, God decided to make me a girl, by virtue of that doesnt motherhood become my birthright?
I am sorry ladies for rambling so much but I just needed to ventilate.
TL
Even I have read that stress does affect TTC. I am definitely stressed for that matter. DH and I have decided to go for a vacation in March because I think I need a break for sure.