Ladies i lost the baby
I went to the ER at 10w5d because of minor cramps and a tiny bit of brown spotting. I didn't think much of it but i figured i'd get it checked out for peace of mind. The ER doc did a scan and i could tell something was wrong. She asked if i was sure of my dates, i said i was positive. I asked what was wrong and she said what she saw did not correspond to a 10 week fetus.
So anyway later that day i was sent to obstetrics and this time a gyno performed the scan with more sophisticated equipment. She was very nice and comforting. She explained to us that baby had stopped developping at 6w4d. She said my case is exceptional because normally nausea and vomitting are signs the pregnancy is progressing well. I guess my body is extremely sensitive to pregnancy hormones.
Although i couldn't stop crying at first, i am handling the news better than i would have thought. It's been only 2 days and already i am accepting the fact. I think it helps that i already have a child. I just look at her and remind myself of how lucky i am.
I am scheduled for a d&c on monday but last night i started bleeding heavily and passed what i think is the bag, so i don't think i will need it. I'd prefer the mc happen naturally.
I am quite sure we will try again in the near future, but not right away. Today i am actually enjoying food again, and i am looking forward to hitting the gym again. I am going to try to enjoy my pregnant free body for a little while, if that makes any sense.
I truly hope all goes well for you ladies, and that you deliver healthy chubby babies in October. I hope my story doesn't scare you. The gyno said that my age is the biggest factor. She said that at age 35, there is a 35 to 40% chance of a mc. I knew my odds going in though, and maybe that is helping me to accept what has happened.
Lots of hugs ladies, take care.
xox