Hello ladies. I hope you don't mind me joining you
I'm P, 25, mum to one gorgeous little lady and am expecting again, due June 26th, my birthday.
We suffered two losses (one at 6w5d, one at 8w6d) just before DD and one whilst trying for this current baby. I didn't even know I was pregnant with the most recent loss. We were trying but I was breastfeeding and my cycles were very much all over the place. On a whim I tested, right in the middle of what I can only describe as an epic period, like nothing I'd ever experienced except for my miscarriages. Lo and behold, a stonking great positive.
Cue a trip to the doctor, who referred me to the hospital, who took blood and scanned me. They found a 9-week old baby with no heartbeat. The bloods came back with hCG levels of around 8 weeks. 2 days later they had dropped to levels of around 6 weeks.
Shock doesn't begin to cover it, especially as I was charting my BBT at the time and had no indication I was pregnant. The month I must have conceived I had a normal thermal shift, a 2 day luteal phase (told you my cycles were screwy
) and what I classed as a perfectly normal period. The same went for the next cycle: I had a thermal shift, FF gave me her lines, and I had what I thought was a 3-day LP, the next cycle the same story with a 6 day LP (I was chuffed that my cycles were supposedly regulating). Then the 'period from hell'.
Needless to say I was scouring my charts. The doctors were no use on that front and told me to stop obsessing (how can you not?!) and to this day I don't understand it. I mean the thermal shifts were slightly less dramatic when I was pregnant but it was still 'clear' ovulation
Even FF picked it up!
Anyway, that was back in June. We caught in September and this little bean has hopefully stuck! The good news is they gave me lots of scans in first tri to try and keep my mind at ease.
Sorry for the epic intro, as you can tell the most recent loss is certainly on my mind a lot more than the earlier two which I have sort of dealt with. Not totally, as I don't think you can ever get over it, but there you are.
I am thrilled to be expecting number two. I was told in my teens that I was unlikely to have children as my cervix was damaged (which is presumably why I've had trouble hanging onto pregnancies in the past) so to carry to term and have a beautiful healthy little girl was something I had almost ruled out, despite us deciding to ignore the doctor and try for children anyway. But for it to happen again!
I am past my 'danger zone' (i.e. 7-9 weeks) and, while I'm still wary and by no means assuming the all clear, I am feeling a lot more relaxed this time around. My body has done it once before and I am clinging to that.
I hope you don't mind me joining you, I know I didn't start my journey with you ladies but I'm hoping to end it with you if that's ok.
Looking forward to getting to know you all!
When us your first scan?
I've been put back 2 days to 10 + 6 and my due date is August 4th It was such an amazing experience!
