I'm sorry to hear that hun.
Dont let him win this battle. Make yourself look really pretty and have a big smile on your face. Whatever you do dont show him its hurting. xxx
Oh God... Never ever take him back.. He lied to you for years and years, no matter how many times he tells you he loves you, misses you and doesnt feel like he made the right choice doesnt change anything and although your hurting now you wont forever.
He is a proper head fuck... Dont pay any mind to his games.... One day he will be sorry and you will be back on your feet and looking down on him..
Just read this whole thread and although i dont have any advice i just wanted to say you are doing really well, and i dont think anyone could handle waht u have been through any better than u did.
Take care of yourself and your little girl. Hope u cope with him visiting ur daughter tomorrow. Be strong, u didnt deserve any of this.....better things are coming ur way im sure
Oh God... Never ever take him back.. He lied to you for years and years, no matter how many times he tells you he loves you, misses you and doesnt feel like he made the right choice doesnt change anything and although your hurting now you wont forever.
He is a proper head fuck... Dont pay any mind to his games.... One day he will be sorry and you will be back on your feet and looking down on him..
I know II couldnt have him back and I know the hurting will pass, its just mind games he dont give a toss about me, its just got on top of me today for some reason probz coz i gotta face him 2moz,
I dont think he'll ever be sorry i dont think he has any feelings in him except for himself, was doing so well and now I feel like I ve taken 20 steps backwards
Just read this whole thread and although i dont have any advice i just wanted to say you are doing really well, and i dont think anyone could handle waht u have been through any better than u did.
Take care of yourself and your little girl. Hope u cope with him visiting ur daughter tomorrow. Be strong, u didnt deserve any of this.....better things are coming ur way im sure
Do you think? I feel I ve been a total wimp and pushover the entire time, I ve been at rock bottom looking after his child, his family have blanked us - & yet after everything I still love and miss him ..........I am so stupid I just wish my feelings wud go away. He has got it all I feel Like I ve nothin in life, nothing to look forward to ..........oh Im off again wallowing lol !!
Thank you for your kind words, will be glad when tomorrow is over and I'll just have to cope tomorrow as its about my daughter not me, I just hate feelin so down over someone who doesnt give a damm x
Hope today goes ok.
xxx
Well done for being so good with how you dealt with him!
I think he really wants the best of both worlds but this is all his fault, he should be the one suffering not you, stay strong
Yesterday was horrible - he came around and my LO was a bit uncertain at first as she hadnt seen him for so long so I was as civil as I could and and had to stay in room whilst they played. He asked if he could speak to me so I said ok.
He told me things werent going so well lots of arguements and that he had fucked up big time and that he didnt see him & her lasting, I said u need to be talking to her not me, I think he was sounding me out about moving back here or gettting back with me but didnt use those words,
He said if he leaves then she wont let him see child, I said if he on birth cert he has parental rights and could fight for access but again said Im not the one he should talk to & suggested his dad.
He said Im only person that he can talk to who knows him inside out, I told him it wud be easier once I ve moved as wont be so near, he hinted he wanted to come so I told him I do love and care about him & want him to be happy but It wudnt work again 4 us.
I explained that although wrong I could never be comfortable him going to visit his son, and that all the trust had gone. I said that i cudnt go through all this again, Id be completely paranoid and a nitemare to be around scared to argue, and in time he wud lie, leave or cheat again or go back to her. He said he wouldnt. He said if you want something badly enough you'll make it happen
He kept hugging me and kissing me on the cheek and then trying to touch me and kiss me and I had to push him away, and say no im not a cheater its wrong ur with someone else u just dont do that, then he said its ok to hug someone you love.
I told him to go and sort it out with her and give it ago & that he was probably having a bad few days, I said think of thereason you left me for, I havent changed yet u were so certain u was in love with her, you've been with her on & off for years, cheating when our daughter was 10 days old - I said she is the one u want not me. He just shook his head and left.
Im so sad I love and want him so much but I know in reality this just couldnt work. Although he has been vile to me 17 yrs is a long time, I care so much for him and want him to be happy but I just wish in my heart i could have the fairytale ending but I know it will never happen. Im crying my eyes out writing this, so desperate for him to come back but knowing I ve done the right thing, I miss him so much when he hugged me yesterday I didnt want him to stop - its like all the grief re-emerging, am hoping a good old cry will sort me out. x