Only 5dpo and already driving myself insane?

[DoubleLines]

So I think it's just slightly darker (12 hours later haha) with FMU. But a ept digi said "Not Pregnant" so of course I'm freaking out a bit. I'm hoping if I'm only 9 dpo, and still 6 days away from my expected period, I can trust the FRER but not a digi yet. I definitely don't feel normal. Nothing like I expected - no sore bbs, no cm, but just sorta of woozy at times and by like 7/8pm I'm exhausted. I'm so so scared to believe it.

 

[macydarling]

That is for sure a BFP! Digi.probably isnt sensitive enough for it yet. Congrats lady!!!

 

[DoubleLines]

Thank you!!! I think I'll fully believe it in a few days...

I'm not going anywhere - keep me posted!

 

[macydarling]

PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME lol.

I was having some twinges this morning like dull throbbing sort of pain in my lower hip area on the left side on the way to work and then on the right during bfast. My cm is now a bit watery and white-ish clear. Everything Im reading says that is normal before AF

 

[macydarling]

Goodness I cant get my emotions in check today! Sorry to be a Debbie Downer when you have such exciting news. I have been crying this morning because I am so frustrated! I know that is ridiculous. I just cant take any more disappointment I am thinking of testing again tomorrow just so I can see the BFN and mentally check out for this cycle. That is when my app is telling me to test anyway.

 

[DoubleLines]

Not a debbie downer at all, I would feel the exact same way! I'm so sorry about this cycle I am NOT leaving!!! I am sticking around until you get your BFP!!! xoxo

How are you feeling now? Feel free to vent away as needed.

I really am still holding out hope for this cycle for you since you haven't seen Aunt Flow yet. If it's not, I will be standing by you for your next cycle!!! And sending you opks haha.

 

[macydarling]

Ahhh just still feeling down! It's rainy here too so Im sure that doesnt help. I am just disappointed because I had high hopes for this cycle since it seemed like we timed everything right.

LOL about the OPKs. I told DH I want to use them next cycle to see if I even O at all. At this point, Im not sure. 6 months of TTC...you would think something would happen by now. I used that stupid app and everything and did everything it told me to. No symptoms at all, just the sore nipples which means AF is imminent. Urgh. Maybe I will buy a cheap 1st response knockoff tonight just to put all the what ifs to bed for good!

How are you feeling? Any symptoms yet? Morning sickness?!? SEND ME YOUR BABY DUST. lol.

 

[DoubleLines]

Honestly, I say the OPKs are great in that at least you know for sure what day you have 2 peak days and then you can hit them and rest a little easier. during the 2 ww. I haven't used the app, but it does make me wonder if it can be off at all.

I'M SENDING YOU ALL THE BABY DUST!!!! COME ON BUMP BUDDY!!!


So I definitely feel a little weird. Hungry every few hours (not sure that's new haha), a little woozy at times, very faint cramps at times, but otherwise sort of normal. The one big thing is mood swings. Literally one minute I feel happy and excited, the next I feel SO angry, irritable, and overwhelmed with work and things that really shouldn't be overwhelming. I feel like a crazy person! But honestly, I'll take it all. I think I'll be happy to feel morning sickness just because I'm so nervous and anxious to get through the first trimester!

 

[macydarling]

Aww, all the worrying is definitely normal! I know that 1st trimester is scary but it will fly by before you know it.

Im trying to catch all the baby dust! Lol! I just had possibly the most boring treadmill run of my life because they are getting the carpets cleaned and have started putting everything away. Gahh literally no tv just a treadmill and a blank wall! It motivated me to go faster though and I knocked out 3 miles in 20 min 22 sec. Like always, I just needed a little sweat to clear my head and change my perspective on things.

I soooo hope AF is a no show so that we can be bump buddies! That would be AMAZING. I was talking to DH about hpts and he said I should start buying the positive ones instead...har har har. Still undecided if I want to test again or wait! TELL ME WHAT TO DO lol.

 

[emmalouisenun]

Can anyone help/
I am 9dpo and BFN
i had cramps for day 6 and 7 then a jet lagged feeling.
Any chance this could lead to BFP?

 

[macydarling]

It is definitely possible Emma! You are still quite early at 9dpo.

 

[DoubleLines]

Emma, agreed with Macy. It's so early! I would say test in a few days

 

[macydarling]

Still having those random twinges. Weird!

 

[DoubleLines]

Ahhh I'm sending lots of baby dust, lots and lots and lots!

When will you test again?

I've decided I need to keep myself busy. I can't read anymore threads about chemical pregnancies or mmc or I will lose my mind. Having to wait until 7 weeks for my first doctor's appointment completely freaks me out - because what if something is wrong and I don't find out until then? I know I need to relax and just let be what will be. Somehow I thought I just needed to get out of the TWW, now I feel worse!

 

[macydarling]

Couldnt you request a sooner appt? Maybe? Explain the situation and how it is making you stressed. Worth a try!

I am going to try and wait to see if I miss my period Friday!

 

[DoubleLines]

You know I debated that, but then read that anything earlier than 6 they usually can't hear the heart rate and that can cause even more worry (when there doesn't need to be). I'm trying to tell myself, what's meant to be will be, and all I can control is staying healthy and happy.

NO AF for you!!!!

 

[macydarling]

That is true! Enjoy your time now and try not to worry. That was a really solid line especially for 8dpo! I dont think you have anything to worry about. Would love to see that digi though. That is an awesome feeling!

 

[DoubleLines]

Agreed! I am planning on taking a digi this weekend, maybe on day of missed period just because if a digi gives me any kind of negative before...I'll probably lose it! I am not letting myself test again until Thursday (I want to see darker lines!) because it's getting to me too much.

Keep me posted...

 

[macydarling]

Dont worry is SUPPOSED to be faint this early. Trust. Dont forget to post those dark lines!

Well my breasts are finally hurting. I had quite a bit of creamy white CM this morning which is odd since it had turned watery the past 2 days. Im not sure how Im supposed to keep track of it and figure out what is normal for me when it keeps changing!

Carpets are getting cleaned today so DH and I are taking the kids I nanny to the aquarium (no way would I try that by myself LOL). So that is a great distraction for me Before I know it, it will be tomorrow and that is the day before AF is due! Ahh. I have already accepted I am out to prepare myself. I even set out the box of tampons and put some in my purse. Im scared! Ha!

 

[DoubleLines]

Hmm that is so odd! Do you find food or exercise might affect your CM? I'm wondering because prior to this month I was training for a half ironman (then it stopped being fun and got to be way too much so I decided not to do it) but last cycle I had loads of CM. I cut back (significantly) on exercise and this cycle I'm practically dry (sorry TMI). I still wonder if it's from the pg or just change for my body. It's frustrating that bodies can't be more predictable!

Spending the day at the aquarium sounds like so much fun!!

I'm still sending baby dust your way!!

Took another FRER this morning (yup officially a poas addict)...