at her last appt which was 6 mo she was 12 pound 12 ounces. So for her 8 month check up which is 12 weeks past her 6 month one (6 month was a lil early 8 month was a lil late) i'm really praying for 100gms per week which would be 15 pounds 6 ounces @ 8.5 months. FINGERS CROSSED!!
I've tried to not really let her smallness upset me and it honestly doesn't usually, i'm quite fine with having a small baby but with the appt next weds it's really starting to bug me. The other babies i know her age are also just growing so much! they are all so tall and have little fat legs and are developing and look like older babies. Eva hasn't changed at all, she still looks the same as she did 3 months ago. You can't see any difference which is why i'm dreading this appt. The other mums agree she doesn't really look like she's grown. I used to think it was awesome have a baby that still fits her 0-3mo stuff and 3-6mo stuff, but now?... it's just depressing. I want to watch my baby get bigger and just develop into a toddler and she just seems stuck and i'm sick of looking at all these other healthy babys who are so much stronger and just are starting to look so much bigger. Eva is good with milestones i mean she understands certain words like booby, milky, num nums or kisses and she sits unaided really well, can't crawl or anything but i'm not upset about that kind of developing i just mean her body growing and it just isn't! i have this skinny, short, underfed looking baby
and who elses fault is it but mine? I'm so terrible with her meals, she really could care less if i skip one and when i'm busy i do because she really doesn't mind and is quite happy regardless but now that my appt has been moved to next week i'm just getting really anxious that i don't have those couple of weeks to fatten her up that i planned on having. I could of probably been giving her extra breastfeeds but she doesn't really ask for them and i just don't find any time in the day to give her more than 4 and 3 solids. I'm contemplating telling the nurse that she refused solids for about 6 weeks and that would be why she didn't gain any this time. Just so i don't get shit for her being so small.
I think today is just a bad day, i had my mothers group and all the other babies have just grown so much and i think Eva being underweight has finally cracked me. I think it was the other mums confirming she doesn't look any different that did it. I figured maybe she doesn't look different because i see her everyday obviously that isn't the case.
Anyway sorry for the long whinge i should of put this in my journal but once i got started on Evas weight i couldn't stop