October Sticky Beans!

[BostonLover89]

Beth Sending baby thoughts your way! FX you hear a strong beautiful little heartbeat next week!

cupcake I love reading your posts because you are so positive! I really need to take some of that koolaid lol. It also makes me feel that I should be more positive about this cycle too since I had my first super positive opk and we did time things pretty well. Its just these darn AF cramps that are making me a negative nancy!


Still having those cramps, but I finally slept somewhat decent on my vacation so I added in this mornings temp. If my cycle is going to be similar to previous ones I should be getting AF tomorrow or wednesday. Even though FF doesnt predict it until next week, I always get these cramps 5 or 6 days before my period and I start getting creamy CM.

 

[cupcake.]

Beth Sending baby thoughts your way! FX you hear a strong beautiful little heartbeat next week!

cupcake I love reading your posts because you are so positive! I really need to take some of that koolaid lol. It also makes me feel that I should be more positive about this cycle too since I had my first super positive opk and we did time things pretty well. Its just these darn AF cramps that are making me a negative nancy!


Still having those cramps, but I finally slept somewhat decent on my vacation so I added in this mornings temp. If my cycle is going to be similar to previous ones I should be getting AF tomorrow or wednesday. Even though FF doesnt predict it until next week, I always get these cramps 5 or 6 days before my period and I start getting creamy CM.

I know how it feels hun, definitely I've been having pity parties with myself as well, so you're so not alone. TTC can be such an emotional roller coaster and i don't think anyone is immune to feeling like crap and fearing to never ever get pregnant. I'll definitely need all of you to cheer me back up if this cycle ends in AF haha

But you're definitely not out. You definitely had great timing and you're not out until the witch shows up! The frustrating thing about TTC is that early pregnancy often feels pretty much exactly the same as pre-AF, so you never know, the cramping might not necessarily be a bad sign I'm definitely having my fingers crossed.

 

[caz & bob]

ladys how you all hope your all well as for me got lots of in fx this time xx

 

[cupcake.]

Caz, wahoo! Fx for you

This morning when i was taking my temp i stupidly still half asleep grinned at the temp because i was so pleased that it was quite a bit higher haha now that worry is lifted as well and i can just enjoy prague without worrying about temps
We're on our way right now, hopefully we won't be stuck in traffic, it's an almost 6hour drive anyway.. but i'm super excited

 

[BostonLover89]

cupcake Awesome, have so much fun on your vacation!!!

 

[jalilma]

After yesterday's negative test.... I believe I have a very light positive this am (actually 2 cause I didn't trust the first one)... Now all af has to do is stay away!

 

[Blackrain90]

Picturessss!

 

[BostonLover89]

Welp, AF didn't show up this morning.... So I am 9dpo! One whole day past last cycles LP length! That's definitely a plus side! I'm still feeling pretty crampy and bloated so I assume AF will show up soon but at least I know the soy and b6 made a bit of a difference.

FF says that my period isn't due until Sunday but since I've been cramping for a while already I know she will come early. How gracious of FF to give me such a long predicted LP hahaha.

 

[jalilma]

No hold... Just had to double check my two faint positives from this am! *holy cow I'm growing a baby!*

 

[BostonLover89]

jalilma oh how exciting! Wishing you a happy and healthy 9 months!!!!!

 

[BostonLover89]

No hold... Just had to double check my two faint positives from this am! *holy cow I'm growing a baby!*

Are you having any symptoms?!

 

[jalilma]

Sore breasts.. Bloating , some cramping (lightening crotch) hahaha.. Very slight fatigue ... And im super hungry pretty much all the time

 

[krissie328]

Congrats jalilma.

 

[Blackrain90]

Yay Jalilma that is so exciting!! Lightening crotch is a blast hey haha!

Boston hopefully she stays away, but yay for those things lengthening your cycle!

 

[MsRipple]

Yay Jalima!!!

 

[Angel5000]

I need to vent. Feel free to ignore.

I'm having a horrible few days. In the last 2 weeks since the incident with my dad I've been under a lot of emotional duress. It's been really horrible. I work with kids so I hav to "keep it together" but I have not had a lot of patience and my 6th period kids aren't well behaved. I said something I shouldn't have to one of the kids. He was smarting off and misbehaving, I asked him several times to stop doing what hew as doing, he refused, I finally asked him to change seats and he flat out said no (twice). I was angry, frustrated, and I told him to "pick up your sh*t and move seats". Parent called the school and complained. And my principal decided to write me up with an official letter of reprimand in my teacher file.

This is my first time this has happened EVER. I have never had a complaint, never spoken like this to a kid before. According to my union rep, she said that if there is no other complaint itw ill be removed and shredded at the end of the year but because this is my first year at THIS school, they can fire/release me at the end of the year no questions asked. I asked why I didn't get any kind of a warning and was told that this is the 3rd instance where a teacher has received a complaint for speaking inappropriately and so that's why I'm being written up. It's the first complaint against ME but because I'm the 3rd one (even though I'm told my instance is the absolute LEAST offensive and minor) I am getting an official write up.

