smiler , my doc just said its my choice if i go back r not, she said ask um in the hosp on thurs what they think, least im not under pressure anyway

xx if its safe il go back, could do with dosh and distraction

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meditation is great.

i just had my final one of my 5 week meditation classes tonight and it was unreal

its healing and meditation. i felt like i had been steam rollered after but in a good way

she said to envisage what u wished for, so i saw me with Lo in my arms breast feeding while OH sat beside us

was lovely . then she said to wish for one thing and then imagine it has already happened , i wished to not worry and i dont anymore. i feel like someone has just removed it all from my head and heart

it was soooooo good, i hope it stays with me

i can always meditate myself and do it again anyway. it was so lovely

i cant describe it properly

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sendin u lots of PMA

xxxxxxxxxx ucan have some of my zen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
hopeful thanks sweetie, im praying for u too xxx im sure we wil both be fine ( i hope )

hee hee xxxxxxxx thank god we have our scans soon

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i call my baby the giraffe

ha ha. an early conversation me and oh had started it off.
i was being a nervous nelly before my first scan and i said 'what if the doc tomoro says its......' i was gonna finish it with that the baby is gone but i felt like i was worrying OH and jinxing my baby so it got finished with 'a giraffe' , so i ended up saying 'what if doc says its a giraffe', im pretty sure OH knew what i had been about to say
i also call it bub sometimes

bit more normal
babybemine , dead right hon xxxxxxxxxxxxx