ok...well, I've been hanging onto this for awhile...but I guess I might feel better if I let it out!
I have been out of work since November when I (the temp) had my contract end so a regular employee could keep their job...it sucked, but there was not much I could do about it.
I went on unemployment and I have been actively looking for work since then. I became preg in January, and still looked. Now that I'm passed the 3 month mark, I'm so scared that I won't be able to find another job so that I can qualify for maternity leave. I just heard on the news how women who are coming off leave have found that they have no jobs to come back to, and hence have no hours to qualify for unemployment. Also, some women are also experiencing being outright fired cuz they're expecting...
I didn't want to, but I called Social Assistance to find out if in the worst case scenario that I don't find work (my unemployment ends in November, baby's due October 22) if I would be able to get help...and they told me that they only give $1000 a month to a family of 3, and since my OH makes slightly more than that, I do not qualify.
I beg anyone to show me where a family of 3 can live on $1000/month?!?!?! I am so disappointed with our stupid shitty government...I don't know who voted these morons back into power, and now there are so many families struggling and suffering, and there seems to be absolutely no one who gives a shit!
We have to get rid of our car (which we need to visit with OH's other 2 kids who live 200km away)...my OH is crushed, and I felt like such a
for having to give us both a much needed reality check. We are struggling so much, and have no savings, and if we don't ditch the car, then my baby will be sleeping on the f***ing floor, and yet...the government is not interested in helping.
I'm so scared that we will become homeless or something, and there are no jobs anywhere, so it's not like we can even relocate...my OH has a job, and he says it's not a good idea to quit it and move elsewhere (which I agree)...but I have so many skills and even I can't find work. And, I can't do the physical work I used to do (I'm an electrical technician by trade)
I'm terribly sorry for unloading all this, but I'm so scared all the time, and it absolutely kills me to have had the thought that perhaps we should've terminated...Of course OH was appalled at my suggestion, as I've been waiting for a baby for so long, and he said 'what if this is our only chance?'...so of course we didn't...but it's gonna be so hard, and I don't know if we can do it. It's hard enough for us to make it with just the 2 of us. We don't even have enough $$ for me to be eating properly, and I'm losing weight, and I'm so scared!
I don't want to be without my LO, but I don't want to put a child into a situation where we might not have a place to live!
Again, I'm so sorry this had to come out like this. I don't want to spoil anyone's glorious sunny day or weekend.