The principal even told me that she knows that this is probably related to my personal situation and she acted like she was trying to give me some leeway but I don't feel that way at all. 9 years of teaching and I've never been written up. With everything I'm going through outside of work (which my principal knows about) I can't believe I'm not getting any sort of leniency, or at least a warning first.

A letter like this in file could keep me from ever getting a job as a teacher again. Of course it all depends on how the letter is worded, which I haven't seen yet (it will come later).

All in all, I spent most of yesterday in tears. Hysterical tears, at that.

I've made an appointment with a therapist to start to work through some of the PTSD type emotions I'm experiencing. I'm also going to make an appointment wiht a doctor to look into some possible very lowdose antidepressants. I'm really worried it will affect my TTC and affect the baby once I do conceive. But....I need something.

I'm such a wreck.

Sorry for the rant.



jalilma CONGRATS!!! I can totally see that line!!! And any lady in here will tell you that means its definitely positive!

 

[Blackrain90]

Oh Angel I am so sorry you are going through that. Its terrible that you get written up for something like that when it's the first time ever, and yet do the parents question why it got to that point? Why their little shit was refusing to listen to their teacher? Ridiculous. I hope it gets pulled at year end and doesn't affect your placement next year.
A low dose of anti depressants shouldn't affect ttc, but being stressed will, so it is definitely a good thing to look into (bipolar anxious mess talking here haha) but hopefully you are able to get some help and get back to your old self.

 

[Angel5000]

Oh Angel I am so sorry you are going through that. Its terrible that you get written up for something like that when it's the first time ever, and yet do the parents question why it got to that point? Why their little shit was refusing to listen to their teacher? Ridiculous. I hope it gets pulled at year end and doesn't affect your placement next year.
A low dose of anti depressants shouldn't affect ttc, but being stressed will, so it is definitely a good thing to look into (bipolar anxious mess talking here haha) but hopefully you are able to get some help and get back to your old self.

I should also clarify I work with high school kids, so this was a 17 year old that was smarting off. It wasn't like I cursed at a little kid either. If this was elementary I could see how I would immediately get in trouble. But high schoolers.... hell, the kid I said it to curses ALL THE TIME. He uses some really foul language. Sort of baffling really, that the kids can say whatever they want to us, but if a teacher says it the world is ending.

Thanks for the support. And I'm glad to know that low dose shouldn't affect ttc. I figure as long as I tell the doctor that I'm TTC then they will try to make sure I'm on something that is safe. I do know the stress will affect it, so I'm wondering if I get on some meds and my stress level goes down if maybe that'll be just what I need. That would be nice.

 

[cupcake.]

Just peeking in while we're at the hotel for a bit. Prague is absolutely and breathtakingly beautiful by the way!

Jalilma, huge congrats!! I'm so excited for you

Angel, i'm sorry you're having such a tough time.. i can't believe you got in trouble for that.. seriously, some young people are just the most rude people ever. The sad thing is, they wouldn't have turned out a brat with decent parents. Can't understand how parents just always assume their child is an angel that would never misbehave. Seriously if i had gone home and told my parents that i've been told by a teacher to take my shit and move seats their reaction would have been "well, your teacher must've had a reason to tell you that. Hope you at least did as you were told"... glad you're going to get help and i too think that stress like this is far worse for ttc than a low dose antidepressant

Afm, like i said, no temping but i am having tons of creamy CM. 6dpo today. Creamy CM is definitely not unusual for me post ovulation so it might not mean anything. I'm trying to look at it realistically but somehow i can't shake that irrational feeling deep inside that this might really be my lucky cycle. We'll see though

 

[jalilma]

Oh Angel I am so sorry you are going through that. Its terrible that you get written up for something like that when it's the first time ever, and yet do the parents question why it got to that point? Why their little shit was refusing to listen to their teacher? Ridiculous. I hope it gets pulled at year end and doesn't affect your placement next year.
A low dose of anti depressants shouldn't affect ttc, but being stressed will, so it is definitely a good thing to look into (bipolar anxious mess talking here haha) but hopefully you are able to get some help and get back to your old self.

I should also clarify I work with high school kids, so this was a 17 year old that was smarting off. It wasn't like I cursed at a little kid either. If this was elementary I could see how I would immediately get in trouble. But high schoolers.... hell, the kid I said it to curses ALL THE TIME. He uses some really foul language. Sort of baffling really, that the kids can say whatever they want to us, but if a teacher says it the world is ending.

Thanks for the support. And I'm glad to know that low dose shouldn't affect ttc. I figure as long as I tell the doctor that I'm TTC then they will try to make sure I'm on something that is safe. I do know the stress will affect it, so I'm wondering if I get on some meds and my stress level goes down if maybe that'll be just what I need. That would be nice.

Because it's NEVER EVER the child's fault... If my kids get yelled at in class I tell them they shouldn't have been acting up. Sorry you are having to deal with all that.