filipenko32
2xDD & Expecting No.3
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I know you would actually post me those drugs! . I'm sure they will give me something more though as they did say last time to go back if the pain was too much but it's not something you want to do at the time, you almost can't move can you?!? So I'll be sure to get the extra meds beforehand. But thank you x x x
Ramble alert! As for being brave, I feel that I'm very lucky that i have chance to get my head around things and no other stresses in my life at all. Whilst I am getting my head around it now and remaining positive as can be, although I have had super down moments already, I would be in even worse, a million times worse if I had to worry about working and money and didn't have the most wonderful hubby to look after me and follow this through until we get there and tell me not to worry about anything.
I started getting panic attacks and not coping after the 2nd mc and went on sick leave. Then i had another mc in that time and havent been back since. I don't know if you know but I'm a primary school teacher and I love my job so much!! I want nothing more than to go back to work 12 weeks pregnant and have everything be normal again, but I really wasnt coping. I was leaving the lessons to cry and I was even late for work on two occasions!! I just couldn't get there, I was rigid with panic and crying all the time. In the 8/9 years I taught for i didn't have one sick day!!! Not one!
So that's going to look very good when I do go back. My school have been very supportive as they know I'm a great teacher and they just want me back 
but it's very harrowing to keep having to tell them I've miscarried again. I'm sure they think I must fall down the stairs all the time!! So you see I am afforded the opportunities to think and not have any other stresses. I was doing bits and pieces of writing for my hubbies business but he sacked me as I was always on here and couldnt concentrate! Me and hubby think that limited stress helps me to get pregnant quickly too. But as a teacher you see pregnant women, babies and children all the time and I think I would have ended up in a mental institution if I'd carried on.
So you see I'm not that strong a person really. Once I'm out of this horrible nightmare, I will never take my past great life so for granted again, I was such a happy person, I had everything, a great family, loads of friends, a great job, plenty of money, holidays clothes everything and now... It just goes to show how quickly your life can turn upside down. In fact sometimes I was so happy and excited about things going on in my life I
Couldn't sleep for a while the night before! Even if it was as simple as taking my class to the zoo one day and then going out after that with all my friends! Just can't imagine that now!! I was never in the house!!
One thing that helps me is knowing I am so lucky to have such a supportive hubby and that people do go through worse than me, for example, stillbirths and disabled children, non supportive partners and work/money worries aswell. So I just count my blessings too and hope this is all over soon... What a ramble!!!
I know you would actually post me those drugs! . I'm sure they will give me something more though as they did say last time to go back if the pain was too much but it's not something you want to do at the time, you almost can't move can you?!? So I'll be sure to get the extra meds beforehand. But thank you x x x Ramble alert! As for being brave, I feel that I'm very lucky that i have chance to get my head around things and no other stresses in my life at all. Whilst I am getting my head around it now and remaining positive as can be, although I have had super down moments already, I would be in even worse, a million times worse if I had to worry about working and money and didn't have the most wonderful hubby to look after me and follow this through until we get there and tell me not to worry about anything.
I started getting panic attacks and not coping after the 2nd mc and went on sick leave. Then i had another mc in that time and havent been back since. I don't know if you know but I'm a primary school teacher and I love my job so much!! I want nothing more than to go back to work 12 weeks pregnant and have everything be normal again, but I really wasnt coping. I was leaving the lessons to cry and I was even late for work on two occasions!! I just couldn't get there, I was rigid with panic and crying all the time. In the 8/9 years I taught for i didn't have one sick day!!! Not one!
So that's going to look very good when I do go back. My school have been very supportive as they know I'm a great teacher and they just want me back but it's very harrowing to keep having to tell them I've miscarried again. I'm sure they think I must fall down the stairs all the time!! So you see I am afforded the opportunities to think and not have any other stresses. I was doing bits and pieces of writing for my hubbies business but he sacked me as I was always on here and couldnt concentrate! Me and hubby think that limited stress helps me to get pregnant quickly too. But as a teacher you see pregnant women, babies and children all the time and I think I would have ended up in a mental institution if I'd carried on.So you see I'm not that strong a person really. Once I'm out of this horrible nightmare, I will never take my past great life so for granted again, I was such a happy person, I had everything, a great family, loads of friends, a great job, plenty of money, holidays clothes everything and now... It just goes to show how quickly your life can turn upside down. In fact sometimes I was so happy and excited about things going on in my life I
Couldn't sleep for a while the night before! Even if it was as simple as taking my class to the zoo one day and then going out after that with all my friends! Just can't imagine that now!! I was never in the house!!
One thing that helps me is knowing I am so lucky to have such a supportive hubby and that people do go through worse than me, for example, stillbirths and disabled children, non supportive partners and work/money worries aswell. So I just count my blessings too and hope this is all over soon... What a ramble!!!
??? . Last time I had a scan a month ago the sonographer said my womb was perfect, she actually said that, so want to keep it that way, damage limitation! My good hotel keeps getting squatters and I want a nice guest next time!! X x x
and it actually helped so much.
