Congratulations Kayley! I think I know your OH....!
Going to be a long one, bear with me!
Haven't really caught up with everything that's gone on, you girlies can talk!
My week long time out from here has come to an end. Realised I'm better off talking about things, even if I sound whingy!
Got my 6 week check on Friday so will be discussing possible PND with the GP. I'm scared to mention it as I've heard horror stories about Social Services becoming involved etc. Does anyone know if they still do that?
I still have days where I wonder what the hell I've done, by having a baby. Sounds awful and I hate to say it as I love Kai so much and wouldn't be without him. But some days I wonder what the point of everything is. I'll be bringing that up with the GP.
Still thinking about my dad alot. It doesn't help that I'm dreaming about him and his death nearly every night. I think it's the time of year. Christmas was always a good time with him around and very special, it wasn't the same last year and won't be this, either.
I'm looking after Kai well, considering! It's just myself I'm not really taking care of. Some days are better than others. Have had a tummy bug the last few days so Kai went to his Nanny's on Monday for the whole day while I slept. Felt really guilty about passing him to someone else but really needed the break to rest and recuperate.
Kai's a monster! Waking for feeds every 2 hours at the moment. Probably 6 week growth spurt. He has terrible wind and cries with the pain after feeds. He's on infacol at the moment and it was working well but last couple of days it seems to have no effect on him. Breastfeeding is almost non existant now. I think that's partly what's getting me down. He suckles for around 5 minutes then screams so I have to relent and give him a bottle. Maybe it's my fault for introducing bottles (EBM) too early. He's now on Aptamil formula.
I'm not expressing much either. Before I could get at least 5oz out each time. Now I'm lucky if I get 1oz. I've tried fenugreek with no success. I guess as long as Kai is getting some mummy milk, that's good.
Me and OH are talking more. He finally realises we now have a baby and life isn't the same! He loves Kai to bits but sometimes he just doesn't think about things. Hopefully our relationship can get back on track.
Generally I'm feeling better than I was...so that's got to be a good thing!
Sorry I haven't been able to catch up with everything, I'll do so tomorrow if I get time.